Writing to no one

I cannot keep writing to you
So I have to write here
Every time every finished line
The next one is in my head
Screaming to get out
I wish I could so easily
Go from love to blame
Hate time hate you
Instead I have only me to hate
I cannot stop waiting
Nor can I stop wanting
You will accuse me
But not of crossing my line
Of not crossing yours
When you need me most
I am not there
And when I needed you
You risked everything for me
So how can you not
How can I not
Question me
And yet I think I know
My feelings and heart
The answer lies in jumping
Not in judging the distance
So you are right
And you are wrong
And you should know
Especially with life
That it is hard to jump
And impossible to ask
You wait till I do
Risk life and love
By not jumping
By not waiting

Proof that time yields dimension-equations- 2.8125 of 3

Proof that time yields dimension-equations- 2.8125 of 3
Equations at the point of the creation and destruction of matter.
As has been discussed previously there are some basic equations based on observable phenomena.  We have not written out the specific functions, but what we do know (or presume in e-hologram theory) is that dimension exists because of time and that the speed of time is associated with the acceleration of tendencies relative to the singularity.
Acceleration is shown by the following equations:
a=f/m (force/mass); force, of course, is mass*acceleration.
From this we see that "force" is created by time defined as distance/sec^2.  This is the basic proof for the creation of everything from the singularity using time.
a=DV/DT (change in velocity/change in time or distance/time^2 such as miles/hr^2 for steady acceleration)
Putting these together we get:
m=f*Dt/Dv.  This is the basic equation for the creation of matter.
e=mc^2 (simplified energy equation)
m=e/c^2

30,000 feet an old poem

I flew over your city at 30,000 feet
its dome and crescent clear
beneath a scattering of cotton ball clouds
the city, the river and the area west
spread out before me, beautiful, recognizable
somewhere down there was the woman I love
denied to me as I am denied to her
the very things that bind us kept us apart
wondering if she ever thinks about me
in the same way that I think about her
hoping both that she does and does not

I hope she found her smile again without me
I may never fully smile again
but I will take the lessons she taught me
and I  spend my days in selfless service
a memory, a fluttering of my heart,
oft repeating flushes of longing
are all things I see far below me

if fates are kind and they never are
for they only give what they eventually take away
all things beautiful and worthwhile are fleeting
youth, health, friendship, passion and love
mostly it is love, the eternity that is pain for you
even were it mine to take away
but if there is a kind fate
one day I will hold your hand
and look into your eyes
and you will understand me

Through sleeplessness and exercise we find numbness not beauty

I am keeping a record of the things I am not writing and expecting more than I am hearing.
The book progresses, because it must progress, emotion buried in exhaustion of mind, spirit and body.
The eye of consciousness must be made to look coldly on events lest the days be lost, even if all beauty in the day is lost, the time itself must be preserved.
In this vein, I reproduce Chapter 88 in honor of Chapter 90 (not a summary chapter) being reached, slightly past the halfway point.  As with so many things, it seems to be move down from here.

Chapter 88 E-hologram universe theory is and is not

The fundamentals of e-hologram theory stem from two basic premises and one or two corollaries.  These little reminders, with small variations appear throughout this text.

The first is that S-hologram theory is a foundational concept that everything can come from a single projection source which is, from our vantage point, a singularity or point.   While the write up spends a great deal of time talking about this singularity, it may have as many dimensions as you please; but not relative to our three dimensions which are creations of time, another fundament.

It is differentiated from "big bang" theory in that the singularity continues to exist after the big bang which means that the point did not explode, but instead began projecting itself while remaining largely intact.  Moreover, the projection need not actually create dimension since it is equally likely that time coordinates are more like data coordinates on a computer disc.

 Whether this means that parts of time are burning as dimensions or whether it's more the equivalent of a film projection on a screen are critical determinations, but not fundamentals.

Another premise is that before time takes on its linearity (what is referred to as unwinding for lack of any other term) in the singularity, everything happens at once and that only through the application of time are events separated thereby creating our view of the universe.

