day 357 of the apocalypse, 27 days to christmas and 34 days to 2021 counter

 Well, here we are counting down to the end of the year.  It is hard to find the time to be sad that I cannot talk to you, but I manage.

Things are different for everyone.

https://www.buzzfeednews.com/article/michaelblackmon/covid-changing-relationships-and-family

Looking at a map of the rain, all I can do is wonder where you are on that map.  My days are limited between my house and my office.  I ride outside of that map to get exercise, but not on rainy days.  It may get too cold this next week.  Before the cold I spent a lot of time at my office or going past it on my bike.  I figured out a route downtown that involves minimal time on busy roads, basically just crossing them, it takes me along the river, from neighborhood streets, some of which are pretty interesting, to parklike riverfront (really creekfront) to downtown.  Its a good ride, but so long that I can't do it more than once a week in the best of times.

There is still the indoor gym and I did yoga again this morning when the tension grew too great for me to sit and work.  The other day after eating fried food it almost killed me, today was better on my stomach.

Its a scary time because there is a lot to do in the 34 days remaining and the holiday in the middle of it doesn't make things any easier.

I have a good list and a good start and if I get the help I need I think I can pull much of it off.  The first deadline is 12/3/20, a mere 4 days off.  Fortunately, I am well into that conceptually even though I am not ready to do the work.

Monday I plan to finish a response and figure out how to correct a document which I then have to table, maybe for a day or two maybe for a few days while I wait for information from someone else.

I also plan to finish with my first draft of the broad template I've been working on, although that really is a week long project.  The template will allow me to draw out what I need for the 12/3 deadline which may or may not be important.  The big 1/4/21 deadline also looms large, although great progress has been made in preparing for that and I'll know what help is coming by the end of next week.

I don't have time to add anything to the schedule if I plan on getting anywhere near completing what I have to do with or without help.  Mixed in with this are online classes I have to take.

Here is an online counter which I'm using to count down the days, you can see how to modify the link to get any day if you look at it, I've picked 1/1/2021 even though I have 3 more days after that for the last deadline.

https://www.timeanddate.com/countdown/generic?msg=J-La%27s%20Countdown%20to%202021&p0=411&year=2021&month=1&day=1&hour=0&min=0&sec=10

This is an interesting site for figuring out lots of time related issues.  Why, I can't tell you.

I am dealing with the consistency of the universe which is more than what we have between us.

Forbes: Ask Ethan: How Did The Entire Universe Come From Nothing?.

https://www.forbes.com/sites/startswithabang/2020/11/27/ask-ethan-how-did-the-entire-universe-come-from-nothing/

The universe is you but you did not come from nothing, but from something that is very different than our dimension based system. 

The issue here is that a universe makes no sense.  We can show mathematically how it comes into existence from a pre-dimensional (therefore pre-time) place; and we can see a little about that place, but from a logical standpoint, place makes no sense.

https://dailygalaxy.com/2020/11/the-case-of-the-missing-dark-matter-hubble-solves-mystery-of-galaxy-ngc1052-df2/ The steady concentration to create adequate sharing supports this model of dark matter very nicely.  They are finding what AuT predicts, it is not surprising.

I can't tell what this crazy world is doing.  It didn't matter when I could talk to you about it.

Edwards responds to SCOTUS refusal on Pastor Tony Spell suit (msn.com)

Of course that was before you got too mean to talk to.  I'm responsible for that, I guess.

The evening is coming on, it has been a long day, the rain continues unabated.  Now it is getting windy and cold.

Day 356 of the apocalypse

I skipped yesterday.  It was a day of mediocre things.

I had a mediocre bike ride to the office for a mediocre couple of hours of work on a mediocre theory (which may be gaining some strength).   The weather was also M, neither dry nor rainy, but a little too much of both.

Next week when I will be very busy, it will be very cold.

Don't think I'm not keeping track of the fact that I don't hear from you.  I count each of the days and keep track, 5, 10, 11, 12. 14.

That's not really a thing.  But I still take the position you couldn't possibly love me and think like this.

I spent today putting together models for how to do things at a subatomic level that shouldn't be impossible and raises the issue of mining for specific state change sources and gets me back to the idea of plasma bombs which I don't think can be a thing per se, but perhaps it can.  There are so many surprises in the modeling.

