I am very tired of you breaking things off
and then blaming it on me.
Does not mean I don;t deserve the blame
I can't say the right thing
or the appropriate thing
I think of graveyard services in the snow
and I just want a picture
Of you
In the snow
mourning
and why
it would be so rare
so so tragic
I'm not ready to suffer
It's my brother's birthday
among other things
I missed lunch
I'm still not hungry
all nerves
I walked the day before
Today
an advertised snow storm
the cold kept the golfers away
i had my private park
all to me and the dog
the sky did not hint of the storm coming
it was the bluest
most beautiful sky
it reminded me of your eyes
although not exactly the blue
and not like the sky at all
but a beautiful color
that I don't see enough of
to mourn
Their passing