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Saturday, November 9, 2024

11.9.24 saturday

 It is hard to say much about things in general.

 I will not say anything about politics. 

I don't sleep in the mornings

It has been a long time since I slept

at peace like you

Sometimes it is better, 

sometimes worse

Now it is worse

My days do not go by one mimicking the next.

There should be a rhythm to them, 

but it is a jazz rhythm

it appears chaotic 

though i know a pattern is hiding

if i can just see past the individual days

the noise, loneliness, longing

building to a crescendo

I like to think it ends with recognition

But i know that it ends in darkness

I will not get to see it

even if it is there

perhaps i will hear it

i like to think it ends with you,

i lie to myself 

to give it meaning 

it ends in death alone

perhaps death, alone

I thought about the multiple ways

that you can look at endothermic and exothermic

It woke me up

insisting I write it out

telling me

you can't sleep anyway

you can't hold her

nevermore

the darkness insists

write about fire and ice

The parallels with you, 

the heat, now the cold

intertwined only in our minds

Dancing away from each other

The math coming closer together

Even as we drift farther apart

the science becoming rhythmic

as we descend into chaos

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