10422

 Well, finished a couple of draft documents not what they need to be but probably good enough to file the grant.  I plan to take one or two more stabs at getting information on data sources and then start filing these so that maybe, if everything goes well, I can have them all filed this week alleviating the need to work over the weekend.

I believe that subject to substantial editing which I've made printouts to complete, I'll have something more or less ready to submit tomorrow covering at least 90% of the items required; while stillwaiting for some feedback.

There are assumptions to be made.

Swam a very hard 1900 yards, wasnt a hard workout it was just hard to do. Got over 30im and did all 1000im also, confusing as that wounds inlcuding one 400 im at the end.

If the world ends without me holding you again, i suppose it isnt worth saving, but i still worry about it and my strange place in saving it.

Things are afoot, tomorrow will be a busy a telling day.

Sleep well,it is enough that i cannot be saved.   There is no need to be dragged down with me.

10322

 After a morning at an event I am pretty wasted.  May have been the sugar from the bread pudding which I could have lived without eating.

I was able to meet with who I wanted to meet with which was nice.  One more thing I can take off of my mental calendar.  I was hoping to get out some work this afternoon, but I'm not feeling iT.

I have to walk the dog, but i need to swim to deal with this exhaustion.  Its always something and probably a little of both.  I am taking a breather.

When the sun goes down I will walk the dog  Do i swim first?

There is no answer to things here, even something as simple as swimming which is now a production.

it is a crazy mixed up world which Im not ready for; never have been.

I walked, but didn't swim.  This stupid hernia things, seems to be changing, not for the better.

I have my steps and my stairs and my sleep for the day, but I also have my hernia.  I have a lot of work to deal with tomorrow, I'm largely out of time.

Tomorrow is a full day, we will see what gets done then.  More emails to send, more work to do, more to finish but I did get certain things done and there is more to do.

I can forget the personal things for the moment, I have too many deadlines too close together.  Perhaps it is time to move on, perhaps it is long past time.

10222

 Well, there will be another opportunity in May potentially.  what should we do there?  Or perhaps the question is what should i do, very disappointing.

There is a giant dead tree to cut down.   Not sure when it died, a neighbor pointed it out when i was working on the fence temporary repairs. I caught the neighbor spraying weed killer over the 8 foot fence into my yard.  I wonder if the weed killer killed the tree.  it is an interesting thing to ponder.  I should ask the neighbor to pay the 1500 to take down the tree.

Very frustrated, shouldn't have to wake up day after day like this. i miss you. my back is stiff, but continues not to have serious problems.  Need to keep doing stretches, even though I am exhausted  Even though I am frustrated, i did sleep well, likely the result of the first pool swim of the season, despite the constant attempts through the night of the cats to keep me up.

After the last year I begin to think about what electronic dating would look like.  While i have some purient interest in the concept, when i think logically, it sounds awful, catfish and communicable disease.

I have a lot to do today.  With only 9 days left I hope to have a finished draft to send to my small team and request suggestions.  Need to find large data source still.  I need to look at the documentation for suggestions.  Maybe I will send an email in that regard, ok, to think that was to have done it.  I do think that I have the basics finished.  That includes ideas about the new constant, although it is an area of discomfort at 93% matching.  I am uncertain if i can take meaning from that although the atomic stuff is not dissimilar.  Only pi has stayed the course with complete accuracy.

30 minutes elliptical and 15 weights later, back feels fine, how I don't know.  Working on the narrative.

https://youtu.be/s9NIBZfVBW4

https://youtu.be/3aguZjkVLaE

I finished the narrative enough to send it to the programmers for comment although much remains to be done.  tomorrow i have meetings all day and tuesday i need to focus on the market plan or whatever they call it.  a lot of that is in the narrative, but the point is that it is time to finish and file these things, this being a 3-for-one means it will take less time, but still time.

10122

 It is dark outside, the cats are screaming to get out with the coyotes, driving me a little crazy.  after yesterday, i am being careful with my back which is looking to pinch a nerve.  i wonder what it looks like up close, how old and stiff and arthritic.

Today i really need to swim, with the change in temperature i have been avoiding the outdoor pool which is too green in any event.  i need to drain, sand and paint it in the next 30 days.  I have not even ordered the materials to patch it.

Today I need to take all the assembled or disassembled pieces and get the first doe grants ready to file.  I basically have this weekend and next week to get it finished and it has be be worked into everything else.  I passed on the response to get the claims fixed.  it is likely that i will have to grab those back next week but i would like to have one of the grants finished by then since the other two will look the same and one is compliant which will be easy and the other although critical, likely cannot be made to satisfy the examiner who is closed to new models.

The budget is another issue as are the numerous forms which have to be laboriously put together for the first one and then copied for the other 2.

Everything goes onl hold to write another, what can you call it, anoter love letter?  What else could it be called?  A blog post, i suppose, but that does not express what i feel when i sit down to type in the darkness.

I have said it before, i am t oo old for this. I feel fine much of the time; but I fall asleep early and so the energy which seems on the surface to be normal  comes from a limited pool and after the heavy lifting of the day, my body sends me messages which the young feeling me cannot understand.

I finished the book on electrifying America by Jonnes, a sad ending, I suppose; but also instructive to me.

I walked the dog (2 miles) to the library to return the book and then around the nearby college to get the distance in.  Still planning on swimming later, but I've spent an hour cleaning up (just touching the tip of the iceberg) the first of the 3 grants.  Going to take a break to make some lunch.

