133 days-Giving up things; exploration in the hologram

How many of us can withstand what we need from what we know is right
Are we all condemned to listen to sad songs played in our minds
music that we mistake for thought playing regrets for the rest of our lives
I think of the hearts that are shared with others and I think of those force to live alone
those that have found a comfortable home and those who ride the storms on stormy nights
what would someone do if they were given my broken heart, what would they make of it
kept alive artificially without you on some ventialtor, alone, wild and windswept
Our restless hearts, while longing for one another, can only find peace in each others wildness
we were not made to love the homebody heart, but long for the lonely adventures we share
We are searchers not because we do not love each other deeply, but because we were born to search
in this hologram universe, we are projected onto the stage, forced to watch those who live in a peace
which we might never find for each other, our lives a constant war to find me to find you
we can never give up on the dream, lover, though the storm take us farther apart
because we were born to strive for one another, the great romance being the burning desire to be
together, to be one, to find the peace that so many take for granted
which for those of us who are warriors, who must act out our revolutionary lines
that will most certainly take us to other sides of a great battle
but still we will love one another because it is something that we both understand
we come from a single place, we are two sides of a single coin
more than any other, when I am with you I know I am whole
and i can only give half of my heart and have of my lines to this great Greek comedy
unless i am with the other half of me, unless I am with you
rest well my love, myself, because for a time at least your other half is out there
fighting our storms, battling our angry seas, but only for the hope of a moment again together

Piles of books

We both end up with piles of books beside our beds. Perhaps they are because we don't want to be alone. Our books allow us to share our beds with all those characters their histories and adventures and it isn't sad or lonely because sometimes we share those beds and stories with each other only not often enough.

quantum tunneling 2-time loss equals gravity

In the prior conversation of the hologram universe, we discussed that since the universe is nothing but a projection on time, quantum tunneling is explained because there is no real distance and hence moving through barriers is only a manifestation.  There is no barrier probability (a probability that something which is a mere tendency to return to the singularity can pass through and other tendency is not difficult because tendency to be anywhere in the hologram is just a tendency after all.
The measure of the degree of tendency is the gravity of the tendency which is reflected by the fact that sufficient gravity results in a return to the singularity no matter where it is in the universe which shows that distance and therefore space is an illusion since particles across the universe from one another can fall into black holes light years apart towards the same singularity.
when we stop, we are traveling away from time. How is this expected from a singlularity projected. We may be giving time as opposed the opposite. This is fundamental mystery of quantum mechanics-particles when we look vs particles when we don't look.

Likewise particles don't have to go back through time, because they exist without time in G-Space. Prior states are affected by what we do afterwards, but without a necessary cause and effect because everything has happened at once.

As mentioned there is just time, Space time is a mere illusion which is shown because at speed of light space and time merge.  Hence space and time are interchangeable, primarily because space is a mere projection onto time.  However, the interchangeability should be explored further to determine if space and time are interchangeable as matter and energy.  That is, can time be created from space.
General relativity includes what holds everything together, Gravity which is merely the tendency to return to G-space from O-space (where we live) or the tendency to lose time.  If time is lost, then matter returns to the singularity (irregardless of where it appears in the illusion of space) and time can be lost by an accumulation of gravity through the accumulation of matter.

The uncertainty principle. everything as sub-atomic particles-quantum physisists can't show where something is located.  This can be explained in hologram theory because matter is all in the same place (G-Space, a singularity) until it is projected onto time. Nature won't allow particles to be boxed in according to quantum physics because they are all in the same place before projection.
The idea that you can borrow energy from future time then pay it back ignores the fact that time is the only medium for mass, space or energy to be projection. 
Matter does  not going thorugh a wall, but is instead in a singularity where time and space do not exist and it may therefore be projected at any point along time, just as black holes can, from any point, drop back to a single singularity. 
 

the sleep I finally had

I have had the sleep of damned
the sleep of old and bitter men
the sleep of those who sleep outside
without protection from the rain
the sleep of those who made their own problems
and who have no way to solve them
the sleep of those who have given up hope
but have no choice but to go on
the sleep of those who have lost love
the sleep of those who have lost friends
the sleep that has not come for a long time
but the sleep that is unsatisfying
because when its broken the same problems are still there
the sleep, however, that is given to almost everyone
the sleep that is broken and disturbed
the sleep that is unsatisfying
but which for at least a short motion
is the sleep that sets me free from the harsh universe
for just a few minutes of peace
until that sleep that comes forever

local manufacturing/pollution/survival of humans

We are getting closer to the release of the second editions of "China's Weaponized Economy" and "World War C" (previously Trust-How we lost the war with China.
As we approach this, a little diversion to the associated issue of increasing local manufacturing is in order.
Increased specialization can mean that critical industries are isolated.  In some cases critical products are made in a single location.  More than defeat to the warlike tendencies of the Chinese economy are at stake in this discussion.
Primitive man had to survive many disasters, in these cases they were all naturally occuring events.  A recent minature ice age may have brought on the French Revolution and this is a minor matter.
Previous disasters include the actual ice age which may have accelerated natural selection by a large factor and given rise to a sufficiently intelligent species to bring us to where we are today.  In a modern ice age, the lack of dispersed manufacturing would undoubtedly mean a breakdown in civilization, especially as that would be exacerbated by the scramble for the available land and resources without a shortfall of weapons and people.
This also goes to the short term versus long term intelligence issues of reigning in the random population growth we experience.  Those who take the approach that no one should feed pets better than the worst fed human, ignores the fact that population should be tied to both local food production and local manufacturing.  It should not be tied to the ability to provide food regardless of the global consequences.  That only makes sense if we want a world where people stand shoulder to shoulder broken only by sufficient land to make sure everyone gets enough to eat.  That type of world would not be worth saving.  Unfortunately, that is the only world we strive to as a race.  This is one of the many areas where China is far in front of other countries in planning for the future.
Local production and local food production, at least on some level, allows for people to focus more on these issues.  It doesn't mean that critical industries cannot or should be be localized.  You cannot have people build airplanes in every country or in every state, but some level of production and certainly food production tied to the population should be localized to the extent possible to ensure that critical skills are dispersed.

Valentine's day eve

How much I miss her
how far away she seems
Tonight of all nights
She should be beside me
Snoring lightly as she does
Embodiment of tranquility
exuding love and sexuality
she is everything for any man
Or for any woman if she felt that
if only she could know how I feel
My longing, friendship and love
That she must doubt at times
Its bottomless depths
The sweet pain it carries
Tonight I miss and love her
And wish her the happiness
The peace I  cannot have
Without her here with me

when you write me-your valentine to me (draft)

what does it mean when you write me
when you are confused, you say that you don't understand why we don't have more time together
when you are worried, you say that you care about me and realize all things are fleeting
when you write angry, you love me so much you can't stand it
when you are quiet, you love me too much to express it
when you are happy you relish how we help each other
when you are sad, you wish we had more time together
when you say you love me, you say how we both feel