This was not a very gracious post originally. I saved it to remind myself to be better.
What is and is not my business or my future?
Right now I have food poisoning so I feel like I'll be dead soon, but may be fine in the morning. Two bike rides was plenty of exercise before I ate that terrible Korean Mexican fusion which probably had an inherent warning of food poisoning like eating something moldy out of a can and it didn't taste right. So if I'm dead in the morning at least this post may be better.
I could talk about my hopes that the strength of our friendship would allow us to rise beyond this but I cannot think past the the feeling of contentment felt when the world was limited to just us, it's not the way friends think or help each other.
If i don't die tonight I'm supposed to swim again, the 2k yesterday was hard but paid for itself and as little as I got done today I did an unhindered amount yesterday and I realized my time table is measured in months and not days as I feared but now I am feeling the claws of death and I only want you to be happy and fulfilled and for my illness to end one way or another.
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