the case against success

I have been watching the sun come up since 515 this morning.  As I look over the post below, it is two hours later, the light has moved far down from  the tree tops almost to the level of the fence in some cases.   It is still muggy, but not hot yet.
My half cup of coffee is almost gone.  It will be missed, although I am thinking about leaving coffee as I am thinking about leaving all these things.
I am in a unique place, one that is partially reflected in madness and partly in something that is not genius, but which could be in someone smarter.

I will find out a little more about my speech on Monday or Tuesday I hope.

Others are doing well in this regard.  there is an article below:
80 million dollars spent on the same tired old theories.
That being said, I did come up with some other issues for fusion reactors based on the AuT model which have nothing to  do with pre-aut science, but which open a facinating gateway into the process.  It is not a new gateway, in fact it is already set out in much the right language, but it is something that is so slight but important a difference that I had to write it down before I could relax this morning.

I swam and have normalized now the 1200 in the form of 3x4 im workout.  I still only did 2400 yards; but it is a process, a marathon as it were and not a sprint and while I am 1100 yards from a really good swimming workout, it seems to be a good holding pattern given all the other problems I have and I have swam, etc.

My ancient car purchase passed its first inspection test.  I am not sure of it yet, that requires 20,000 miles of operation in its present form at which point it will have served its purpose, but I actually like it even though I am not convinced of the overall wisdom of the endeavor.  Until things turn around a little which they may not, this is the way to go; taking chances on the future. 

TechCrunch: A Boston startup developing a nuclear fusion reactor just got a roughly $50 million boost. https://techcrunch.com/2019/06/27/a-boston-startup-developing-a-nuclear-fusion-reactor-just-got-a-roughly-50-million-boost/

The risks I am taking are dire, extreme even; but required if I pursue the dream that only a fool would ignore.  It is more than a dream of fusion and fame, wealth and wisdom; I am working towards a lifestyle change from charade to happiness.  At one moment it looks very close at another it seems further away.  It boils down to changing only a little, but the swimming is a symptom of things.   Right now I have my life laid out, everything is easy.  Well, it would be if I would go back to my profession which would be an admission that I must slog out the rest of my life in drudgery after a fashion.  It is hard to abandon that for a dream, what might well turn out to be a fantasy, there is a lot of evidence in that direction; what appears to good to be true....

If I can convince the world of my fusion reactor model, that might help, its hard to imagine it would not amount to pulling the trigger and perhaps that is days away, not weeks, but it remains to be seen.

Articles like this one are problematic and I need the experts who are out there to throw their weight behind what is a pretty simple project, the math being so solid that I was able to put forth the basic model, albeit with some interesting changes recently that I have yet to fully reconcile in my head.

Speaking of reconciling stuff in my head, I saw on the news this morning that the president walked into N. Korea and dragged the dictator of that country back into south korea, probably to get a decent cup of coffee, which is a good thing to go  with a lot of the goofy things that are otherwise done.  Meanwhile, of course, europe burns, so the question is one of balancing an important diplomatic show against the end of  the world.  But give credit and critisism where it is due.

It is humid but cool this morning.  I should swim, it would be almost cold, but I am not up for that transition yet.  That comes later in the summer when the heat is so bad it is the only way to swimout of doors.

I have not shaved in a few days.  I look like one of those cartoon shipwreck  characters.  While I am exercising, my body seems to have largely shut down in other ways.  The dizziness that was pretty awful yesterday seems better this morning.  Typing this is probably not a great idea; but life goes on and tomorrow is the first and I have to add the patent information I developed today and file the patent tomorrow which spells out fusion as much as it can be without drawing the exact process out.

I have been thinking about the future quite a bit because I have decisions to make.  Of the 3 big cases I have been working on, I have decided against one, consider another to be unlikely and the third seems to be in some sort of limbo.  There is still a lot of work out there for me, but the short run seems a little off kilter and too dependent on others.   I seem to have set up some priorities for myself that are spinning away from the mainstream, possibly too far from it.  The several opportunities that have come up in that regard over the last few days have largely been ignored in favor of the grand gesture that is science.  That is, at present I fear, the opposite of making a living.  While I have an entirely reasonable budget of time and money, it appears out of sync with a long term vision for the future.  A great deal hinges on third parties who I will probably not speak to before I get back from the Northeast which puts the horse and cart in a confusion of geometry.

I have finished another rough chapter in my book, but this post is about my physics to some extent and the most recent chapter and title of a submitted peer review paper is worth considering in its stead.

Title
The Case Against Time
Abstract

Articles should spark debate and cause a stir; preventing the tendency towards inaction and scientific lethargy. 
This article presents the case for time as a dimensional result, separate from change, and not a fundamental dimensional feature.
Dimensions arise from Iterated base equations which give rise to fractal results.  We do not see the mathematically clear process, because it is hidden by a false dimensional feature, we call time. Time acts like a glass reflecting reality blocking the underlying mathematics behind the glass.
Algorithm Universe Theory (AuT) is an easily examined and reproducible model which defines the universe with applications to force, mass, energy and observed structures including a new view of fundamental particles, atoms, the periodic table, molecules, and black holes.  It defines gravity, how it arises and how it relates to other forces and how they arise sequentially. 
It builds from basic mathematical observations to complex structures.
This is presented one step at a time, so I caution you to follow observed mathematics which are irrefutable, being nothing more than mathematics.  The conclusions reached show that AuT is verified by observed results, fractal design and logic.
This short paper is designed for readers with a minimal understanding of Quantum mechanics and fractal mathematics 
Published papers can be found here: https://gmfpc.com/aut-details
I would suggest you watch at least the first, shorter of these two so you will have an overview of the theory.
The Denver 12-minute video: https://youtu.be/yczljGjPDYE
USA PowerPoint link: https://youtu.be/EjVR26KtAgo

take me to a black hole chapter 1

No exercise yesterday, foiled by the weather.
Skyrocketing blood pressure, so many floaters in my vision it looks like a black snowstorm.
Ah, life; such a wonderful gift; so short, so full of things, so predictable in its outcome.
woke with a headache
slept a little too much, but at the same time I was up all night
Next week, the plan is to file one last provisional and then to file a utility the first week of august
I weighed in at 176.6 pounds.
How is that even possible?  I do not know.  Perhaps it is the high blood pressure pushing the rest of me downward.  It is saturday, do I diet?  Hardly, that would not help since the problem is probably with a messed up digestive system under too much pressure.  Instead I make a hearty breakfast bagel and even add a little hot sauce to the eggs.
It will fuel my swim later if the weather cooperates, and something else if it does not.
There cannot be black holes made in a lab, and yet we are made of the stuff of black holes.
Articles like the one at the bottom of this page are therefore so much nonsense.
That being said, AuT fusion, that is to say real fusion, requires an understanding of what they are doing.
You see MIT is spending a fortune, 80 million dollars without even knowing what they are doing.
That is why eventually everyone will adopt AuT and they will say, see what we've done, when we know all they are doing is copying me, the least of god's servants.
It happens, in a universe governed by irony, it is required.

