countdowns 4,8 apocalypto 366

I moved up to 12/3/13 which is the last Dec post of 2013; way back when I still thought about nonsense like multi-universes and wormholes, the link can be ignored.

It is very early on New Year's Eve.

I woke early to make last minute, but important changes to the filing which I planned for today, but perhaps not.  

Every day that goes by there is more that is added and if I leave off the secret sauce and only do one of the preliminary filings today then the other filing can be made tomorrow or even Monday.

New year's eve is the least important of holidays to me.  I do not like to stay up late or be woken up late and this year, in particular, the idea of being in a crowd is unsatisfactory.  Appearing this early in the week (late but still early) means that it is messing with a full schedule.

This is a problematic year.  A crappy year in some ways, particularly with you; but it has its moments.

It is late and its raining and i am sitting by myself because i would otherwise be with someone who does not understand me.  I will be going to sleep soon, because I do not understand why anyone would stay up till midnight, perhaps if we were togegther I would get it and i would certainly stay up for a kiss.

https://youtu.be/HoG2i_h420A

It is not terrible.  I am in a very mellow mood.  I just swam 1800 yards, 1100 IM and it was pushing it to go at all.  Probably should not have with my hand and all; but the internal pressure was building up, especially thinking about a new year starting without you in it, so swim I did.

I had a massive bit of luck for my science doing something that I have been thinking about for some time but did not have a clear avenue to pursue and it was put before me with such clarity and has since been so easily developed that it seems something of a gift from the universe.  I wonder what it will cost me?

That being aside I have already made some extensive notes and will probably have it outlined in all respects except the budget by Monday which will give me a week to complete it.  I was able to get rid of two of the four intervening projects and this points out the importance of waiting for the fourth, perhaps for Monday or Tuesday although until this came up I would have said it was ready to go.  Now I see how much can be included in it and I am thankful that I have the opportunity to make those changes even though working throughout the next 3 days at the rate required is daunting.

The darned budget is the toughest part of this, overlaps complicating everything.

If there were multiverses, perhaps I could get things right in all of the other ones.  It too late for many things, but it is not too late for tomorrow.

I love every day when i can think about us together, even 2020.  happy new year.

12/3/2013

http://m.nbcnews.com/science/spooky-physics-phenomenon-may-link-universes-wormholes-2D11690659

exactly what day of the apocalypse? countdowns 5, 9 if distance is an illusion how restrictive is time

Another early post from early 2013, a way to see where I was.

I rode my bike and did the light weights today.  

I' was deeply involved in work today, but managed to get a great deal done, the work was definitely worth doing, a question I had.  The plan is to finish two projects tomorrow and one Friday which will open up Monday and allow me to get to a fourth project over the weekend.

I wasn't focused on anything outside of work because I could not.

I did see the moon, not quite as low as yesterday, but enough to see the effect.

Saturday, December 7, 2019 was 389 days ago, apparently for some reason the first day of the apocalypse.  I think it's the birthday of one of my old girlfriends and pearl harbor day.  I think there must be a typo in there somewhere.  And don't get upset about that!

Trump made his famous toilet flushing speech and 500 scholars said he'd committed impeachable offenses (studies in the obvious, perhaps).  However...

March 5 was day102 according to this blog, so somewhere in there I lost 18 days.

If March 5 was day 102 then the first day of the apocalypse was Sunday, November 24, 2019.  Why on earth was that the first day of the apocalypse. 

Nothing particular happened that day, although it was: All Souls' Day (Visu Dvēseles Diena) - Latvia

Eternity Sunday (Sunday of the Dead) (Ewigkeitssonntag) - Austria

Guru Tegh Bahadur's Martyrdom Day (गुरु तेग बहादुर शहीदी दिवस) - India

Sunday of the Dead (Totensonntag) - Germany

I think there is some mathematical error beyond losing 18 days.

But wait, there's more.  March 4 was day 91, so that would take it to December 4, 2019.  As near as I can tell the only relevance there is that it was national cookie day.  Is national cookie day the first day of the apocalypse?  How is that possible?  Kamala Harris ended her campaign, that's something.Melania trump accused someone of pandering.  Macron used toddler techniques to convince trump to endorse nato.  None of that sounds apocalyptic.

Note that the first reported case of covid in china was 12/31/19.  So maybe...?

But where am I, where are we now

I thought about posting a picture of that gift, but why?  What would you do?

Send it?  Send it back?

A gift for someone who isn't there.

My hand is infected where that feral cat bit me yesterday.  Yesterday it was serious, today it seems better, but it could go either way.  You don't have to care.  More to follow, unless I can't type.

Here's a funny list; not sure I agree with  it conceptually, its way to different from the last one I saw, but there it is.

Here is the oldest post that was left, one that has since been answered definitely, but it was not certain in 2013.

