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Sunday, December 25, 2022

12.25.22 christmas day and the last night of Hanukkah more articles from the past

i wrote this post last night before i went to sleep, but only in my mind and  this morning much of it is lost.
I went on my first post surgery bike ride yesterday, not too far, but enough to put some sress on everything.
As the weddings approach i realize how much of that is tied to what i am doing, living someone else's  life for someone else who is part of someone else's perfect world, and this world is far from perfect.   No one wins, it is a game of percentages, how much is lost because of one bad decision, on one series of decisions or hesitancy at a moment of crisis or acting when no act is required.

i cannot tell how far in the past these articles are, i did not check, but they are dated except for the last one which is recent, perhaps from today or yesterday, at least when it was shared with me.

https://www.nature.com/articles/d41586-020-02005-0


https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qDfSe4sjmNw


https://www.newsweek.com/quantum-physics-gender-binaries-1516315

https://www.facebook.com/100083165393815/posts/154703390645173/?mibextid=Nif5oz
The last article takes me back only to yesterdqy in terms of when i read it, but it takes me back a decade when i think of what it means.
How easy it would have been to have been visited by 3 ghosts last night who would tell me what to do next.  But there were no ghosts and I woke up to nothing but darkness, cold and coffee that was a couple of days old, at least a day past its prime.

It is quiet now, the afternoon is long although darkness is at least an hour away..  I have had 9,000 steps today compared to the 14000 yesterday, 11 stairs compared to to 12 yesterday; but i can get the last steps if i want and perhaps i could get the steps, but I am so tired, i will rest for a while. Come to me in my dreams. 



Tuesday, December 20, 2022

12.20.22

 

This was unexpected, but life is full of shocks and the unknown ending in a darkness which appears all to certain.

Sunday, December 18, 2022

Articles from 2020: 121822 Happy Hannukah

https://scitechdaily.com/quantum-physicists-crack-mystery-of-strange-metals-a-new-state-of-matter/


https://youtu.be/OfxoM6trtZE

I am not assuming you will ever read this and i write to you almost every day, so I may not be able to excuse this.
I asked chat gpt (you need to check it out if  you have never seen it but I am sure you have) what I should say and it said something about that i am thinking about you and am here if you ever want to chat.  
I would like to speak with you, but my heart seizes up when I look at my phone as I often do and look at the last text or the last time I callled.  I know it must sound absurd or even imature to you.  
I am still your friend, hidden somewhere in this impossibly deep morass of emotions, although i love you too much, perhaps need you too much to be a trusted friend.  I was that once.  I dream about you more often than I would have imagined, including last night.  So this is my present to myself this first night of Hanukah.
There is a prayer only said on the first night of Hanukah that thanks god for bringing us safely to this season and I hope you are safe.  
I could go on for some time here, but I will keep this short since I am likely writing this to myself.  Happy Hanukah to the love who is also my best friend, however lost to me you are.

Saturday, December 10, 2022

From 8.14 20 to add to list

 https://scitechdaily.com/physicists-cast-doubt-on-neutrino-theory-exotic-subatomic-particle-may-not-exist-at-all/

https://youtu.be/OLHxxBTl71I

https://www.investors.com/news/nuclear-fusion-startup-zap-energy-gets-investment-dow-jones-oil-giant-chevron/

https://www.vice.com/en_uk/article/4ay5w3/lasers-made-of-spacetime-wave-packets-are-breaking-the-normal-rules-of-light

https://www.forbes.com/sites/startswithabang/2020/08/12/a-spacetime-surprise-time-isnt-just-another-dimension/#1a2f9a6f47dc

https://femanin.com/2022/11/10/signs-youre-a-toxic-person/?utm_source=gallery2&utm_medium=gallery2-George-lou5_495_signsyoureatoxicperson1_20221209183553_202212100800alk1530000s1-al-k-15&utm_campaign=lou5_495_signsyoureatoxicperson1_20221209183553_202212100800alk1530000s1-usmobileandroid1-1&aniview=1&ajax=1&cloud=1&adhesion=1&landing=1&fbclid=IwAR0VDpn6uidhEJ9mrQkLAKKhNlR8xx0Rx6P3MhzsEXWtbSfYMhUash7mcz0&slide=1


https://phys.org/news/2020-08-scientists-quantum-states-longer.html

Saturday, December 3, 2022

12322

 That should have gone in my other blog. I am ok, maybe not fine yet, but ok and everything is working. 3 weeks recovery if nothing goes amiss.

Thursday, December 1, 2022

12.1.22

 Surgery today.  Minor because it isn't happening to you.  Were anything to happen and were anyone to ask my last thoughts would be (are) of you.

Very complex times as things hang in the balance.