Left open are the questions of whether everything has already happened (predetermination) or whether only possibilities are displayed (self determination or true (as compared to apparent) freedom of choice.  While the second appears to be the case to us, the former cannot be ruled out since it is largely the more intuitive choice and was predicted at least indirectly by Einstein.  Likewise, the appearance of freedom of choice is much more likely under these theories than actual freedom of choice.  Even though it is clear that we can control o-space through reaching into g-space (I have experienced this, even if you have not) it is more likely that this reaching has happened before I thought about it, than that I came up with the idea independently and was able to affect o-space through the techniques of g-space manipulation which are documented if not recognized out of context in this document.

Another corollary is that some forms of either time travel or at least time observation are trivial  (the details and difficulties of this otherwise simple undertaking being largely saved for later per earlier blog posts because of the close connection with apparent faster than light travel).

Another corollary, which is just shy of a premise, is that space does not need to exist, but is instead a function of time.  There is no "space-time" there is only time and space is a permutation or illusion of time.  This means that it is possible that space is just an illusion which gives rise to things like apparent faster than light travel as a possibility (the details and difficulties of this otherwise simple undertaking being reserved for later discussions to some extent.

While much more detailed analyses are given, the basic premises are just these few.  To be relevant they must explain special and general relativity; light speed and some foundational concepts for matter.  They should take some of the counter-intuitive findings of relativity and make them intuitive.  In effect, the whole idea of e-hologram theory is more to find an intuitive basis for the universe we live in by undermining further the Newtonian concepts while making those N-concepts fit within the model.

It also makes a determination of what the singularity is and the environment (if that word can be used) in which the singularity exists more important.   It also makes and understanding of time more important since it is the only thing that separates us from living (completely) within the singularity.

Swamp eats shrubs-film

http://www.examiner.com/article/louisiana-sinkhole-swallows-huge-trees-seconds-see-the-amazing-video

Hints on faster than light travel

Even though I do not intend to divulge the secret to faster than light (apparent) travel without the requisite number of physicists commenting (and perhaps not even then after the e-h-t book is published) it is fun to toy with this conceptually.

Here are some indicators:
1) it has happened before in the past and I have even experienced it
2) it requires something that is very similar to the methodology by which it has been experienced before
3) it is logically connected to other aspects of the e-hologram universe

The book is going to deal with these in more detail.

Privacy in the digital age not

Google: don't expect privacy when sending to Gmail http://www.theguardian.com/technology/2013/aug/14/google-gmail-users-privacy-email-lawsuit

Early Publication Date E-hologram Universe Theory

we continue to close in on a first edition publication date.  This publication may or may not be complete, we can hope.  For those of you who say that this is the same as other theories that say the universe is a computer program, I'd say, they have many similar features, but first doesn't mean anything in E-H-T because in this theory, it was written at the same time Einstein and you were born  and this  assumes that all of these would be the same time in g-space while different times in o-space.

Restaurant: Impossible Recipes : Food Network

Unlike the name implies, the recipes on this show are easy, the opposite of impossible. 

one of my favorite cooking shows, Robert Irvine comes in for two days to fix restaurants.  One aspect of that is interior design, but he looks at what they are cooking and if it isn’t working, he comes up with solutions consistent with the skills of the cooks (often pretty low).

Not really on par with the average blog, but I think it shows how things can be done well, with some elegance without complexity.

Restaurant: Impossible Recipes : Food Network

value-a poem

Some things are to precious to own
you can own property
gold, jewels and other things
they are precious
controlling them gives you power
over others over things rich
some things are far more valuable
Their loss of these is too severe
do not try to secure these
lest you succeed
for in success are the seeds
disaster, despair, sadness
and for you perhaps anger
for if you get one of these
and afterwards lose them
the joy of life is in danger
so I will not write you tonight
I will not reach out to you
there will be no poem waiting
when the sun wakes you
for the most precious thing
that anyone can ever lose
is known to us as love

Hurricane Season...again

It's that time of year again.  To the average person, this involves checking to make sure your insurance is paid up, buying a jug of water, a jar of peanut butter and a loaf of bread...and maybe calling Vern up in Tennessee and asking if he wouldn't mind you coming up for an extended stay.

