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It is Monday.  Slept ok yesterday despite minimal exercise and tea for lunch.  at one point in time a cat came a curled up beside me to take a bath without begging to eat.  Today will be busy, but it seems unlikely i will pursue any of the army grants except the white paper which is something that is looking more and more like the short email i have sent to some of the army program managers.

I need to look at the large fusion grant again today, see if it is still there or not.  No word from the national labs, they are so slow it is frustrating.  In any event anything before next year seems unlikely although i feel like some things are out there, certainly the 4 year thing is still pending a year later; unless it is not.

I am curious about how things will go over the next few weeks as I finish up the year in terms of science, patents, grants and presentations.  12122 will introduce the recovery phase of life and an excess of stillness until around the 15th at which point i should be mostly healed, just in time for the holiday season which i suppose will be well underway, having stated to some extent at the end of next month.

It will be a little bleak without any funding, but I have made quite a bit of progress with things and i have no reason to complain about the progress on every front except funding right now.  This week and next will involve the exchange of a lot of information.

Verified to __ digits that the AuT method of calculating pi with fpix follows other methods.  It appears based on this that at least curvature is the result of an iterated equation and that a natural consequence is that all of the universe is fractal.

I have also verified that the first 3 lines of the pte can be calculated in broad terms as to teh proton and neutron counts utilizing overlapping Fibonacci spirals constrained by a circle defined by pi.

It seems more likely than not that manipulation based on targeting the resulting fractal elements and the iterated equations giving rise to them would lead to efficiencies where those elements were targeted.

This was lunch today.  I received some very negative views from a friend of mine i sent this to who had otherwise wanted to go to lunch; but i assure you it was delicious if you like this kind of thing.

This is what I was eating a year ago today for lunch, a chile on top of a garden burger (lots of onion since you weren't there I didn't have to worry about my breath.

The morning was spent organizing and the afternoon is being spent working on the necessary edits to the next provision which I may not file today because of the need to fix drawings along with the edits needed.

I did two bike rides in the morning (to the office and back) giving me 10 workouts (cheating) in the last 7 days and a whopping 88 IM to start off the week.  I really need to swim this afternoon, but too much work to do and this evening is pretty full.

It's late afternoon.  I managed to get through the majority of the changes before word started acting up, this was mostly in the first 17 pages of the provisional which is problematic because 5-14 need more attention than I can give them this late in the day when my mind and vision is fogged pretty badly.

.What that means is that I need to pick this up tomorrow when there is a lot of work to deal with tomorrow which is otherwise a full day.  No email on the meeting yet, so i have a little more time to deal with he details there.  I am a little anxious.

I have some great pictures for today which I may post tomorrow.   Its worth seeing anyway, the right way would have been together last year but perhaps there is a reason for how things happened. It still doesn't seem right to think it will never be shared. 

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 I did not get much done yesterday  Made a stab at cutting down the 54 page document to 10 pages, but ended up just doing some editing.  I will make another stab at it today, but I think I need to print it out.  I did get the edits out and work through the new claims a bit so I cannot say that nothing happened there.

I also did the amendments to claims required by the action that came into the office Friday, although there are some terms that need that are the same which need to be put before each of them, newly added most likely.

I watched the video, I met gus on several occasions which is interesting, but I know herndon very well which is also interesting.

I have spent some time thinking about what moving on means and i spent a lot of time thinking there was no reason to think about saving the planet anymore, it just comes down to making money; but the science sort of said that already and it is a bad attitude issue.

The swimming yesterday was not great.  While 100s under 145 happened, with no one to swim against the average was 230, 14 strokes a min.  Last time it was 218 (on the 18th and it was almost 50 min compared to 46.  I am also down to 8 workouts in the lasst 7 days although I will add at least one more today, holding relatively steady at 9 workouts every 7 days, up to 11.  I could get there today, I suppose; riding my bike to the gym and doing weights later; but one of the things is doing work, likely cleaning out the garage on Friday which is work, but not the same kind.  I am clearly not riding or lifting weights often enough, it appears like serious weight training (as opposed to a full pull ups or pushups) is down  to once a week, a couple of bike rides, sure to drop when it gets cold again, I am only swimming a couple of times a week, i am walking enough, but even the elliptical type exercise is only once or twice a week.  Altogether it is enough, but altogether it is not as much as it should be.  The swim yesterday being a pretty good example, it was a hard workout, but it was hard because i am getting old, not because i was going as fast as i needed to go.