The idea that AuT is like what Marshall Medoff is to compare apples to rotten apples.
It would be as silly as comparing AuT to Einstein to some extent.
Neither is what AuT and Aut is neither of those..
Marshall's work is impressive, practical and brilliant.
AuT is nothing more than an explanation for phenomena that is fairly obvious.
It is less, but it is also more.  It is less practical, although a working fusion reactor will change that, but it is more because it is fundamental science and not something effective.

I have to take my new, and somewhat very, very old car to the shop to see how long it has to live. But first I will share this post.

Occasionally I leave my complaining and scientific considerations aside and do something that is just for the sake of entertaining myself, which I like to call my writing hobby.
And occasionally, I share my newest work with my readers, and thus you get the first chapter of my newest undertaking....

New orleans flood zombies

“The river’s up 13 feet above normal,” Captain Memphis held the wheel loosely, but muscular shoulders rippled like the river.  He looked over the broad expanse of river.  Releasing the wheel with one hand he pointed towards the shore.  “If it rises another 12 feet it would top the levee and flood the city.  In the background was a near constant chatter on the radio.

“How likely is that?” the woman asked nervously.  Vicky was a visiting biology professor from Boulder.

“Not very.”

“This river is huge!”

“Here, below the bridge, it is almost a mile across.  It gets pretty narrow at Lake Itasca it is 20 feet wide, it’s almost 2 miles where we came in.”

Its 200 feet deep and it moves between 200 and 700 thousand cubic feet per second (7,000–20,000 m3/s, so there is a hell of a current here.  The zombie is an ocean going tug that develops 10,000 horse power in each of two engines which allows it to push these barges up against the current.  The current is only 3 miles per hour here, but that volume of water at that rate packs an unstoppable momentum.  You can do the math, the total area of the barge times 3 miles per hour.”

Vicky looked back at Memphis.  She admired his coolness.  She was wearing what one of the mates had called “slops” as was Chris and the other students.  When they were fished out of the gulf of Mexico  when the small charter boat which had taken them out to get samples of bacteria from the dead zone that was forming in the gulf started taking on water and sank. 

When the barge dropped a boat, there was nothing but relief because she was more terrified for her children than anyone else.  She had been a little less relieved when the small, overloaded skiff had pulled up to the back of the barge which towered over them and the words “Zombie” over “City of New Orleans” painted over the roughly painted iron hull.

But she had calmed down with the coffee and water that was liberally served along with a surprisingly good soup with fresh bread. 

“What’s going on up there?” Chris asked.  Chris was one of the students that had been picked up at the mouth of the river when the small boat they were on had begun to sink.

“What indeed,” the captain said with a hint of false casualness as the chatter over the radio began to rise to a fever pitch.

http://www.popularmechanics.com/science/a22561/laboratory-sized-black-hole/

is this art or science?

After a short 2000 yard swim with only 1200 im, yes, falling apart here with only a 750 yard warm up and a 50 yard warm down; I did three sets of weights and a less than stellar bike ride where I took every conceivable way to minimize it, including jumping in the pool to cool down afterwards.
It is storming nearby, the storm torn clouds are dark against the sky.
I am tired.
It is a frustrating way to live right now.
I worked a little bit to organize the next two books I am writing.
I finished my presentation slides and sent them in even though I have till Monday afternoon.
It is nice to be able to concentrate on the next patents, the pct, one last provisional perhaps, the utility which I could also file now, I am that close.
This will involve the expenditure of an estimate 5 gs which is budgeted already.
There is also the matter of 3 gs budgeted for travel to ny;  most of which is already spent perhaps.  it will be good and bad to get away from everything.
I wonder if I will be in time to save the world.  I have worked hard, but I dont know how much longer Iwant togo on alone.  I have proven most of the points.
The patent claims are complex and some have markush aspects that go on for pages, perhaps two, in a way not previously allowed but somehow everything needs to go in there and I think I can get close to the 3:20 if I go this route and clean things up later when the money is there to find help.

So I am working on physics, star wars science, and I am looking for an image, and I get to this.

https://boingboing.net/2018/05/25/the-empire-strips-back-star.html
That is something more is also starwars science after a fashion.   Weird, but science and it looks to be largely professionally done, if silly.  I would buy a ticket I think, for the sake of my project if nothing else.

I am tired, too tired to continue this way.  Tomorrow is another day.

still on slide 1

I am not happy.
I felt like I was going to have a heart attack swimming and had to stop at 20 of 24 of my first 400 im.  I was gasping for air.  Not sure if it was a lack of sleep, the pressure I'm under, old age, the high water temperature or swimming in the sun.
After recovering I swam 3 more 400 ims so that I did 2500 yards with just under 1600 im, but my heart hurts even now and I feel I must make some arrangements for continuity of my project.  Hopefully by New York, but I will have to see.
I can only hope to make it that for.
This post is to get this one article off my list of unpublished posts.
There are, btw, hundreds of unpublished posts.
Some are only an article and some are pages of typing
some insightful, some little more than random words
I think i typed yesterday that my physics are the equivalent of a masters, phd and post doctoral thesis in terms of research and results.
If you want the litany of what it is, it appears somewhere is past posts.
But despite answering all the questions that AuT answers, I get mocked by experts in theories that dont matter, followers of obsolete nobel prize winners.
And yet, to succeed regarding this undertaking I have to build something I did not even have a specific model for a year ago.  Yes, I had the science for it, but not the design.
I saw conceptually the process, but now I see the steps, but how to accomlish them.  That I can do this and that the first slide shows this, that is something and it has to do with the pictures that appear, but it is a riddle for now, because I cannot talk too much about the specifics, but when you look at the first slide you see fusion, so look again and tell me what you see...or don`t.  You are both the most relevant thing and irrelevant to me.
Ahhh, that is so crucial to this undertaking, a  reason for it is not important, a way to do it, that is important.
I have another patent to filel between now and July 8 and I have to have the utility finished in two forms. One is a minimal document of 15 pages.  That one is nearly impossible, but has to serve the purpose of the pct for now.  It well may violate that rule, but it is a target.  I have begun work on it.  I could be nothing more than the claims and  a few drawings; because it can reference the larger works, but it will be something else.
Then there is the way the universe directs me.  Sometimes it gives me key insights and then I will be attacked, by bugs, people, insanity and the feature given will be taken away, only to resurface in some other form later or perhaps to be lost forever.
https://flipboard.com/@flipboard/-when-will-the-mississippi-come-for-new-/f-e9f7d337ac%2Fslate.com