Some of us, however are trapped on the Gulf and have to oil our generators, make sure they'll run, and lay in what we hope will take us through the extended unknown.   There are candles to locate, batteries to rebuy, matches; well think of it as getting ready to throw a birthday party for six year olds.

I cannot say that the storms have not blown equal parts joy and misery my way; the joy being so great that the misery can be accepted.  Still, when the winds begin to blow and the clouds build over the coast, I sometime long for the West Coast, and wonder if you will meet me when I go there.

I continue to work on the E-hologram universe.  It is slow, but I still hope for a late August or early September publication date with plenty of new information, some of which gets posted, but much of which will await the publication.  Hopefully, the storms of August won't delay it.

Black holes

http://news.sciencemag.org/physics/2013/08/why-our-black-hole-such-picky-eater

Privacy in digital age

Google: don't expect privacy when sending to Gmail http://www.theguardian.com/technology/2013/aug/14/google-gmail-users-privacy-email-lawsuit

the importance of self in love-draft

Very few people experience true love
outside of the honeymoon phase
maybe it can happen to anyone
but probably special circumstances
the right beginning to the relationship
the right two people, especially you
the right people around them
and over time it becomes something else
where the two feel that they are one
with someone who is not you
but it is critical to maintain a sense of self
because in any such relationship
the two people involved
continue to be two separate people
together they are stronger
together they are better
together they are happier
but they stay two separate people
they have to be able to capture
whatever they have together
in their separate lives
and they have to be able to go on
long after one or other is gone
because is such a relationship
they are never totally apart
one never totally leaves the other
because they do become part
of each others lives
and a part of each other
the provide each other
with joy and pain
long after one or the other
is gone

getting away from me

how did i let you get away from me
even for an evening
time without you
is marked only by
the heartbeats unmatched
and the thoughts which bring
your image into my mind
that remind me of how you feel
and how i long for your touch
and the music of your voice
every day without you
is embodied dispair
for what is worse
that losing something precious
it is impossible to tire of you
any more than you could tire of the stars
that one day you'd say
enough of their beauty
let the night be dark and empty
like the days away from you

the exercise paradox and the swimming anomaly

Swimming makes you sensual
even a fat person or a whale
can be sensual in the water
and that follows you through the day
exercise, the burning of calories
gives you energy
once you overcome the lethargy
and sweat through the insouciance
it makes you happier and more energetic
perhaps the swimming
in not really anomalous
although non mammalian fish
don't seem to experience it
some people start out more sensual
but no matter how much you have
you get more from swimming
and while it isn't pretty
for some people to exercise
they are all happier and energized
by overcoming the torpescence
some are more energized
and some are more sensual