Wrote in the changes into the document due in 11 days and started the first one, but there is a long way  to go.  Then i went to the gym pool for the first time this fall and swam 1800 yds with all the im, albeit at a 200 im pace.   That plus the 2 mile walk has not exhausted me and I continued to go as easy as possible on my back.

I worked a little on the outdoor project, testing my thoughts and in fact i was able to add a little security to things, but there is much to do there yet although I can pour concrete tomorrow now.

I saw a field of sunflowers with a rusting tank in front of it, the current battleground, so incredibly beautiful and horrible.

93022

 I have to look for a number this morning.  It is a strange thing to have to do and to be able to do.  Also this morning Ian the hurricane will make its second landfall, this time in nc.  this is as bad as hurricanes, a Katrina level event when we do not need more chaos right now.  But i have my number to find, so there is that.

I have a call to make also, but it is not so important although it should be.  I managed to finish all those things which absolutely had to be done yesterday but a dozen more rose in its place.  And yet as I sit here typing, drinking my coffee and waiting for the sun to come up, all the need tos take a back seat to reaching out to you.

The fine structure constant: 72973525....  It may not be exactly that because of failings of preaut science; but likely is like pi something that can be found and if not found right away, soon enough to include in this post, then perhaps i can find something close enough to explain it; something that i have already that approaches it like a feature of the denominator of pi where i would expect it to poke its head up.

And maybe it does, I'm not too sure.  Pi for 1 (as opposed to a numerator of 4) is between 0.785876174 and 0.784921065.  Technically, the FSC is .072973525; but maybe we can ignore the .0 part of this since that is primarily a scale element and the Pi for 1 number is 93% of the FSC number; a significant deviation, but one which likely reflects the additional curvature in the universe perhaps.

I got in the hot tub yesterday, the first time this year as i was cold. I did pretty minimal exercise yesterday although  it was still hard.  I did manage while putting the final touches on my evening and folding clothes manage to get my steps in; whether assisted by the elliptical workout or not i do not know.  I should have done weights, but things are so very busy right now.  The pool is more or less officially closed for the season, time to order the pump, drain, sand, patch, seal and repaint it.

When i talk about people catching up by accident, i see them doing so.

This was a scary walk back in the day, but it was really not very far and the trail is clear.  It's been a year since I was at this place at this time.

I did some heavy yard work, post hole digging, chain saw work and it reminds me that the hernia surgery, now scheduled, has to be done.  I know it will take a long time before I'll be able to do this heavy work afterwards, so I'm doing what i can now.  My back held up fine, although I did some stretches afterwards and my days as a longshoreman are far behind me.

I want to talk very badly, i cannot fight, so much is going on.

I'm going to post this and go walk the dog because I have gotten everything I am going to get off my desk today and I don't want to leave this open.

92922

 Storm stuff.  Strange messages, 17 dead or the deadliest storm to strike Florida when a deadly one killed over 2000.  It makes no sense.  I don't like to get into politics here, but a prominent and wealthy politician living in Florida had the tone deafness to ask for political contributions he doesn't need while his fellow statemen suffer and have needs he apparently cannot imagine.  Enough of that, but how terrible people can be.  There is this: How bad was Hurricane Ian? So bad that at least 35 Florida Waffle Houses closed (msn.com)

Moving fairly slow today so far. like the storm.  I've done a lot but I cannot say it's been efficient.

This came up on my feed even though it is several days in the past plus 12 months; so i made a youtube video I could share with you. https://youtu.be/QVVhpgqeRcc

I don't know what happens next, I am slowed down at every step; but I have a great deal to do and every journey begins with a first step.

I did the elliptical and that was all today, my hernia bothered me so I did the yoga that goes with it, but it wasn't very much and did not help very much.  There is a program that starts at 5 and even skipping a program in the middle, it has been skipping over sharpened metaphorical knives from one program or deadline after another.

I have 90% of "something that can be filed" for the next deadline coming up, a distant deadline that was easy to deal with was dealt with today, and the next 3 days will be focused on finishing the grant draft and uploading at least one version.  It is a challenging schedule, but it is a schedule.

I'm not getting much out of this seminar, but some of it is critical to what I am working on so I hope the slides are made available; but I'm not sure how this works since it is the first meeting of this type.  I'm making notes for my papers, one more set of work to finish.

It is getting late and I have not eaten dinner.  I am not hungry but I feel like I should eat something so I am going to post this for now.

92822

 It's actually still 9/27/22 as I type this.

Florida will be whacked by storm, things looking grim for one of my many alma Mattas.  I'm setting up my surgery tomorrow, probably.  Other people will be hunkered down; but the models all seem to say we are spared.  Just as well, I have a lot to do.

Did 4 workouts although the walk wasn't that much, two bike rides and weights were a lot.  Oddly enough still didn't get all my im for the week, go figure.

Wed. morning still very early.  Slept fairly well after all the exercise, troubling but often pleasant dreams.  Cannot remember all of the parts well.  I had an average of two "units of exercise" a day after yesterday, which is  why I would buy you a watch.

Cows asking where you are a year ago today.

Live 24/7 Multiple Cam Coverage of Florida as Hurricane Ian Approaches in 4k with NWS Tampa Audio - YouTube

I expect to come back later, but that is an interesting, but time sensitive web link.