the sound of me not telling you

This is the sound of me not telling you I love you
It is quiet, absent contact,  laughter, and love, of course
it doesn't suggest kissing or affection of any type
this is what you wanted, I hope it is as good as you thought
tell me you like this, while you look over my shoulder
it is ok for you to watch me, but not for me to love you
for it, despite it, regardless of the reason
explain that one to me, take the rest of your life
oh wait, that is me telling you something
and you might think it's that I love you
This is the sound of two people who are not in love
the sound of one person not in love
you can decide which one doesn't want to hear it
the sound of me telling or not, i love you