7.31.22

 The last day of July, the world is ending.

I slept till 5am without ac.  could have just gone downstairs, i have an extra window unit even at my office, but in truth i was very comfortable under just a sheet.

I got plenty of exercise and if i have a slight headache today it is likely from snoring and not anything else.

So this morning i will likely run down to the office to pick up the ac unit, then install it on the deck since that is convenient.

There was another turn down by an accelerator, but those are not the right place for me.  These six grants that are pending, possibly only 3 that really have a chance of going anywhere, are the future as well as those which i will file very soon now.  For the AF grant I have all of 9 days left, also true if i file with the epa.

I have plenty to do there, the navy, the army; not to mention the DOE grants which are already written after a fashion.  Well, that is true of one.

I want to go ahead and file the provisional in whatever form and get the book published.

I am not, after all, making any progress.  This is a waste of a couple of hundred dollars, but i need the book published and the argument is that the patent even if largely too little too late in light of what is already filed should be filed anyway.

Went through the patent, made changes took out stuff, saw a whole lot to add, but it will never stop so i added some of it and checked and it was  the right length and all.  Maybe tomorrow as it is provisional anyway.

Rode bike to work, all seemed in ordeer with the ac so i carried it to the reception area, drove back picked it up in time for the hottest part of the day and assembled it and installed it and it is fighting a losing battle in this one room where it is not as hot as it might otherwise be.  I think in the evening it will be cool.  I would say the house is at 81 (only 92 or so outside today with clouds) and this room is probably 75.  Its a big room, not totally closed off and 75 is comfortable, not cold.

It is noisy too.  Still it will make a big difference over the next couple of days and being a small unit it wont use a lot of energy, probably far less than the central unit.

I made an involved salad of leftovers, a little turkey, a little dried out chicken, a little arugulla, tomatoes, beets which still had some life in them, a couple of types of cheese and some homemade chickpea mash with pita chips and a carrot chaser.

I brushed the pool which is all the upper body work, but it needed it and i think i have gotten sort of in front of it again, although probably need to run the pump tonight and i doubt i will swim again as i took a shower after the bike ride, assembly and installation.

I had a few imaginary conversations with you, none of them satisfactory, i was pretty busy going though the document and next week i will finish with the grant and get ready for the doe grants, maybe do a quick adapation for the epa, although that is just a waste of time.

7.29.22-30

 I didn't mention but despite the crazy wakings all night my watch which gave me no ims for 2k yrds said I had 8.47 of sleep and indeed I did sleep until almost 630 inexplicable.   Again last night I got 8.5 hours of sleep.  I rode my bike to work.

Then without a break and very little water I walked the dog, jumping in the pool at the end of all that to cool off, but afterwards I had to brush the pool yet again as even with the regular maintenance this hot weather threatens to get ahead of me.  I should run the pump tonight, but I am not.

I am tired and taking a break from work.

7.30.22

I do not need much content for a post, but i read for a long time last night.  It is 5am and i couldn't sleep after a couple of days of sleeping till 6 or 630 even.  I am not thrilled with the battery life of the new computer which is light but which seems to only have an unplugged battery life of a few hours instead of the 7 promised.  Probably a reason it is not more expensive.

Today, theoretically, the newer version of the extension for extra monitors comes in and if it works, then i will send the other one back and will have a single plug in to go multiple monitors, mouse and keyboard or portable.

I am making progress with the provisional.  Slow, but steady at least.  I am waiting for two last reviews on the AF grant and then i am ready to file it although i have low expectations.  it is an opportunity to save the world so there is that.

I am trying to work around the constant interruptions and pressures that sometimes seem overwhelming, but i put them in perspective and they go away.  I badly want to go to NM, but the patent stuff and grant deadlines make it unlikely.  

China-Taiwan; Russia-Ukraine; Jan. 6-S.ct-orweillian congress; climate change-super v-magnetosphere; so much to take in and so much to deal with.

A 3 mile walk, it was supposed to rain today according to yesterday, then not, then it rained anyway, thundering till now.

The part came in I was waiting for.  Either it works and I return the old one or it doesn't.

6:00 pm, added a 1600yd swim (1k im) to the walk.

Well, it didn't work, but I'm going to try some customer support before giving up.  Not overly happy, this has been a c-f.

I am also working on this tc purchase which is fked up for whatever reason.

Worst still, i am convinced i have to make my science work to save the planet. I will spare you the articles bemoaning the end of the world.

I am not sure if I can do it without you, I don't even know if I'm supposed to.

The AC died today too, wonderful day.  Fortunately there is a backup and an appointment already scheduled for Tuesday.  I can always go to New Mexico.

7.28.22

 The new device did not work, so it is on to the next version.  Not sure about this monitor, have to make monitor choices here.  The real problem is that it is less about the monitor and more about the eyes looking at it.