I don't know why i miss everything from a year ago.  i have done a lot to deal with making a new future, even one alone; but it hinges to a large extent on what happens next with this physics project; tomorrow i will file the next provisional, deposit the rare check to cover the cost and check on the response.  Then I will finish and publish the book draft although I know that will lead back to the patent.  It is hope that is missing.  How often have I written those words in this blog.

I have a lot of big ticket items coming up.  The tree which is going to be 2500, I could not ave the extra thousand and pretty much need to give up on it; property taxes which are on my desk and need to be taken care of in December, there are other items.  I am expecting a lot to ease that for now, but the grants are not there, at least not yet and i need to be checking on that, the patent stuff needs to happen, but the grants are the immediate thing.  Meetings on the first will advance that; but funding continues to be elusive.  I don't know whether i will be there yet to present, it haunts me, because i have to move past this somehow.  It is funny how much saving the world was, i suppose is, secondary to that.  What kind of person puts love ahead of saving the world, i suppose it is a little better than those i deal with who put profit there.

It is light outside already.   Time flies, still have much of my coffee which is nice.  At 9 i meet with my electrician friend and I plan to deal with several issues if he will cooperate.  He sort of owes me given the nature of things; i have bailed him out and while there is a chance that i will over sufficient time be made whole, it appears unlikely it will happen on the timely basis we agreed up and i have no plans to force the issue.  if my science project works out, i will not need to do so and if it doesnt then i suppose that over time i will get to some type of parity.  if only he was a tree guy.

Field theory has gotten a lot of my attention lately.  It is the thing that creates problems, the place where so called standard model theory hangs it hat, particles being fields manifested by position in space.  Fields are the barriers that my model breaks, granted that i have a barrier at ct1 where i can see what is happening past it; but cannot readily explain it considering that the place where whatever happens has no time or space or even information in the sense that we experience it; but there is apparently a computer back there anyway.

A train is moving in the distance.

I will come back later.

Well, I think the gfi might have had the wires reversed, something I did not check so I will wait and if the electrician shows up we'll go over this together and if not, I'll just take it off and confirm it myself. It isn't that big a deal, but I want to stay of the safe side.  These are risks I do not have to take yet.  

The good news is that the gfi was installed correctly, no work there.  The yellow light is normal apparently.  I'm not 100% satisfied, but the power worked fine and the electrician said it was right.  The bad news if it can be called bad news is that the ac to dc converter went bad after a very short time.  This is a 9 dollar item, but a nuisance to install.  One more thing on a long list of things.

I also managed to get the pump working.  Tilting it also seemed to help with the load which I'm not sure I understand; but I accept.  

It's relatively early. Much of the legal work is where I need it to be but not close to finished. I may make a stab at the white paper tonight but it's unlikely. If like to get some additional exercise but also unlikely if I run any errands.  I think I'll post this and come back tomorrow. 

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 It is late, almost 7.  I did not wear my watch to bed, but i suspect i got plenty of sleep.  did my anti hallucination exercises just in case.

I should go swimming later, it will be warm today, winter has retreated at least for the next 10 days and teh weather will be perfect again except for walking the dog when the cool weather is better.

I have to go check on the patches at some point in time this weekend.  There is a lot to consider there especially what to fix in the deep end if anything.  The longer the pool is open the worse that will be and i am now waiting for cement to get here and maybe rain.

I am thinking about going out to west mobile to the pool super store instead of getting the material online so I can finish the pool this weekend.  It is not like i dont have plenty to do.  I have a book to publish and the patent to file, the former being second to the later and i am ready now i think for the patent even though it will never be finished.

My patent attorney seems to think it will be harder to get a patent then i do; but we will see.  the last thing i sent did not get a response and perhaps it is good or bad news.  It is a story which backs up my work after a fashion.  A real life proof, short of fusion, but still a proof of sorts.

Of course I have not added anything to it yet and there is the response to incorporate and shorten; all things i can do this weekend while i wait for response that are likely not coming.

This is a busy and weird time, waiting for people and things to happen, but also being bussy with them.  And abandoning things.

I need to prepare some stuff.  For the patent the ct5-6 thing in more detail, the contest white paper, the last of the emails.  A lot of this is choices for today and the weekend, but i think filing the most recent version of the patent, making a reference to the concepts that have already been brought together and then publishing the next version of the book will be the targets, the grants will take a back seat.  For the weekend.  Next week will be something different.