large energy releases in e-hologram theory-part 1

While the tendency is to look at e-h-t as a theoretical tool, it has immediate application to o-space.
The greater the tendency towards infinite series (the bigger or smaller the impact on o-space) the more observable e-h-t aspects of the event.
In the past, the nobel prize winning aspects of George Lucas' "the force" were largely debunked; nevertheless when examining the destruction of a large amount of "thought" (i.e. life) at one time as being observable within e-h-t is not without some basis.  Since such large amounts of thought are embodied in this aspect of e-h-t it is questionable as to how much impact even an entire planet of current life would have, it stands to reason that terminating one line of thought (death) even of some low life form would be determinable so that larger simultaneous terminations would have a greater impact.  Also, because there is no real distance when something returns to the singularity, the idea that this information could be instantaneously transmitted (at least among thinkers-intelligence) is not without some theoretical basis.
Likewise, focusing on any one event is liable to have the same effect.  When a world war occurs, it is likely that the concentrated attention of much of the planet on individual events would be determinable and there is some argument to be made that thought supports these types of events in order to strengthen the existence of thought in blocks.  This might be true even of a successful movie.
A better reflection of this theoretical concept lies in large energy releases.  E-H-T relies heavily on observed large scale phenomena (black holes and gravity wells created by planets) in order to have a basis in observed o-space.  Another group of phenomena where this can be seen is in large releases of energy.  Remember that what holds true for a black hole should hold true for a single atom, so what we can derive from a nuclear explosion should, at least on a relativistic scale, hold true for us at a scale between the micro and macro.
A nuclear explosion reflects time giving up dimensional qualities on a grand scale in favor of those qualities associated with a change in dimension.  That is energy is matter where the time has surrendered much of the dimensional qualities that allow it to be observed as matter in favor of those accelerating its speed, a change in coordinates.
Hence, we should be able to make observations in a nuclear explosion that have E-H-T properties that would show this change in time, or perhaps this reallocation of time, more clearly than we might see it on other levels although where-ever energy is released, such as by the striking of a match, this should be observed if E-H-T can be reconciled with Newtonian Physics and Basic Chemistry.  More on this later.

Duty vs love part one-life and death

Duty is an obligation.  Love is a feeling.
The relative strengths of these two
show the complexity of the spirit
a writer must weave the two into his story
to create conflict and bring the reader into the character's lives
This is not easy because they must be balanced
There are also different types of love and duty
There are different degrees of love and duty
Love bears some sense of duty with it almost always
while duty may exists in the absence of love
one is a matter of logic
the other of devotion
and perhaps that is inaccurate unless you know for sure which is which
great literature will often pit one against the other
an example from a movie comes to mind
two brother meet across the battlefield in the civil war
one unable to shoot the other
or perhaps he drops his gun to carry his wounded brother to safety
it is possible that both exist in different movies
It is possible to kill for either love or duty
one is considered inappropriate in almost all cases
the other is considered heroic in some circumstances
you can sacrifice for love, but you can't kill for it
you can sacrifice for duty, in some cases you are compelled to kill for it
both have an air of tragedy
killing for justice in noble
killing for love criminal
killing for duty is neither noble for criminal in war
but killing for duty in other situations is
Hence their are different types of duty
and there are different types of love
They don't balance well, one against the other
Part 2 will balance comfort against the two

publication update-the einstien hologram uinverse

Writing a fundamental theory of the universe is not as easy as it sounds, even if all the parts are there.  It is 1/3 finished in a struggle to select the most likely path for resolution of issues and the treatment of the side roads in this complicated theory.  
It was originally a commentary on existing hologram theory which led to several wrong assumptions, many of which seem to be finding their way into the final text.  Among these is the separation of tendency and time.  Originally, the concept was that both the tendency for things to happen and time were separate.  After careful exploration, however, it became more and more evident that the tendency for things to happen was an aspect of time itself. 
Several of the issues which need more development in the books, such as how time manifests itself as space, matter and energy require more mathematics and observation than is possible under the time limitations for a September publication date.
Finding time to work on this has been a struggle, but it looks like it will probably be available for publication by the September date.  It is targeted to be under 150 pages, although once formatted it may be either more or less. 
For many reasons, some of which are set up above, many of the paths which should be more completely explored will be ignored or treated casually.
Stay tuned.

risk and trust

Every once in a while, I have to stop with just a draft.

what am I willing
to risk to have you
how much can I give
of myself to you
can I allow myself
to fully love only you
why should I trust you
with all my heart
if I share my dreams
who will protect them
from becoming nightmares
what are the conditions
today and tomorrow
what guarantees do I have
that I'll keep your love
we both have options
perhaps there are too many
and why should I trust you
not to run off again
what is love worth
when we can armor our hearts
Only share part of me
or to risk everything
and hope that is safe
trust that trust is returned
there are plans for the future
I have to make it safe
to enjoy you now
and what could change
there is no security
for you to post
in exchange for my walls
and my defenses
I have to surround me
is there a definition
of safely committing
or is it a leap of faith
without seeing the ledge
where you hold forth
your heart for mine