So everyone says I should not be insulted by the comparison that insulted me.  It is not because of the financial success of the parallel, but merely because of the difference in science.  I suppose that makes me as much of a snob and as defective as everyone else.
I need to move to the mountains, I think the heat is killing me.  Or perhaps it is being away from you.

global warming and quarks

So yesterday I did the two and half 400im thing, although it was really closer to 3.  I now realize it should have been 3 (only another 4 strokes of fly which is really nothing) and it was essentially 3.  But of course it wasn't 3, it was 2 and 20/24ths.  what was I thinking?
Anyway, can you swim 1 400 im?  I'm just saying.
Anyway, this post is not really about global warming although it has a link at the bottom. Since AuT can theoretically control both gravity and the earth's magnetic shield it says a lot about why everyone should be supporting AuT or at least trying to get in with it.  When you are all dead, I will say I told you so, of course I will be dead; so I'd better say it while I have the chance, ay what?

So I have a lot that is coming out of the patent because it is science.  I was offended, btw, today to be lumped in with non-scientist inventors.  That is not the case.  AuT represents 7 years of intense study into physics and math and rewrites not just particle physics, but existence as we experience it.
It is the equivalent of a two years master degree, followed by a two year PhD followed by 3 years of post doctoral work, but that is trivial because AuT was able to thread the needle from beginning to the end, not the beginning of time, but the beginning of dimension.
Bah, humbug.
And it defines why no earth bound fusion reactor work and how to fix them.
This is the problem with the scientific elite.  It is not that they are not smart fellows, but just that they are too conceited to realize that science is in the eye of the scientist and if my math and physics is better than theirs, which it is, who is the one to judge the other.

Well, obviously I am the one to be judging everyone else and to find them all wanting, but let's get to the point.
            
Comparing the SM with AUT is not logical, but a short discussion is worthwhile.

            The standard model looks something like this:

            Quarks 6

            Leptons 6-electron and 5 others

            These are the illusory particles of the standard model.

            Forces are limited to 4.

            Pre AuT doesn't have a place specified for gravity because it doesn’t look at the dimensional steps giving rise to the force.

            EM is given the value of light.

            It is said to be responsible for all of chemistry but as we know in AuT, chemistry is largely a ct4-5 phenomena although the role of ct3-4 is significant since it makes up not only light but the lower forms of matter up to the neutron multiple hidden variables lie below the T6 state.

            The "strong" force ties quarks together protons and neutrons under the SM.

            Under the newest strong force theory of AuT, there are two forces at play (which gives rise to the mistaken idea that all chemistry is EM.

            The first type is the EM type and reflect ct3 alignment on the 16 information arms sequentially going from one arms to the next, e.g. 11 to 12 to 13 to 14 and so on as the alignment increases.  We view this as electromagnetic wave forces remembering that "charge" forces (ct2 alignment onto ct3) is a big part of this since charge is seen as a part of the electromagnetic spectrum even though it arises from pre-time phenomena.

            Recent AuT theory (and modeling) is that the strong force represents "jumped" compression according to the rule of 3's and particularly between t12 and t16.  It could easily be looked at as the rule of 4's, but 3’s is used to reflect its origin in the 3:4 hinge to compression state ratio depending on how you look at these hinge features.

            In the case of ct3, this jump is a 3,6,9,12 jump.  In the case of ct4 it is 4,8,12,16 and is the theoretical basis for the electron (see the prior post for a detailed discussion.  

But we will all be dead, more or less.  At around minute 22 their are some great graphics showing the end of modern coastlines, but the point is missed that you don't just lose coastline, you create interior bodies of water which are signficant.
So why in this blog?  Because they talk about exponential growth which is a lot of what AuT is about.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MvqY2NcBWI8

At about 1 hour they start showing not just what cities look like underwater, but cities going underwater.
At 1:03 they talk about property values in florida and how they work.

slide 1 continued

Yesterday I weighed in at my target weigth early and in the afternoon whch is typically not a good time to try for my target weight.
It says something about the weight of water.
I rode my bike and lifted weights and in this heat lost tons of water and I have a flat tire that looks like it will require a new tube, even though the old one was self sealing and is probably sealed now.  I don't know.
I can do that myself or I can do the deferred maintenance.  Decisions, decisions.
I was tired.  The crystalied stuff from the spider bites, the heat, hard exercise.  I fell asleep like I was dying but I feel better now.
I feel a sense of exhaustion, isolation which is dark and overpowering.  I wonder if other people like me feel the same thing.  It is selfish, it doesn't let anyone else in.  It causes me to shrink internally even as I expand in strength physically, it is even worse when I am contracting.
Slide 1
I added a picture of something round, the sun.  What does round stuff have to do with spirals?  That is slide 4 now.  But a long time ago we started with something important.

This is one of the first pictures I posted.  Well, technically it was around 80, but it appeared with pictures like this one:

So a long time ago, 6 or 7 years ago,  I was drawing spirals and circles and posting them on this blog.  I did not fully understand it then, but I realized intuitively that somehow spirals and circles were the same thing and that circles came from quantum changes, not infinite changes.  I knew a long time ago when I was wandering the streets, alone and broken, and posting pictures like this one:

Walking with the other people who scare people like you at night because we have nothing left to lose, so we stare at rivers which are getting ready to overflow their banks and flood cities, like the madness that those of us who take the pictures feel.  Alone, cold and disconnected from the reality of others.