Did 2000 yrs with 2x400 and 1x300 leaving me exhausts made a chefs salad for lunch. I'll be getting the surgery in a little over a month then my posts will be "woke up did nothing went back to bed." 

The idea of  going to these places alone, hidden oasis in the desert.  A year ago today.

It's early yet, I'll publish this because netflix has a showing of the documentary about the last slave ship tonight and i might as well mention it before the night gets here.  not one of Mobile's finer moments, but an interesting piece of history.

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 Well, down to 10 days for the 1031 deadlines which is probably enough time and certainly for the contest one.

There is a lot of other stuff to do.

My exercise yesterday was cut short.  This morning i have to meet a cousin for an early breakfast and i have been lazy this morning, sleeping till almost 6; probably because of the cold.  i think i slept for almost 5 hours straight, weird dreams about living statues

I hope to work some this weekend, but there is competition for my time and a lot of this is reading.  maybe i can do that in the hot tob although i dont know if i will want to do that; it depends on the workout, etc.

If i am so busy why not work on it right now.  I need to warm up might be the excuse; but whatever it is, it will wait.  The next 3 days will be intense no matter what

 Did not get enough done today although I started the grant work and at least figured out what to do with the new thing that came into my office with the mail.  Need to redo the reference in the election too, I hope I remember.   

I patched three of at least 15 holes and ran out of the cement so I need at least 30 lbs to finish which I'll need to order online meaning the repairs are going to have to wait till at least next weekend. 

At least I know I have the technology to finish so the work wasn't wasted. 

I did two short bike rides and a short (2.3 mile) walk and my stretches for my back and to get my hernia back in the right place, I patched 3 of the holes in the pool, so I need 30 pounds more just to get what I have exposed, after the results come in I may want to go for 50 pounds to get the rest of the pool although I think my material costs will still be around 1500, I'll have to recalculate.

About the reaching the end of this thing which haunts me, I am reluctant to go that way; but I don't know what else to do?

I wish there was some way to make you see that i am not dead, but perhaps i am.

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It is 39 degrees, cold out, although there is power and such.

With   the help i am getting i can say that i have caught my tail after a fashion.  It gives me a moment to look at the biggger problems, including the massive inflation which will have to happen to deal with the 31T national debt and the question of when that hammer willl drop to the extent it is not coming down now.

Canned goods for poor people, not sure what to suggest.  I managed to get rid of all variable type debt, that timing is good.  Real estate is a mixed bag, ultimately the place to be but its a slow reaction comparitively speaking.

The surface of the moon with more yet to chisele out.

Cash is a terrible place to be, better to be; but stocks, i am not so sure.  building a fusion reactor probably is not a terrible investment.

Its 630, i have been up for over an hour.  where does the time go. I wish i could say i have been working.  I did some minor stuff, but nothing i can write hope about.  I did find an example of using fractal features whcih is interesting.  Science proving i am right just in time after a fashion.

It will warm up tomorrow and I will have to get serious this weekend dealing with the pool.

The issue likely has a better analogy in the story of the emperor has no clothes.

Oh, i do declare, waving a fan before them, how dare someone say it.  And yet it has to be said.

 The secret to becoming an excellent physicist - Big Think

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I received the edits today although i have not had time to look at them. somehow managed to work all day without knowing for certain what i had done other than a little reading and correspondence, a call or two.  The 31rst wont be unmet, but will likely have little to it.

I only got 26 minutes on the eliptical before the gym closed for a thursday ball game.  No weights.  I could have done more of that here, but again the hernia is an issue.  how lucky you are and how you must count your blessings not to deal with the vision and the failing body which was getting very close to being ok and now i have to survive till the first of december and then for a couple of weeks at least of limited exercise.

It is dark and i hav some reading to do, these posts are too long and too often in any event.  i may be moving past this.

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Why isnt everything adding up?

The math is doing fine, up to an irrefutable point, but life does not appear to be tracking as well.

It is jst beginning to get light out, I have had my first sips of coffee; my work, largelly untouched is beside me.  I took a shower today at the limits of the heat i could stand and i am wearing this silly looking sheep shirt which is comfortable and warm; but the heat has not started working yet.  Sometimes I can tell that the last of the chlorine is washing off of me in mornings after the swim, the vast majority of it leaving after my post swim gym swim.  In NM those were nice because I was very water conscious and could be just a little less so there in the gym.  I know there are water experts there and my friend in NM is havign issues with his neighbor copper mine.  If I slept with you could I get advice?   That is just a dumb thought, for at night i miss you the most.