The study of the form of awareness is the study of time and irony

There are portions of the upcoming book, "The Einstein hologram universe" that will touch on things not mathematical, but which nevertheless have to be considered in a study of a time driven universe.   While this seems outlandish, in the E-hologram universe, all thought is concentrated in a singularity.  This is all thought at every level and every time.  We know that time (and therefore space) collapses into the singularity and we are almost forced to accept that dimension, the vast universe we experience, doesn't really exist because we see the fallacy of our own senses in black holes.  Such a concentration of imagination would have an imaginable type of power that we ascribe to something called god.  This is part of the treatment of this in the E-H-U.

             If consciousness gives rise to time, then is it possible that multiple consciousness types give rise to multiple times or does the same consciousness give rise to the same Time.  It is inherent in the theory that it takes a lot of thought to give rise to time, but if we accept that all thought must exist at one time; there is a lot of thought concentrated in the singularity.

Nevertheless, we must accept at least the possibility that there are different dimensions which are functions of different types of thought.

It seems likely that if there are different dimensions the are invisible even though they would be, of necessity, nothing more than a different manifestation of the same or different time.

If different dimensions are invisible, how are they isolated from one another?  If they can be seen, then it should be possible to travel to the other dimensions by changing the thought of matter driven by time in our universe to this different type of thought unless thought driven time cannot be changed.  Otherwise there should be a way to find the time that creates it or to see the different dimensions created by our own time.

Is there any evidence of an intelligence driven universe suggested by light speed limitations and infinite series?  Maybe you have experienced it, something like this.  You walk into a restaurant.  The night before the love of your life has disappeared for the entire day and admits to a harmless date with someone else.  You go to bed alone, but at least you can sleep.  Then you walk into a coffee shop the next day and “Peaceful easy feeling” by the Eagles is playing on the radio.  As you order your coffee, you hear “I get this feeling I may know you, as a lover and a friend, this voice keeps whispering in my other ear saying I may never see you again.”  You ask yourself can this irony which you have experienced over and over in your life be coincidence.  With an intelligence driven universe, it doesn’t have to be.  You may be able to argue about the quality of the sense of humor of the collective intelligence, but it’s hard to deny at times.  The study of irony, may be the study of time.

out living everyone else

The thin old man
by the window
in the coffee shop
sitting with his cup
he moves slowly
as he rises to leave
no longer from caution
I long to sit with him
to share our coffee
to ask him questions
what is it like to be so old
to have outlived all his friends
all his family, maybe his children
to now be closer to death
than to anyone else
what is it like
to have all love affairs behind him
to know the best passion
that he will ever have
has already happened
even as I experience
the greatest of my life
what is it like
to have almost everything behind him
to be fighting his last battle
not for power, not for love
but merely to survive
to sit again in his seat
drinking coffee in the window

Rewritting a writing of time-to my friends in eurasia

As I re-write the entries of this blog into a novel, it seems like the level of clarity increases.  Soon enough another viewpoint entirely, though originating with these writings will emerge and be published as a whole volume.  But even that will only be the basis for something greater which you will write. 

The chapters fall like leaves
as I rewrite parts of this blog
soon enough I will be done
when leaves hit the ground
these take on a new order
they did not have on branches
of this initial writing
only when they had time
to dry, to brown, to fall
and time will come soon enough
something may grow from these
after they have decayed
seeds planted by someone else
will give them true clarity
and from the initial decay
something beautiful may grow
this is all we can hope for
that we will lay the smelly bogs
from which true wisdom springs

other nights

Raining again
like everyday
flash and bang
splash and swish
distracting me
from obligations
The other night
I saw the end
of everything
of value to me
the end of time
and all because
you were gone