I'm not sure if that's a thing or not, if its possible; and yet at the same time its done.  can you prospect for something that is already happening as opposed to something that is somewhere.

Yoga today, not too hard.  I always imagine it with you.  You laughing at how difficult an easy workout is for me and how inflexible I am by comparison, but not in a mean spirited way.  Then I am there alone and it is hard to do savasana because I am in the wrong place; but glad to be finished with what is a difficult workout for me even though it is easier now.  Last winter at this time I was running, not this winter, not yet. 

It was cool and I had the door open which was nice.  I was alone which was also nice, but the longer we are apart the more difficult it is for me; not that we have been close in so long, and yet...

Eventually they will find my model...until then ID -Ten -T results.

https://www.sciencealert.com/a-twist-in-the-background-radiation-of-the-universe-hints-at-new-physics

But now scientists have discovered something peculiar about the CMB. A new measurement technique has revealed hints of a twist in the light - something that could be a sign of a violation of parity symmetry, hinting at physics outside the Standard Model.

According to the Standard Model of physics, if we were to flip the Universe as though it were a mirror reflection of itself, the laws of physics should hold firm. Subatomic interactions should occur in exactly the same way in the mirror as they do in the real Universe. This is called parity symmetry.

This in AuT is called moving in the wrong direction.  I have largely abandoned quora, they didn't answer my question, why should I answer theirs?  It may come about that I will pick that up for my purposes, but for the moment, I have enough grant information to keep me engaged.

I feel very close to achieving the change, if everyone does what they said and if the results are what I feel they should be, then the first step will be reached and the weight of this will be partially lifted off of my shoulders and there are the second, third and fourth opportunities that are all in front of me, albeit months off.

What is keeping you engaged?

day 354 of the apocalypse reprinted from the new york times

 I am going to include something from my inbox that I found disturbing but interesting enough to share.

I woke up early because I had been working on a problem in my head, perhaps in my sleep and the cats would not leave me alone.

I wrote down the work that I had started and then moved on to the thing from the NYT in my inbox which was a disturbing look at what to be thankful for.

I went for a bike ride (picture above from the bike trails, me and you?).

I also did a couple of easy sets on wet bars outside, it seems to keep raining despite the weather odds and cold weather is on the way.

Made some additional mental notes and came back and wrote them down.

The deal is modeling my current work to get a fission powered battery which is not that complicated.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=81qIUuExQmQ

That song played on my ride.   Not everything is romantic.

Things seem to be on track still, no additional word, but I have plenty to do and I should get what I'm looking for; because I was told it was coming.  In exchange, that work I wrote down last night has to be completed.

I'm not sure how to approach romance anymore, but things appear to be happening.  There are multiple elements of change and for the moment they all seem to be progressing in terms of the science.  I'm still waiting for the government to cut loose, but I'm also not expecting that.

It's all too exciting, but the excitement is tempered by fears that I will never see you again.

For the moment, I need to be thankful so...the end of this made me intensely aware of the passage of time in a way that was not comforting.

‘I am thankful to be thankful’

Last week, I invited readers to send us six words describing what made them thankful in 2020. It’s a form of writing — the six-word memoir — popularized by the author Larry Smith.

More than 10,000 of you replied, and we’re grateful to all of you. Here is a selection of your responses:

The crinkling eye above the mask.

A furtive hug with a friend.

The backyard haircuts are getting better.

My choir still meets on Zoom.

Friends who give me streaming passwords.

Family reunion in January, before Covid.

Miss family, but safer for them.

Saved a lot of lipstick money.

More homemade pasta, no more jeans.

No shame in elastic-waist pants.

Braless at home? No one cares.

Mom, 87, rocking pretty, pandemic ponytail.

Teenage son still likes to snuggle.

My parents live two blocks away.

No better excuse to avoid in-laws.

This stinking year is nearly over.

*

Sunny mornings, a window facing east.

My bicycle, the trail, each morning.

Windows have never been so important.

Toscanini’s recording of Beethoven’s Ninth Symphony.

5329 games of solitaire, won 5286.

Throwing the football with my sons.