Constrained by is the phrase of the day.  It is a complex concept, but only one of two that I developed language for yesterday.  I easily have the 10 more claims in my mind, the real question being how much of them is new and how much is amendment.

The pressure is mounting to file the next utiltiy and there is an army thing due in two weeks that I have barely looked at.  Perhaps a couple of them.  Some time in there is the meeting with the pto and the university which undoubledly will somehow schedule at conflicting times on the same day.  I hope to have more of that later today.

In ukraine things are getting colder and i hope that the ukrainians willl have khearson to shelter in during the coming winter insead of the fields around it.  People are starving in somalia, ethiopia and haiti while fortunes are wasted on munitions in europe destroying millions of gallons of sunflower oil and crops.  In Brazil it is only a matter of time tilll the last tree is cut, the people are piling on top of each other.  All of these countries could well be gardens of eden but for the inability of people to act logically, the woman who has two babies, one of which has already starved to death when she could not even feed one; being repeated on scale with countries like brazil and teh world itself.

I offer a cruel logic to the world and the battle to protect that is only starting I fear.  This PTO meeting will tell mee a great deal if it even happens, because it is their choice.  There is a third election coming up within the next two months.  I have not even looked at it yet but it is on my calendar.  That will wait and that is easy because these are the same thing to a large extent and while I can only do so much, each issue raises a potential solution.

Controlling a wider environment with different compression and decompression elements; that is the claim that goes with the drawing.  The sequential and combined application of these things is what is targeted and that actually is set out even this early.  Call it luck on the inevitable modeling either way it is shown.  It is good to talk  these things out with you. 

At 2 I was overcome by an exhaustion that left me incapable of work so i broke out a couple more weak spots and identified a half dozen more maybe from removing the water pressure. I know I should break them out too. It's getting to be a significant part of the pool. That only added to the exhaustion. 

I couldn't focus on the intense claim drafting so I stopped where I was. I've set up a key grant meeting, talked investors and patentcounsel and the big issue will be dealt with on the 9th which is close to the deadline but gives me almost a week.

I did several of the claims and got two more cle hours so if I can rest for a few minutes, maybe walk the dog then it will be a pretty full day if I can just get to the rest of the claims. 

I have to either get to the army grant tomorrow or abandon it.  There are only 11 days but I have 3 weeks for the patent now so the time works if I cash start tomorrow and it isn't a full solicitation. 

I did a little work on the next provisional including bringing the selected drawing into a type of compliance. 

It's been a full day and tomorrow is Thursday meaning much of the week is gone. 

Well walking the dog turned out to be a good idea although coming home meant seeing what I don't have instead of what I might have.

I'm sharing the draft of my pitch, it has my ugly mug on it.  I'll learn soon whether it is good enough or not.

I'd like to talk about the future, but I'm busy in the present which threatens to drown me; but I did get a promise of a little support.

It's cold and I have much to do before I sleep.

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What's that song about the Mississippi river running dry?

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 winter, in cullman al freezewarnings this morning.  It is late now, the sun is down and it is getting cold here.  I bought the chissle I needed and found the other things at work and b rought them to the pool, got the burlap i needed also; all the little things make the materials cost higher, probably 1500 now.

i think if you had said ok i wouldn't be doing this alone. Too bad.  I scheduled on paper the big fight, although if it happens or not I dont know.

I did one of the first corrections last night,surprisingly satisfying i think it helpedmesleep even though it was a small but signficant step.  I then went through the first 10 today along with other work, but mostly that leaving the next 10.

During the long swim, 2000 yards with 2x400 ims plus a 200 im for the full 1000 surprising myself; i came up with a couple of thoughts and wrote down the one that i remembered which may have been the most important one.  I hope  so.

everything is halloweenrightnow and silver city is advertising theday of the dead.  Except that Christmas is also creeping in as it always does; christmas trees at the hardware store in the middle of october already gathering dust; the artificial ones.  Still it is a festive season and Halloween will be here and gone soon enough.

A reminder that we are all skinny inside.  This must be from a bike ride two years ago.

no ghosts yesterday, perhaps they are resting for halloween, they rarely come and never when expected almost.

This is a picture from a year ago.  What happens next may well include going back there and then what will I do.  I am much too engaged with thoughts of someone who doesnt even know i am alive.