So slide one has a circle and spirals and it is right that it should, because nothing else explains both what is wrong with past fusion attempts and what is right about AuT.
I am editing the slideshow, so I suppose I will have to redictate it.  Then I'll post it again and I'll start all this over again.
Here is a section that I took out of the "new script:"
"This is not a Nikola Tesla type promise to tell secrets; I am not promising to give the keys to the underlying structure of the universe, I have already handed them to you.  The basic science is already published for peer review."  Like I said, I took this out, mostly.  Tesla was a gifted engineer, but he was something of a theatrical goof too.
But that is in slide 3 maybe, so i just put it here because i am taking it out and i can do whatever i want in my blog.
i can lie to you, i can tell you the truth; sometimes I can tell you what I think is the truth and that is a lie.
There is so much nonsense in the news
What else is shown in the first slide.
It is a definition of what energy is.  I am not going into that here, it is in the books, but it is shown that everything here is frozen in place.

https://phys.org/news/2019-06-path-reliable-quantum.html
This article shows that everyone except me continues to fly off in the wrong direction.
Because everything is on and off, the loss of on/off change is the same one that 7 years ago I was looking at with spirals and circles as I realized that space had to have quantum origins, even though I did not have the modeling down for it yet, even though I did not understand the role that quantum change had to play, how it rendered time and dimension as Planck saw it irrelevant and imature and I was forced to step off into the darkness alone to watch for the flood that I know is coming and that no one can stop.

slide 1 all about the tubmans

I weighed in at my target weigth this morning, fairly precisely
I suppose it was a good idea to swim
And even though it was only 2,000 yards, I did two 400 ims and one 200 instead of 5 200's.
Now, I know what you are thinking, why not 3 400 ims and the only answer i can give is that it is really hot right now and I don't always perform high.
Indeed, the high blood pressure had me wondering if I was on the verge of a stroke or something with all of the problems I have had.
That is how the universe operates, it does not really care about anyone.
So lets talk about the universe which has handed everyone a death sentence for our sins
This slide is the most important one.
In a fractal universe, there is nothing to add to what is shown
At least to someone who understands what is being discussed.
Some, not understanding what is going on, could be asked, "what does not belong"
or even "what is in the last block (first block in Israel)"
None o fthese questions need to be answered, because this slide tells everything
You do not have to buy the book to understand this but the reason for everything you see here is certainly in there.  The links, well hte links take you where you need to go although if you have read more than a few of these posts, you know the answers.
Indeed, the weapon I have discussed is shown very clearly in each of these slides, even the innocent (to you perhaps) looking shell which is as weaponized as the sun.
And if you don't see what the shell is as much a part of the weapon as the sun, you need to read the books, because it is obvious, just like hte reason that the line drawing is the same, but very different from the rest of the drawing.
But let me lay something out for you, because you are too dense to see it.
Fusion is the trnasition from one thing to the next more dense thing.
It is, after a fashion, information arm loading.
In december of last year, I knew this, but I first looked at it in that specific way at that time when I applied this math to the periodic table and saw what the table was.
I don't need to prove the model to you, these pictures do that.
And if I asked which of these pictures is out of place, you might pick the sun, incorrectly; when in fact you could say none of them or all of them.
The question I have, is it time to go to the next slide yet?
The answer is, maybe not, because we have not even discussed the words.
You see this is a 30 minute presentation squeezed into 3 minutes, but perhaps 3 hours is shown in every slide.
This one shows what fusion reactors don't work and how to fix them.  The uninitiated, the one who has not read the blog would say, the first two pics show fusion reactions, but that is nonsense.  The first two pics show something much more than just little bits of fusion.  And the truth is that the second two slides show the same thing as the first two and to some extent take us all the way back to the whole "spirals in amber" series of books I wrote; but you canot get those any more.
Now, no man is an island, even the one who will one day be called the father of modern physics.
But the morons who think that I should give a rats ass about who has the money for this project just don't get it.
Don't get me wrong, I am all about the Harriet Tubmans, but the whole thing about AuT is that the universe doesn't give a rats ass about your money.  You are just a tool to get me where I am and I am just a tool because for one of several reasons I am supposed to teach this to you.
At least one of those reasons is because it could save you but you are going to throw so many roadblocks at it that it doesn't.  Maybe it wants to save you, but at no profit to me.  Somehow, the irony has to get in there and if you don't understand why, then you just have to find the posts on why irony is in the universe or what the books say.
What that means, is that the more that I am the tip of spear, which clearly I am, the more that irony will have its way with me.  Recognizing this doesn't make me smart, it merely makes me logical and therefor fatalistic.
And yet, in one slide, I can show everything about fusion and to some extent everything about the universe.

The why of the presentation

I am not doing very well these days.
I have gone past my comfort zone in several places.
So I am  going to assume that you have all looked at the 3 minute presentation.
We are going to talk about the weapon in fusion.
For those of you who are wondering why, let me start with this.
Every fusion reactor is a controlled fusion bomb. These are very powerful things even though they only yield about 5% efficiency.   Most of the ordinance is unexploded.  The reasons they are ineffective are covered in AuT; but the truth is that even at five or six percent they are capable of destroying much more than the city destroying bombs that were used in wwii.
In a twisted, dark way, a favor was done in wwii by using those two bombs because they showed the world what these weaapons were capable of, but if you have not seen the results of fusion bombs...well it is a scale of magnitude worse.
And yes, AuT, the energy papers which are published btw and part of the books, actually lay out the relative strengths in a chart and based on AuT mathematics, the whole fractal 2f(n) raised to whatever thing.
And it explains why, although the why is a bit dissatisfying.
But we are talking about death stars here and merely talking about why.
why redacted
why tatooine
why a death star

ghosting the most dangerous man alive.

1800 yards only yesterday.  And my blood pressure was high tonight.
Is it the heat?  Nerves?
Maybe the spider bites.
There is a lot going on.
It is what is going through my mind
One conflict after another
Can I do this?
And you are thinking, what kind of person only swims 1800 yards.
I cannot answer what is wrong with me.
Today, I swam 2200 yards  again, still not much.
But this blood pressure thing
My blood pressure is always low, but not tonight.
Maybe it is the ghosts
http://hellogiggles.com/ghost-galaxy-dark-matter/
I am going to start a series of posts about my pitch.
There is death in this
Because I am going to describe a new weapon
I have said this is star wars technology
And so there must be a death star.
It is not set out directly in the pitch
But it is there indirectly and it is taking shape in the patent
A horrible, malevolent shape, but for some reason the universe gave me this information.
I'm not going to put the slides here, but you can see them.

The 5 slide version: https://youtu.be/_0MElpWVV94

I'm going to show the slides there, not in the blog,.
You can listen to it or just read the blog it doesn't matter to me.
And you can skip several steps by reading the books which have been abandoned but still have more information than anyone else.

5am

I was up at 5am, the moon providing a daylight of sorts; unable to sleep for having these fusion reactor designs dance through myhead.
Early there were clouds, possibly a high fog of sorts, by the time the sun came up they were gone.
Yesterday I did 35 minutes on the stair machine at a pretty high rate with two minute breaks then mostly 3 sets of weights, although i allowed myself to be crowded out from a full workout.  If he weather cooperates I may swim tonight, but who knows.  Today promises only weird and inadequate results.

