troubled sleep

If ever a man was driven mad by the thought of a woman

careful not to say by the woman herself

that person would lie awake at 4 am

all their actions in one way or another

to one extent or another

would be about her since the day they met
whether a day or half their lives
directed by forces deep inside 

it would neither fade nor sleep.
alone but still feeling the hand
and tasting the breath of the other
death would have felt different.
loneliness requires being alone
perhaps one day to be free
to suffer alone
a life forever dedicated
against the conscious mind