It's official, I haven't ridden my bike in a week, essentially since I had the flat last Thursday. 

It's cooling off, a storm is coming up from the south. Having a difficult time staying on task.  While a minor setback the inability to use all the screens together is a nuisance.

Swam 2000 yrds, nothing to write home about.  Found out today that they ignored the rehearing on the doe grant, maintaining the bullshit that it was based on dubious science.  Morons rejected it without even sending it to reviewers who could understand the science.  I do consider a pI art of this to due to poor drafting.

I have filed around 5 essentially identical grants, one of which is the long term research grant requested which is pending.  The other 4 were various ways of claiming a new way of categorizing information.  One more will be filed this go round (they're looking for it) but this time with some technical drafting assistance. On the bright side, it is largely drafted. On the dark side,it does not have the software part well developed.

The patent editing is a little better with a focus on just finishing one section at a time and not developing it more than absolutely necessary.  I am thinking of an 8/15/22 deadline, but no use setting one yet, it is just provisional work on top of that already filed and the real work is yet a year off.  I'll be editing it in front of the tv tonight, i have become my father.

I am a little over a week from the next interview.  I will have to spend some time next week getting ready, but I have plenty to do right now.

I need you to buy the lottery tickets with our birthdays since I don't see going to buy any myself.  If you win you don't have to share it, you can flaunt it at me or whatever it is that you would want to do.  I suppose nothing.

It will be interesting to see what the future holds in a world where random people can become billionaires from the lottery while others starve.  It depresses me.  Things have changed and everything about you depresses me.  What happened to the future?

7.27.22

     It is dark outside. To make sure there are no coyotes even though there is some dawn but not a whisk of direct light i have already brushed the pool.  It is getting less and less effective, the black algae spreading over perhaps a third of one side and in some other places.  This winter it will be a big job to fix everything.  I keep hoping it will sell, but not yet.

Today and tomorrow are big days.  Nothing in the quiet predawn hours gives hint to that.  It is neither hot nor cool, the birds have started their morning ritual.  The coffee is not good or bad, but it is still hot.

I have parts on order that need to be completed, the mouse, the one plug in that allows me to hook monitors and usb(s) in a single slot in the computer, for ease of use.  There may be a little more of looking at that issue, but  not much.  There are printer questions and the software I need to buy yet another copy of.  All in all this will not have ben a profitable undertaking but it will be an upgrade and the other computer can stay in place or I can put a computer on my cousins desk or...well there are a lot of options, but first i need to finish ordering things or determine to use those things which I find I already have.

6:02am.

The new computer is fast, the real test will come when I can plug into the monitors and when I add the remote keyboard and mouse.  I'm fine with the temporary stuff till then.

Well, turns out I had a fully functional wireless keyboard and mouse setup.  There are some monitor issues yet to work out, but I think the new device coming tomorrow will take care of that and next on the agenda is moving the old computer back to my office where it will serve as another 2 or 3 monitor setup depending on how things pan out.  It's a little slow so not so important.

I walked 2.5 miles got no im for it, so i swam because i needed to shower 1500 yds including 1000 im (2x500) and got 20 IM which got me my week's worth.

A lot is happening, but my bigger meeting tomorrow was cancelled under mysterious conditions and the one today did not go as well as I hoped.  Actually it went terribly.

That being said, I'm trying to save the world so I should survive the little things.

I have not said anything I want to say here, but its been a busy day and tomorrow will likely be equally busy.

7.26.22

 8.25 i have the first doctor apptmt i have scheduled in so many years that i could not get it with my old, now retired, regular physician.

The Calendly experiment has not worked yet although in fairness there was not even a weeks notice.  I did finally set it up however and i will see about next week when next week comes.  Also while I have nothing going through Thursday, I managed to sneak in the minimum number of interviews already and there are one or two slots open tomorrow that might fill in.

It seems like i was up 10 times between 10 and 1245 before settling in to longer sleep cycles last night.  I feel better this morning.  I have a full day whether the power is on or not and many things to do.  I need to add to it putting together a list of wants.

Am I close to the inflection point and will it even matter anymore?  I am old and being away from you has killed a part of me.

It is late, 430.  I broke down and bought the computer i needed to replace.  I am not totally happy with it so far, but it is the best deal that i saw, has a one year warranty and enough ports if not too many.  I am almost upset i did not buy the more expensive unit, but I think i made an ok choice.  As I get used to it, time will tell.

I have had no free time, today till now.  I just finished exercise, 35 minutes of elliptical machine on a challenging level 14 and then 20 minutes on the new weight machines which left my arms trembling a bit, I am not used to them and bounce between too much weight and not enough.  I needed it to calm my nerves, but i have to buy yet another copy of the cad program, I will need a wireless mouse and maybe a screen splitter eventally to simplify things.  There is also one password which I fear i will have to change on all of the machines which is not a huge deal, just an inconvenience.