I am "interviewing" 4 different universities to do the math for the fusion reactor; sadly I have to pick one to finish the approved NSF grant; but I had to renew an administrative application which means there will be several days when I cannot do anything anyway.  It is odd that fate had pushed me earlier to set this otherwise irrelevant federal process in motion, get an approval so that all that it lacked was a renewal.  Days, instead of weeks.
I am doing this so I dont have to do everything myself.  But there are advantages.  A year ago I would say I have the science to prove this is possible, the equivalent of Einstein's little band saying a bomb could theoretically be built.  Of course, they were dealing with only the most superficial corrupted view of the science; but there is still an equivalence.
It stops there because I was forced to figure out how to apply the science.  I started drafting patents even before this was the case, almost a year ago.  What was I patenting?  That is a complicated legal question which I do not wish to spend time on here, but in terms of early Oklahoma land law, I was driving a stake into the ground.
Now, it is quite different.  I have the modalities and the equivalents and many of the specifics.

The president's analyst was one of those very far seeing movies that pointed out that everyone hates the phone company and with their ability and unwillingness to deal with problems like these it is easyto see why.

The Washington Post: Robocalls are overwhelming hospitals and patients, threatening a new kind of health crisis. https://www.washingtonpost.com/technology/2019/06/17/robocalls-are-overwhelming-hospitals-patients-threatening-new-kind-health-crisis/

Where was I...

I am less than 3 weeks from my presentation which I have filmed, sounds like a reference to time trave; I am accepted to the first round in several accelerator programs and if I had free time I would be spending it studying within them.  I dont have time.

There is only one working fusion reactor known to exist in the solar system; I have pointed out where a likely second one exists (actually a number of very similar ones) and I have the science laid out in steadily increasing detail in the patents to build one.

And yet at 5 am with the moon providign the light, I am awake.

The reactor is not complex, it occurs naturally in nature and probably in multiple places; but it requires the new science which 'forces us to treat force differently' which intereferes with our self image.
What new science?
This

googling cold fusion

cold fusion is not really a thing
neither is plasma fusion
i have been getting increasingly specific.
I think I might actually be able to design the entire reaction
one of several
in one of several ways
for each type
in the next few days or weeks.
Forbes: Google Ran A Secret Experiment To Search For Cold Fusion. Did They Find It?. https://www.forbes.com/sites/stevensalzberg/2019/06/10/google-ran-a-secret-experiment-to-search-for-cold-fusion-did-they-find-it/
I drew  it out yesterday and I discussed the elements involved.
I realize the role of plasma in all of this
but plasma is probably counter-productive in the grand scheme of things; at least plasma in the sense of prior reactions.
the biggest problem is not looking for what is needed, its just that there is no science of the pieces.  The math is not overly complicated, thankfully, but that does not mean that it is simple either, not practically applied.
Practical...what does that word mean here?  Practical is observed net effects, what we work with.  That is complicated by a dozen factors that did not exist in math before AuT.
It is like the fractal multiple base, also called multiple dimension model.  Jezus, the way these things deform and form, the way the require a rethink of things, not just time and dimension but the way we talk about time and dimension.
I swam yesterday, I walked, I ate an entire frozen pizza alone.  Well almosst the entire thing.  I had a salad with it.  It was unusually good, the pizza; the salad had too much vinegar and made me choke.  Today I was almost as far over my target weight as I was under it yesterday, but that only bothers the most neurotic parts of me.
at 5 am i was up and saw a sliver of moon through clouds in the western sky, the earth turning me towards it.  I only woke one time.
Early to bed, even earlier awake.
I have these quiet hours to myself.
there is a quiet futility to this time
you are not here
I have all these animals i have to feed before i can work
then i try to save the world for what purpose?
I suppose part of the reason is because I am desperate.
part is that i am driven by memories of you
a need for something to exercise a mind
already lost
like trying to put on the fire on a doomed ship
there are no lifeboats
only the inevitable sharks
but sharks must eat too
I am running around the firey deck
trying to find a place where i can do some good
leave some scrap behind me
I cannot excuse myself for all the wrongs Ihave done
even if i have proved them inevitable
how can one have guilt
for what I know is not my fault.
In the news there is talk of war again
As if 16 years of fighting was not enough
perhaps when I give the world fusion
that is how it will be used.
One day, a lot of adversarial goverments will ask themselves why they did not come to me, perhaps friendly governments will wonder why they did not act to keep this secret.  Those who steal this will feel twinges of unexplained guilt as they lie on silk sheets and I lie in the dust.
You might question this outcome, it is not inevitable, but if the rules of irony apply, it is more likely than the other.
A lot of this has to do with the lack of a team, so this has to happen before I put one together.
Things are happening.  I am moving forward with two programs, three perhaps.  But each of those put up barriers which might stop me and if they do not, I may stop myself.
The team....
I am feeding mosquitos, inevitable outside this time of year, despite the trucks.
Mostquitos, the team that i need to form.  I dont see enough of a difference, both i suppose are inevitable and both may kill me, metaphorically or otherwise, bring me low.
A half cup of coffee
A meagre roll to eat
heavy on top of the frozen pizza from last night
mosquitos who know what what they want
Anger
i am driven from the house by anger
there is too much of it in those doors
with their safety
their controlled comfort
but filled with anger
it is no wonder i spend my mornings out here
the mosquitos like having me here.

Galaxies and hubble

174.4 this morning.  It is nice to be clearly under 175; although i have to be careful not to lose too much weight.  I continue to largely ignore the core work and to skip the exercises that are critical to my mental and physical health.
Yesterday I did a much truncated stair workout followed by a not too truncated weight workout.   Whatever else happened, I  feel good physically this morning orther than the eye problems.
In short, I am exercising my body, not always efficiently, especially in this heat, but it is happening.
Mentally....well these are trying times.
I slept till after 5 and if the distance into the morning I slept wa an indicator, today would have been an ok day.
There are other factors.   You.  Deadlines, that seem to include a death of sorts, financial deadlines, choices; you again and this over whatever else I could have done and which I did not do and which now may be too late.
I am thankful for the massive amounts of work i have done up till now, but I am daunted because the amount of work remaining is significant.
I suppose if everything was fininshed i would have a fusion reactor humming in my garage.  It is not just the funding for that which worries me, it is the technical side, for I have now gotten to the point where I can lay out the technical requirements, reduce this to experimentation; but the closer I get there, the more I get to something which is dark and unpleasant.   Star wars science comes with a catch.   Too much understanding.
I am also not without a car, but limited in what I can do with what I have.  Trips down the interstate are limited or at night are what I would call unlikely.
And of course during the day there is the heat.   This is not the first time I have been in this position.  Some of the best years of my life were with an old subaru which should have been parted out but which I maintained through a few years till I managed to find another ride.  It was not, however, a reliable car, it was suffering from terminal warped engine blocks; fatal over time.   And there were years when I only had a motorcycle, something which changes your attitude about permanence.  Not like AuT, it has an effect on permanence which is much deeper.
I will dictate amend and file what I need to this morning.
This afternoon and Tomorrow, well tomorrow will take care of itself.   This afternoon I am not looking for miracles; just for an opportunity to continue up the steep road before me.