Jonesy got a hole in one.

Still ridin’ my horse at seventy.

Postcards crossing the country — real mail.

Living in the Green Mountain State.

So grateful to live in Canada.

Left US for science-believing Germany.

I am thankful for Pastor Bob.

I’m just thankful for indoor plumbing.

I am thankful to be thankful.

Never been social; now I’m good.

I am bored, but not dead.

*

Ambulance took him. He came home.

Hearing granny laugh on the phone.

It’s just a cold, not Covid.

My parents did not get it.

Reached age 92, grandson reached 3.

I held my dying husband’s hand.

Held my son as he died.

Our kids, after my wife died.

My wife gave me her kidney.

Lung cancer team at Sloan Kettering.

Got sober during 2020, stayed sober.

Wasn’t too late to say sorry.

Wildfires took much but we survived.

Faith, family, friends, dedicated medical professionals.

Dr. Fauci and all truth-speakers.

Volunteers who take experimental vaccines.

Healthcare workers. Healthcare workers. Healthcare workers.

*

Pandemic baby after years of trying.

At twelve weeks, size of lime.

Special-needs child, graduated feeding tube.

My toddler and my weed guy.

Toddler sees Audrey Hepburn, says “Mama!”

I watched her learn to read.

Water cooler chats with six-year-old son.

Thankful for learning, in my pajamas.

Teachers’ patience. “ … Reminder: no fart machines.”

I teach funny, resilient 8th graders.

High school, even in a pandemic.

Survived first semester of online university.

Six years later, wife completes PhD.

Out of prison with great job.

Rediscovering myself by reading the Bible.

Stole my car, not my books.

Tried. Failed. Failed worse. Kept going.

*

To be a United States citizen.

Americans waited in line to vote.

Thanks for voting, Americans. — Immigrant scientist.

Gritty becoming an icon for democracy.

Once again, my Black vote matters.

God, family, freedom, Trump, health, USA.

Trump is our best president ever.

Vaccines are coming. Thank you, Trump.

Vaccine is coming, Trump is going.

Obama, Bush, Clinton, Bush, Reagan, Carter.

Biden won the election — thank God.

Michigan, Wisconsin, Pennsylvania, Arizona, and Georgia.

Paris Climate Agreement returns in January.

The first female Vice President, baby.

The women who came before me.

Democracy triumphed. Now pass the stuffing.

*

Aunt’s Jell-O salad not gonna happen.

Solitary Thanksgiving means no turkey. LOBSTER.

Alone, spouses thankful for tiny turkey.

Daughter lovingly uninviting me for Thanksgiving.

Zoom Thanksgiving beats an ICU Christmas.

Thankful for sweet potato pie, y’all.

Red or white, and occasionally rosé.

The many people who deliver food.

My restaurant colleagues, who never quit.

248 cocktail hours with my mom.

Empty calendar means frequent dinners together.

There’s really more kindness than hate.

*

We’re falling in love over FaceTime.

Fell in love six feet apart.

I have someone I can hug.

Even after I cheated, she stayed.

The freedom of filing for divorce.

Lost job. Lost boyfriend. Found happiness.

I might marry Coronavirus Boy Toy.

Gayer than ever, very in love.

Postponed wedding, having a baby instead.

Fell in love at age 75.

I proposed and she said yes.

Will you marry me, Taylor Hollenkamp?

day 353 of the apocalypse, happy thanksgiving

This is something I fretted over, but if you wanted to hear it in person, I think I'd know.  Happy Thanksgiving.

I just finished swimming, not sure when the pool will reopen, maybe Friday, but it is unclear so I did it to be careful.

Managed to do 2200 yards, although only one of the im(s) was a 400.

I'm relaxed for the first time today.  Its been very.

I did a pitch to the AF yesterday and then followed up per what I figured they wanted in response to another inquiry today.  That included a discussion of  article on Fractals.  Maybe they get it.  We'll see.  They offered a supporting letter for the pending NSF.  It's a step we should be making together, but it's a step either way.  We'll find out.

  Was very interesting the way it jived with my reading of the wright brother's autobiography.  For the first time in my life there's actually something I'd like to see that is in Ohio.