I sent off the last document version to review today and I am satisfied with it because it will not result in much but will make a point, i also pitched it loosely to the navy and if the patent work and book and time allows then it will go to the epa, usgs and nsf.  Funny that i am trying to save the world and i dont even know for sure what is missing, there is the offset of speed issue, the whole pretime change and relative pretime change issue, the very foundations of energy and time; how did i get here without you.

My guilty pleasure is watching the time travelers wife when i do the elliptical; for whatever reason it makes me think of us, two people stuck in time who have known each other for 2/3rds of our lives now.  

7.25.22

 Making sweet potato pancakes with blueberries and pecans.

Getting them to the right crispness takes some doing.  It s a slow process so I can begin this blog.

Today was busy, but i mainly got effective work in the morning.  The power went off at the office and when I got home i began to suffer from the inner ear problem.  

For some strange reason my main printer which is old and was on the blink started to work again.  No explanation.   I have a 100 page document i have to print out, reorganize, edit and then file as a provisional somehow doing all that and everything else i have to do this week.

I was able to put my interview minimum together already and i am pretty happy with the results.  One did not happen and whether the other three or 5 happen is anyones guess and will come together or not this week before Thursday.  Thursday is the last presentation and the date for the tough work to be finished.  I may not print things out, i may be able to do what is necessary with just an index and onscreen editing which will save a step.  It is just a provisional after all.

So I have this to do:

1) The book

2) The provisional

3) The AF grant and maybe the epa one.

There is no way to get it all done this week.  My focus today was the patent

I am going to focus on the grant tomorrow and then send the next draft to my editors. 

I've been sidelined by inner ear. Mad at you or myself or both. 

7.23.24.22

 Spent the morning working on theory and grant.  Next Thursday I hope to enlist more techincal support and I have to get a substantial amount of work done first.  In the interim, I hope to get things finished enough to show to the AF and as I continue in the modeling I know that I need to file something and move on to finishing the book.

After thursday I have to shift somewhat to dealing with claims.  This stuff is very complex and is coming sooner than I wanted.  A dozen articles to read, some appear to be lost, but may be found easily.

Venus calm wind and electromagnetic exploration reconciled with modeling of something to deal with the background information on heat and cold.

There is a lot more to do yet, the right angle thing is at least partially confirmed.  Swimming is next on the agenda, little chance of rain this morning and everything is plenty war, the chlorine and ph levels are ok, probably both could use to be a little higher.  Controlling the clarity of the water has been surprisingly easy despite the high temperatures and rain; but no so much with the black algae growth on the walls which is completely out of hand right now and means that after the summer swimming season ends it will have to be dealt with although the sale continues to linger in the background.

Hwy 90 also continues to linger.  For sale by owner signs may be in the future, I do not know. Need to talk to the politicians about that since they have provided a platform.

I finally got around to making brocolli cheddar soup.  I would call it a limited succcess. It was not perfect, but I was really close and the pain problem was not with taste, but texture which might well have been associated with cheese or whole milk issues.  A limited difference might have come from using chicken and not vegetable broth.

My stomach is ok with it, that is what matters today.

I am dealing with a dozen technical issues and 4 different immediate grants and no telling how many others, all with different levels of already having been done enough attached and a book to edit and publish and the patent which never stops.

With all i have to do i shopped for the replacement computer.  There is a lot  to take in but i got some good info and eventually this week or next i will have to bite the proverbial bullet, but there is a reason to wait for now.

I am watching they shoot horses dont they on you tube.  It is an interesting bit.  I thought i had seen it before, but aparently not.  It it not a bad period piece.  If I knew the time frame i would check to see what 1500 dollars back then was worth today so i would have some perspective.  No special effects, not grand sets or backdrop, just a simple story of desperate people with real personalities and good, old fashioned camera and lighting work.

I was told it was depressing and I suppose it is a story of exploitation on so many levels;  maybe it is more about desperation in a modern world; and perhaps exploitation requires dsperation.  It is a thin line between humanity and barbarianism; we see it everywhere we look.

If I am right and the world ever catches up with me, my autobiography will be a hot mess; an unbelievable hot mess just like the movie but different; not the grand lives of the others, just a hot mess.  Maybe it could have been different, but in truth, I would have to go back to when i was 10 years old to fix everything that went wrong.

It's Sunday evening. I made up for shortcomings in other days by doing 158 im today including 1500 yds swimming between storms with all the ims.  I'm tired but no problems now.  Next week will be full and will end with important meetings and calls.   I have started with calendy but not sure if I'll subscribe. July should not end quietly but I have plenty to do.

There is aloneness to this thing and I'm reading about those who went before and I don't fit in with the lofty and I  am too old for this alone.