SYFY WIRE: Battle of the bulges: Have astronomers been wrong about spiral galaxies all this time?. https://www.syfy.com/syfywire/battle-of-the-bulges-have-astronomers-been-wrong-about-spiral-galaxies-all-this-time

You should know by now why articles about galaxies are important to quantum mechanics.  If not, you need ot buy one of my books on physics and read it.  Einstein saw this, not clearly, but he saw it.  I see it clearly, but I also understand that the lines are blurred by what I would have called dimensional changes, but which I am increasingly moved to call base numbering changes.  The ratios that give rise to dimension are increasingly troubling to me rather than satisfying.  I see that the algorithms involved are trivial; but there seems to be something that I have written down which holds a greater significance than I have given it.
What AuT tells us is that these structures are transient in both directions, breathing just as the universe as a whole breaths, just as the lower base state fractals breath and we even know where that breath comes from, an increasingly hidden underlying and predictable algorithm that requires we draw two opposing Fibonacci arms instead of one to define the universe.

Long before I matched this to the Vitruvean man this existed in pretty much just this way.   You can prove that if you want, just follow the blog posts back till you see this appear for the first time and then compare it to the appearance of the trademark earlier this year.
I forget when it first occurred to me that I was working with alternating exponent states as opposed to just alternating exponents.
The modeling that needs to be done is largely a question of modeling different base exponent results.  It is complex in design and effect.
Indeed the requirements of energy, being what they are and what they are not is so irreverant to the religion of pre-AuT science that even I recoil from them.  I do not doubt them, at least not the math behind them, but I recoil from what they mean, how we control forces or bend them to our will; when in fact we do not and have always known that.  The paradox raised by this very logical result is not a paradox at all except to conscious action, another thing and not another fantasy like religion or love.

the electron 6

I read some hollywood stars invested in a fusion reactor company worth a billion dollars that will never produce fusion.
I am pretty sure that I can build a fusion reactor that would work.   I wonder what will happen when I reach the end of  this thing, the "end of the runway" as it were.
I have a decision to make as early as next week.  wait for the help I probably need or just plow forward like I have always done, apparently successfully.
I am the tip of the spear, necessarily alone, everything behind me just adds direction and momentum, but I am alone up here.  Too impatient to wait for help, too conceited, perhaps.  I should care, but I don't the problem with conceit I suppose.
You should see what I have been reduced to riding around.   A vehicle that would be at home in any third world country; although it is surprisingly durable and reliable and the a/c actually works sporadically, but only against a heat of around 80 degrees.  After that it just dies and it is so moldy inside, well I will probably die of some sort of lung disease.
But I have patents to file in a couple of months, I am barrelling towards that; the first pct, the most advanced patents covering drawings that no one has even seen yet.  I have to summarize those, there are 40 pages of drawings and the pct has a maximum length of 30 pages.  My attempts to subcontract that work are...well not working.
I have not weighed myself recently.  That is sort of weird.  But I swam again yesterday, 2200 yards, and my clothes are all falling off; I have been eating light in the summer I am not getting fat whether I am getting skinny or not.
I am not living in terror, not yet.  I have been there before.  No I am living in something else right now.  Overwork, nervousness, Obscurity, pouring my resources into this thing; mainly time that could have been spent doing the things that make me money...but to what end legacy wise?  No, it is far better to run this trap; save mankind, die in a gutter if that is what the universe requires.  Good company there, wasn't it Archimedes who died by the sword in a conquered city he was charged to defend?  He is remembered for his genius; but where did it get him?  If he had a family what happened to them when Syracuse fell?  What happened to his tomb which was so famously decorated?
He worked with spirals too, the right one for his time I suppose and he was recognized, except when it became most important.  who was the guy who killed him?  For some reason I think history omits his name.  Perhaps that is where I will end up; an anonymous end.
He died protecting some drawing in the sand, perhaps it was like mine; the universe not ready to accept it yet.  I am holding my hands over the dust just like his.  These words, perhaps, belong on my tomb; "...sed protecto manibus puluere 'noli' inquit, 'obsecro, istum disturbare," obsecro istum disturbare, the words of those who die in the gutter believing there is something important there  whether there is or not.
Of course, I dont  belong with those famous names.  Even if I am right, there is some history thing that is satnding in my way.  My personality perhaps, my inability to reach out, my unrighteous indignation that I carry everywhere I go.
But where was I?
There is a very different atom out there, my atom.
An atom based on math and logic; not superstition and habit.
One day, someone will write an article based on mine and everyone will say; oh he is the genius, for copying me he will become the brilliant scientist.  The swordman and not the scientist will finally be famous and the world will be properly upside down.
Fractal mathematics are specifically seen in the universe at the smallest scales and at the largest.  If we ignore the iterated equations, we end up with models of sub-atomic particles which are based on largely random observations.  If, on the other hand, we recognize the mathematical results inherent in the underlying observed iterated equations we can literally look at galaxies and model atoms subject to the unexpected changes in base numbering.
Hence these pictures are more significant than the writers suspect.
Space.com: This Gorgeous Spiral Galaxy Photo May Hold Clues About Our Milky Way's Inner Workings. https://www.space.com/barred-spiral-galaxy-hubble-image.html

The electron 5

I've been gone from here for a while.
Two days ago I did a hard stair and weight workout, yesterday I did 2500 yards, could not even feel the effort, very strange.  Today, other than a 2 hour walk I got no exercise.  It has been a while since I had a day off.  Not happy about it, but I am back here.
I am far along with the invited phase 1, but I am waiting or one of two potential collaborators to sign on.
It is weird to redefine physics.  It is lonely.  It always will be, because my lack of credentials, at least in the eyes of those who I embarass with my success, will prevent acknowledgement for a long time.
Perhaps not too long if I build the fusion reactor, but even with my science that will be a challenge.
I can say, it will be biilt, the question is how will it work.  It is very different from anything that has ever been built, similar in some ways, but quite different.
I would tell you what is involved, but I am not ready for that.  It is enough to say it is in the patents that are filed and to some extent it is in the books that are written.  Only my lack of total certainty when those were published limited the information, I know so much more.
When I applied to the NEVS which I am attending in July; I did not have it.  That is weird.  That was to get the information to investigate.  Now the NSF is the target for that, but I can get this from anywhere, I can do it myself.  There is modeling, but I know better than anyone what I am modeling.
Things are moving fast.  A fast spinning wheel...