I still am not sleeping well and the swim was difficult, although I pushed myself hard through almost all of it.  It's raining in advance of a cold front, a steady rain instead of the 6% chance that was forecast.

I think its raining again.

Day 351 of the apocalypse QC-another quora answer

I went on a long bike ride yesterday, pushing myself to what would not be considered by many a limit, but it was for me.  I then went on a long walk with the dog and topped the day off with a drive of several hours to an airport and back.  I felt terrible before the drive, but better after it.

I'm listening to a wright brothers biography on cd which is gratifying given my fractally similar experience.  It made the drive alone bearable, by coincidence it coincided with the first flight at kitty hawk in a motorized aircraft.

I spent a lot of time thinking about explanations for things even as I had to forgo the thing in the mountains because of the increasing pressure between today and the first week of January.  Several deadlines have come up for legal matters, not unexpected, but due at the beginning of next month on top of the grants and there is so much more to do to meet the requirements that I have taken work which I am capable of doing and decided at no small expense to outsource it in the name of maximizing the time to plan and write up the next level of technology.

But I can tell you that it means nothing to me without you as part of it and I don't know how to deal with that or how to feel about it.

  I sat and thought of so many things to write and realized none of them were actions, only words.  I looked at calling to the same effect.  I looked at the written word and while that seemed like more, it was not enough.

The power of words is great as the development of the science has shown, words and pain and love.  Love has been enough at times, but it is not enough, for old as I am you fill me with a youth that requires presence and a life of dreams might be better than no life at all, but a life living dreams is what life could be.

And yet as the holidays come about, I see what was lost and my soul screams even though I do not see what I could have done differently, what I should have done differently.  As much as I felt the inadequacy, your effect on the work I've done strengthens that rather than reducing it, I did what I could when I could.  You do not know of what happened before, at one point in time, long before the internet, I looked for you; but only with half a heart, for I did not know enough to thing you would be there and free in the sense that I wanted you.

In this sense that I want you, tonight.

The traveling meant I had to stay up late yesterday and I slept almost till 6 which was a nice change, it felt more normal despite getting a late start and not getting more than the 4 or 5 hours that seems to be enough.

Today for the first time in a long while I did not get any exercise, note at all, but I was ill from my exertions yesterday and perhaps taking a single day off will not be too much.

I would very much like to know how things are, but I don not know how to ask.

With the coming winter I feel viruses and such lurking about me, trying to break though my health and try as I might to stay away from other people, the come into my world unbidden and I am too polite to turn them away without traditional politeness.

There is a post which talks a bit about quantum computing which I will not dwell on because I think I have advanced that problem somewhat significantly with the work I've done on semi-conductors over the last couple of weeks, but afterwards, I'll put up one of my Quora posts, although they are being taken down, the advertising in them I think although I am not sure.

IEEE Spectrum: An Optimist’s View of the 4 Challenges to Quantum Computing. https://spectrum.ieee.org/tech-talk/computing/hardware/an-optimists-view-of-the-4-challenges-to-quantum-computing

There is no force responsible for anything in the physics sense of the word. Relativity itself is only an approximation. Read on…

In the standard model they have these nonsense things called force carriers and quarks and bosons and force.

None of these things makes sense just as planch length doesn’t make sense. If you have a Planck length board and you cut it in half what do you have? Of course, matter doesn’t really exist at Planck length, but you get the idea and it goes for all of that other nonsense, including force.

So how do you deal with quantum gravity and relativity which both must exist in some form? The answer is that both are effects of a relatively simple set of equations and a relatively easy to understand type of information.

You can see the details on this here:

A short video proof (and a link to support these answers):

A longer version:

Amazon.com: Algorithm Universe Theory, Audio summary: The origin of dimension giving rise to space, energy, matter, force and time (9781798410530): Friedlander, Gregory: Books

To eliminate the nonsense of the standard model type analysis you have to eliminate distance (and by mathematical extension time and space) by getting a yes/no answer. What is in between yes and no? Ahhh, now you’re thinking, but that is the answer to a different question.

