where do you look when you're lost

I know you disappear and I deserve it
I find myself alone
We all feel lost some times
Health must overshadow other problems
good health seems like enough to a sick person
but sometimes it seems like the emotional issues
are more than I can handle alone
I can't ask you to be there for my issues
if I'm not there for yours
All I can do is to tell you
that when things seem overwhelming to me
I look to you
like a drowning man reaches for air
like a falling man grasps for the sky
like a religious man might turn to god
and i undestand how they feel
when there is nothing reaching  back