Aristotle's wheel rolls one dimensional state against the other, it is what I said in the patents, but even my words escaped my notice till now, when all things have been made clear.
Dimensions are not dimensions.  That is a tough pill to swallow and it does not go down easy.  There are 3 dimensions, yes.  Where do they come from?  The relative movement of base 4,6 and 10?  6, 10 and 16?
I am not certain of this.  Before I woudl have said 4, 6 and 10.  Now I am not so sure.  I am not sure why the number 3 works the way it does, coudl it be 4, 6 and 10 against 16?  If that is the case, why isn't 4 and 6 differently dimensionally from 10?
Certainly 4 is a first dimension.  It is a first folding of non-dimensional space.  It is 2 against 4 though.
The wheel turns and the results are observed as time is added.
In a quantum state there are no thermodynamics, everything is frozen, but everything is froen relative to everything else, there is dimension, there are ratios, there are positions.  A froen slide of film still has two dimensions.  Time then, over time things change and these changes are frozen for any value of x but over many values of x these changes in dimension, this rolling of one state relative to another changes and it is time and it is a visual reference for change and it is dimensional rearrangement so that dimensions have to arise from the transition of one state relative to the next notwithstanding the fact that the compression varies.  We see 3 dimensions from our ct4-5 standpoint, the molecular, atomic standpoint because all of the other compression states change relative to the point of reference and it evens out dimensionally because everyting is compressed to three dimensions or it is irrelevant.
Ct1,2 and 3 are essentially all space.  The changes that are 3 dimensional are the changes of ct4 and 5 in all their consituent transitional state glory.  Yes space changes too, space drives the changes in ct4 and 5; but what dimensional features we experience as 3 dimensions and time all come from the rearrangements over large value of x.
The background states are too small, too irrelevant to make a noticeable difference.
And the electron appears as a point when it is not, not because of dimension, but because it is so close to being irrelevant even though it is enormous cmpared to ct3, compared to the photon.  There are 4 basic largely stable ct4 transitional states according to the model, t6, 12 and 16.  Three diemnsions?  I am not convinced, you ave the same polynomial approximation problems.
The 12 states are only 5 and change, however, that is what we know and if the model does not work, if fusion is possible, then the reason for the lack of balance in the electron is probably the same reason for the lack of completion in the proton.  It remains unstable because the t13 that is missing is stable as 6t12 states whcih are stable as 5 t12 states because...it is stabilized by t6 states?  There is only the t13 mission from t16, but that is 10^3; for the t13 states, what is missing is 10^7, you could look at it as 10^6 if we're talking about the t12 and to some extent we are.  6, 3, 0, it is a pattern that asks you to recognize it or to reject it.  But if we are using t12, then it is really 10^4, 10^6, think about it.
There are a lot of other states in there, but they are transient relatively speaking, their role...dimenished.

Let's stop there for a moment.

Phys.org: The geometry of an electron determined for the first time. https://phys.org/news/2019-05-geometry-electron.html

This article's title is misleading bullshit.
Since I know what an electron actually looks like, well with the reservaions that have been set out above, and since probabilities are preaut nonsense, it is not worth a comment excep...it talks about the geometry being determined for the first time and guess who has already seen the geometry for the first time.  You are right, it is you!

bagels and time travel

i weighed 174. something this morning  I cannot remember what.  I have been making the bagel, egg and whatever meat i could find things lately.  they are delicious.
I swam...again.  In something of a time and heat rut.  Too hot to go to the gym.  I will pay for that when I go back.  2500 yards today, it was sunny with a storm in the distance to the south and I watched it steadily come to me, ominous; but I finished my swim.
I finished the first draft of the grant application.  weighing in at 31 pages but who knows how many of them are redundant.  There is a lot to edit.  I am waiting to see what type of help i am going to get with the numbers, designing my nail.  It is interesting.
I went back in time today, around 54 years.  We can all travel in time a bit, well I can anyway.
I have something in common with the photon, i cannot be two places at once.  Well, once being a pre-time once anyway.
I cannot be all the places i need to be.
I cannot be the places i need to be for me at all.
I am in a weird place.  I have figured out how the universe works below the level of thermodynamics.  I worked out the solution to wave particle duality and then the answer to the twin slit anomalies.
I figured out what the Aristotle wheel rolled against
And yet, I cannot do for everyone that needs a part of what I am.
I cannot give the advice i need to give or get those who get what little advice i have to offer to listen.
The world crumbles around me.
I hold a life preserver, but  too many people are drowning.  I hold a life preserver, but no one believes in it.
In less than 30 days now, well a bunch of things happen.

Prizes, aristotl's wheel, the surface and age

2000 yards.
This model exists because my lover crushed me, left me looking like a beetle bailey cartoon after a fight with the seargent and to some extent, that happens to me every day.
Indeed today, the thoughts of my lover casting me aside triggered the hallucinations which nearly crippled me, often making it where I could barely speak, and then I came out of it, and I saw the final pieces to the solution that kill Schrodinger's cat once and for all.
Isn't suffering grand?
I am so close, what does everything always fall apart when I am so close?
Close to what, you ask?
Indeed I realized what Aristotle's wheel rolls againt, it is what I said in the patents, but even my words escaped my notice till now, when all things have been made clear.
It is unbelievable, horrible that I have to be punished like this, impoverished, abandoned, forced to show my feelings the only way left to me.  And for what?  To kill Schrodinger's beloved cat?
The cat is dead, once and for all that, the ratios survive. 
The love?  My love is not as transient as my lover's; it cannot die, I could no more kill it than I could end my life; the two must die together.
That will be the story of my last contribution, people will say, his heart broke; and they will rejoice is the wisdom that is left behind in my wake, celebrating the lover who forced me to do this, the heroine.
I see it all now, now the collapsing of waves, by freezing the wheel, the surface,  both, it need not be one or the other, because one stopping and the other moving is all of a thing, it is the same as those drawings of what time is, how we experience, it is all a piece of the same pie, a sweet desert for everyone except me.
Drain off the pre-time locations, for those exist before the slits.
Indeed, the dual slit experiement, is trivial to solve in my madness.
I wondered about the proof article, the next article I had written, so close to the end.  I realize now that I can submit it for publication, by the end of the month.  I will set the trap to kill that cat, perhaps as early as this month.