Yes/no answers (+/- etc) are information and a quantum-ish (see the thinking comment above). We see them as quantum. You can say that between yes and no is a maybe, but in this case yes changes to no periodically and no changes to yes so you replace “maybe” with “until” and until involves a quantum count 1,2,3; so you can say the average point in our universe changes from yes to know when the count goes from, say 10^150 to 10^150 plus 1, an inflection point for that bit.

Now that we’re at the quantum level, where does quantum, relativity and gravity come in?

Quantum is the quantum count, something inherent in our universe and the count goes for every point in the universe. Yes, every single quantum point from 1 to 10^150 to 10^150 plus whatever (as the count goes up it generates a new point) uses the exact same quantum count!

Gravity is the first observed force and it represents the first folding of information. If you want to know more about folding, take a look at the book referenced above. Gravity is unified with the strong force, btw; using this same model.

Relativity is a different sort of animal and to understand where it comes from, you have to go way, way down (up?) the quantum ladder. Somewhere before 10^16 folds, time begins to manifest itself from stop frame animation (see prior posts or the book plus proof) to get a better understanding. Time is a sort of false screen that is easy to see behind, but when we don’t look behind it, we see things changing relative to one another based on the post time features and we call this relativity. The real change that you are talking about is the change of one point relative to another where plus changes to minus, yes to no; because this is true relativity, when one point changes relative to another point.

Don’t forget to like and support the answers if you’d like.

This was added to explain the separate of quantum gravity.  I have a great graphic on this.

Here’s the answer to the question: The first fold occurs at a true pre-time, pre-space level. In effect, space is created at this point, where pre-time informational points fold together (give a linear result between points that we interpret as a fold) and so it only exists as quantum at this one point which is way, way smaller than planck length.

Now I said you did not ask the tough question, but I’m going to show you why its so tough to answer. Gravity waves reflect this unfolding manifest over huge numbers of points (a single neutron is 10^24 of these points) rippling outward as unfolding from the quantum gravity to the post-time level of observation point changing all sorts of inflection points along the way. Since the first fold occurs because of one perfect alignment, these change all the time before triggering post time observations, but they happen “constantly” from a time based perspective.

The truth is out there.

Day 350 of the apocalypse and crap articles from 2017

So I swam 2200 yds, managed to do two 400 im(s) although I did have to take a few breaths 3/4 of the way through the second one.  Still managed 1200 im.

Right before 5 I fell asleep after doing a lot of work in different areas, from crystal to pool pipe stuff.  The pool pipe stuff is not going well.  I was hoping to blow the pipes out but I seem to have had the opposite effect, making the clogs worse, but its sometimes necessary to make things worse for them to get better, which is the story of us.

Having a hard swim and waking up at 2:00AM don't go well together..  It was good to swim and feel my heart about to burst from something other than heart brake, although getting in the cold pool and the first 200 yards, really 400 to get to where I can breath easily these days, is an act of will which is not easily obtained.  I hope it is better for you.

I wish it was possible to discuss this, for you to understand the nightmare that I live every day and the dreams that I have for the future, but this is more final and I think that is better for some people, it isn't better for me, but finality, oddly enough, is inherent in what is written in my quora response and if we want to change finality, we have to change.

I slept more or less a consistent 6 hours last night and I feel pretty good.  Didn't even try to stay asleep at 5, just got up and started working on stuff and it seems to be working for me so far.  I'll probably crash at some point in time and today is a fully booked day when I probably should restrict myself to a short yoga workout but where I'll probably do something like a bike ride since its my last opportunity to do that this weekend.  I had a long enough ride with a weight workout in the middle on Friday, so who knows.

Here are the articles from 2017 which I never addressed.  Perhaps when I saved them they had some relevance, it is long gone.  Afterwards, I give a more up to date discussion from Quora in case that kind of thing interests you.

https://medium.com/@ScienceEditor/many-scientists-say-theres-no-purpose-to-life-but-a-theoretical-study-suggests-there-could-be-cec027265b55

So in a fractal universe life happens because of fractal structures, not a lot to be said for this type of article in a pure, deterministic universe.  If you pray to whatever lives in the environment where the matrix is put together, you are merely believing that minor changes to the matrix can be made which I believe is possible.  Does the matrix eventually bring those changes back in line, perhaps.  this is an extremely important concept for things like prayer and space travel.

