On anger and religion of the inevitable

I am not going to go to my angry place tonight
I have convinced myself of the truth of religion
and my truth is such that I have no interest in followers
There is no purpose to swaying you to my way of thinking
Even the failure of the United States...or you
loses all relevance in the religion of non linear time theory
they have recognized it, they haven't
already done, who really cares
i won the nobel prize, i didn't
doesn't really matter its already happened
I don't want to believe it
and i don't want you to believe
i want to hold onto love as a real thing
if each moment exists in some eternity
i want to live as many of them as possible
talking to you, holding you, loving you
i drove through the ocean side town
where neither of us lived
but where i know you used hang out
after the time with your other lovers
and i think how nice it would be
to share a little bit of eternity there
the huge moss covered oaks
the empty beaches and water adjacent cafes
the small shops and the warm breezes
if eternity doesn't mean anything
i would rather spend it in the restaurants talking to you
under the shady trees reading with you
in a quiet room with drapes blowing lazily
and laying in bed with you
and it would be nice if i could believe
that it all meant something
that it had a higher purpose
that i was working towards something great
even if it was a nut job religion
those that seem to be in control right now
or those that want to control
but my religion says that they have nothing
that their prophets are fools
that as long as i am not with you
that i am a fool
and maybe it is true
because we make choices sure enough
whether for the first time
or over and over into eternity
and i regret every one that separated us
and i cling to every one that brought us together