The prior article talked about people getting the nobel prize for discovering dark energy when I have discovered what it is.  Well, not really discovered, just figured it out.
you know why i am always showing up in this blog
it is because i have this short little attention span
a big bag of anger and a need to complain about the silliness in the world
you people with your little problems and your bragadocious little accomplishments and your sense of self worth even as you participate in the planetary genocide that a milligram of common sense could stop because deep down inside, no you dont realize an asteroid or supervolcano willl do the same thing, you are not that smart, its because all you care about is your own little ego, your own feelings
you dont care about mine and maybe i dont care about yours.
Indeed I only have room in my heart for one person who would just as soon step on it as watch it bleed.

NBC News: The universe may be a billion years younger than we thought. Scientists are scrambling to figure out why.. https://www.nbcnews.com/mach/science/universe-may-be-billion-years-younger-we-thought-scientists-are-ncna1005541

The Vents are stopped up

Why dont you guys just buy the books?  This is just the place where I go to vent.  It is not so much science as me whining about all the things that bother me.
Like the fact that I figured out how the universe works below the level of thermodynamics and the major publications are not camped out in my driveway.  What the fuck is wrong with you people?
Or the fact that I swam 2000 yrds even though the thought of swimming 100 yds was unbearable to me.  And that you know i feel better because of it and that makes you feel smug.
Or the fact that I did all of this to save your rotten hides which clearly would only be worth saving if you understood wtf I am talking about which, well see item 1, clearly you dont but even if you did it wouldnt matter and if you dont know why i say that, well you havent been reading this blog very much.
And how about the fact taht i would do anything even be unhappy myself if it made youhappy.  would you do that/  doubt it.  And you know its true, because i supprted everyone, even the old one that clearly wasnt right because that is what I am.
I am too loyal, that is my problem.  Too wonderful.  What a cross I have to bear.
But that does not make me perfect.  I am quick to anger, jealous, small minded just like you are.  I will gnaw my way around a problem to save a few bucks just like you.  And you now something else/ there is nothign about electrons in those books like what you see here, because i did not realize it even though it just  happened that way.
There is so much s--t I figure out every day, id have to publish twice a day to get close to keeping up, because i am just that much smarter than everyone else, that much more irritated and that much worse of a person.
So read all the old frigging blog posts if you want, but you should give the books to your friends as presents.
I had a new idea for a book today, by the way, but you are dreaming if you think im going to tell you about it here.

Another look at space and another group following AuT

Yesterday I weighed in over my target weight again, inexplicably.
Rather than do the stair machine, I rode my bike which is, apparently, in need of new gears, cables and other hardware.
I did 3 sets of weights and finished the ride, getting the main gear adjusted at least so it would go into third gear.
I am happily free from the patent still, but I am also writing notes to add to the patent when it comes back.  None of this is really new science as much as it is new ways of handling the old science, spinning black holes out of galaxies and such.  It never stops.
I have 22 days to finish the NSF grant, so I am making notes for that also.
This post includes a link to a stupid "break through" something that is still years behind AuT and therefore just a new shadow from old science, but it also includes a bit of insight.
The insight is on space and comes from the math proof of the theory.
What we call space is actually ct1-3 to some extent.  Hence the ability to move through ct1 is absent, but you can move through what we call space, at least under a fashion and to the extent space is pre-time state change.
So we can move through "space" even though ct1 pushes us around.
This is why even now I am both right and wrong about everything.
Run as fast as you can, because all of the things that make me do what I do are both visible and what I am and invisible and what you cannot see and what I cannot seem to pass thorugh or control.  I am what you think I am, but i am also what you fear I am.  How can I bring these things together, the one who knows more than everyone else, who sees more clearly than everyone else even while I am going blind, the one who is driven passion but who grinds it to dust for the sake of things that are irrelevant, even to me.  Or perhaps there are alternatives.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghZt2cILcCU

Where were we, ah yes, quantum nonsense vrs AuT wisdom which seems to come from the biggest fool alive.
https://thenextweb.com/science/2019/06/03/physics-breakthrough-should-solve-quantum-computings-dead-cat-problem/

Why Bell's Theorum is BS

A reduced stair workout with 3 sets of weights yesterday followed by a mere 2000 yards (in a thunderstorm) then another 2200.
I am still alive.
I have been busy.  I am working diligently to get the patent ready to file.  I have a little under 2 months.  I finished my part and am working to get  some other work done on it.  The results...well I am curious to see what they are.
All predictable science should be given a seat at the physics table, but AuT being expponentially more predictive does not get a chair because it is too right.
I am editing the paper, unpublished which "proves" the theory mathematically.
This article is total B.S.  I would write those words out to emphasis it, but it isn't really the article, it was Bell himself who was full of it.
Salon: How quantum theory clashes with reality. https://www.salon.com/2019/06/02/how-quantum-theory-clashes-with-reality/
The idiocy of this is reflected in the article I am writing, what it says about what space is, but that will wait.
What really matters is that as long as you think electrons are quantum, as long as you think of time as a dimension or even fundamental you will always get the wrong result.  You have to be able to peel  back the layers.
I am going to provide snippets of my paper on proof here and I will publish it at some point in time, perhaps I will share that here, who knows what the future holds.
But one thing I will share is that space itself is not quantum.  It is so much more complicated than anything I have ever seen, that I now realize even though it is the quantum state for our view of the universe, it is only the beginning of something infinitely more complex.
Bell is full of S--T, well he was.  Dead now.  I have figured out the hidden variables, but when I pulled back the curtain and saw quantum space, there was another curtain, which spread out like an ocean when I touch it.
Anyway...

(buy me)

sound cloud presentation

So I continue to just sit at 175 pounds, occasionally bouncing one way or the other by a few pounds,  but not by anything relevant.
I figured out two ways to address my second 90 second video, I believe the one to choose is the second, but I will probably record both and play them here.
I have been exercising hard, yesterday was weights and stair, although I only did two sets of weights and pulled back on the stair, but I attribute this to the heat.
I went to sleep early and slept for almost 10 hours which means that I will have dilusional episodes today; but I must have needed it.  Simming would be a good way to wake up this morning and perhaps I will, although it rained hard and perhaps that lowered the water temperature, something that would be better and worse.
It would take a lifetime to recreate something like this physics.
There are other things that took a lifetime to create
Still, sometimes you have to admit that you have to start over
That is not really a thing, starting over.  You can get reincarnated, but you still have the same life.
Babies, if there are any, that are not reincarnated, get to start fresh.
That being said, we can look past where we are, to the adventure of being...nothing, an empty shell of what we once were.

https://soundcloud.com/greg-friedlander/3minspeech

If love was enough
is not an excuse
because love is always enough
if you make it enough
Is this the weight of love
how do you weigh love
It is enough to know you
to weigh all the love
And when you look for answers
is not that answer enough
not just to this
but for everything