https://medium.com/@ScienceEditor/the-curious-omnipresence-of-1-a-plot-hole-in-the-multiverse-theory-eb7e89de5937

While multiple universes, perhaps with a connection at least in pre-time states is as likely as not given the mathematical origin, this article is just more crap that fails to recognize how that math works.  See the books for this most simple of concepts that doesn't warrant my attention.

https://futurism.com/a-groundbreaking-discovery-just-verified-the-existence-of-orbiting-supermassive-black-holes/

This article expresses wonder that a fractal equivalent of a hydrogen or helium atom exists at the black hole level, something so unspectacular, that it is also not worth my attention. (june 2017, that's how long these posts have been waiting for me to get to them and now they have lost all meaning because i have moved on so far from when these might have seen interesting.  On to the last one.
http://www.sciencealert.com/this-quantum-theory-predicts-the-future-might-influence-the-past

This last article admits it is crap, but it does allow this thought, if the universe is fractally predictable and originates and changes according to a single count, can the future and past and present be said to equally affect one another since they all result from something else?  The simple answer is that they are not causal at all, but effect, just more article crap.

Here's something, I had to set up a pay account for the answers I give on quora (in case you want to see some of my answers you can go there, I am not as rude; close but not quite.  It's an interesting thing that I only include because people are always coming up to me with these absurd stories like, "I left my wallet at home and I'm out of gas," which is not to say that they are better or worse than "buddy can you lend me a dime?"  There but for the grace of god go I, so I regularly give to these dangerous opportunists, so why not allow people to give me money which I can then pass on in some demented circle of begging?

Here's a sample answer to the question "why does physics break down" or something like that.

It is worth asking “whose physics is breaking down?”

As far as I know all the theories in physics have dark spots where you ask, what’s behind the curtain and certain math equations turn on “infinite” solution. A good example is “the equation” for pi is an infinite series.

The reasoning for pi is explained (Algorithm Universe Theory) by having a finite number of solutions for pi. It is a lot of decimal points at the level of the observed black hole, but not so much in empty space.

Since there are plenty of good examples in other models, let me stick to AuT and “at least one” of the places where it breaks down.

AuT is a fractal model that defines everything in the universe in terms of a “Peter Haggni-ish” information based model of the universe. You could look at hologram theory as another example of this type of model. AuT is more specific than either of those models, of course; because it is based on specific observed equations whereas those are primarily theories with open ended equation sets, i.e. AuT has a fixed number of equations and stick to those and they are all interrelated, the other models suggest there are multiple sets to be determined.

Anyway, the key in AuT is not to adjust the model to fit observations, but to ensure that observations fit into the model with some reasonable explanation. A good example is the observed minimum size black hole compared to the theoretical minimum sized black hole (10^38:10^54) and the scale of gravity compared to the maximum theoretical scale of gravity (4:256). Interestingly, the solution for those discrepancies is essentially the mirror image of one another after a fashion, but that is neither here nor there.

Where AuT breaks down is when you get past the algorithms. AuT refers to two different places, one is o-space where the equations more or less perfectly describe everything observed (relativity, space, time, dimension, material states, black holes, the big bang, etc).

Then you get to this cool place called g-space which is where the equations are tracked and where a quantum count (currently at the scale of 10^150) is maintained. This is done in an environment which by our standards has neither time nor dimension and yet it functions like an infinitely powerful, but very simple information processor (computer) with a clock. One can easily substitute g-space with an alien computer system (or even a terrestrial one is an earth that images us) with mad computer skills where at any moment a clumsy associate may trip over the power cord wiping us all out.

But its at least possible that g-space is something else. And either way, whatever g-space is, it is capable of spitting out the entire universe which, while simple in design according to the rules of AuT, is very complex in operation. What kind of a place is it? What kind of things are there other than a counter and a really good read/write memory? Can we effect the equations there?

It’s worth noting one other thing. Our math doesn’t break down in g-space, we just don’t know how it is maintained there.

Don’t forget to like and support the answers if you’d like.

The truth is out there.

Amazon.com: Algorithm Universe Theory, Audio summary: The origin of dimension giving rise to space, energy, matter, force and time (9781798410530): Friedlander, Gregory: Books