Christmas Eve 5am

 Urania

That appears to be the Greek muse

I dreamt of you

of being with you

in my dreams 

things were not right

but they were where they had been

I stopped

short of where 

I wanted to go

even in my dreams

I stopped myself

from realizing my dreams

It is dark outside

I lit the tree

to hide my desire

we never had

our tree

our winter vacation

a moment

when it was 

just us

everything vanished

with you

but never

was it gone

oh Urania

how do i live

without you

i have

the greatest purpose

and it means

nothing

love endures

responsibility survives

i wish nothing

the happiness of others

of you

my dreams

tell me 

i am lying

moments