4/26/13

As has oft been repeated, I will continue to skirt the issue of apparent faster than light travel till the conditions for that exhibition are fully met (see prior posts for details).
However, that issue may be skirted (since it's pretty much set out in what's been written if you read between the lines) and we can discuss the issue of how restrictive time is if distance is an illusion brought on by the application of time to tendencies for events to happen in the singularity.

day 388 of the apocalypse countdowns 6, 10

Slept pretty well after the tough swim despite personal conflicts.

Didn't want to get up at first, but I did.

Very unusual for me.  Thought about not writing anymore, but decided to do at least one more post, I still have 350 of them to get out of my drafts.  Now I'm focused on getting the earliest ones, those from 2013 are first, it was, apparently, a time not unlike this time.

Even as I woke I had a few more notes, ideas to put together, but did that and combined all of the papers and now all is publishable. Ugly, but ready if need be.  I decided to wait another day since I'm still having these ideas and I was not ready to get things finished today.  I have a bigger work day planned tomorrow.

I bought you a present for the holidays and don't know what to do with it.  I had this plan, but I'm still waiting to see how plans go, mine seem to fall apart, to get stuck like the old posts.

This ancient ditty (post) was the second oldest.  I deleted the oldest (4/20/13) because it was nothing but some work notes on coming deadlines.  Boring.

This one had nothing but a few words to it.  Too few, so I'm going to start with a picture.  To the one who I cannot trust or perhaps the one who cannot trust me.

I saw the moon this evening just as it rose, enormous and filling the sky 

like something from a science fiction movie

but only for a moment and then it was small again

I took this picture this evening with the clouds sailing past it

like pirate sales in the sky.

 

4/21/13

why are love and hate such powerful words

day 387 of the apocalypse 7, 11;A new way of looking at movement and dark matter

I ate the last of my chicken enchiladas for lunch.  So far I am still alive.

Over a bed of shredded raw cabbage.

Did DOE dry run today, found a problem and fixed it.

Tomorrow there is another seminar, afterwards, I plan to file the first of two LOI(s) which I am hoping to finally edit today.

I did some morbid things today, might have been a little creepy too.  Creepy, morbid but caring.  That's a strange combination.  Cause I can't trust you to keep me updated on what is important.  Yeah, that's right, can't trust you.  That doesn't sound right to me either.

Yesterday after the bike ride I was very worn out and things did not improve much today.

But despite that I swam 2000 yards, 1000 im.  I wasn't impressed; but I did it a little to my surprise.

I am such a jock for a 90 year old man.  I really felt that enchilada afterwards.  Can't eat like I used to, especially not food that like it was scraped off the street after a few weeks.

Still haven't been able to do yoga.

I saw this article and thought it was a little ironic since it did not deal with my specific problems:

https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/26/well/take-back-your-sex-life.html

I am now around 15 days out from seeking professional advice in that regard, but see little to gain, since I already know what to do and how to do it.

You should be required to post your own blog, I think.  Give me a chance to stay up to date with things.  Might be more than I could handle, because I'm focused unlike you.

I'm trying to date these old posts better, I still have 350 of them to go so everything gets posted.  Some are more personal than others.

This one was originally written, from here on down, on the date given, so don't get any ideas; although your ideas might not be a terrible idea to get, show some initiative, that is what I say and all of your thoughts have been pretty negative.  Where was I, oh yes, back in early 2018:

4/1/2018

Dawn comes slowly
I see it coming
sleepless
I feel control
but don't grasp it
waiting for something
that has not happened yet
instead of making something
I want to live where the snow falls
and where people look for truth honestly
walking on skis during the long northern winters
and being in love with the evergreens and someone like you

https://www.cnn.com/2018/03/05/opinions/discovery-of-first-stars-and-dark-matter-opinion-lincoln/

Mass/Dark matter missing in a galaxy can be explained by the net positive or negative results for the underlying ct1 state at any point so a galaxy with little or more dark matter (the result of this net) is easily explained and even predictable.  The idea of the galaxy with the missing dark matter might represent a black hole missing center meaning the "compression" present is less than others.

There are some new thoughts on constant movement given the new definition of time.

Let's talk about what is going on.  First velocity is the sequential change that appears as constant substitution of ct1 states.  This gives a constant or near constant movement (the offset movement of ct1 vs the constant movement of ct0 is somewhat confusion, although the observed result is that everything is moving.

There is a difference however, between observed constant movement and the ability of particles to remain in place without ct1 substitution dimensionally.  When time is introduced, the spacing of ct1 substitutions disappears so that as long as you are in a ct3 or higher state, the substitution appears constant giving rise to a false wave particle duality and also a false appearance of constant movement while at the quantum level there are very long breaks.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u9Dg-g7t2l4o

day 386 of the apocalypse 8, 12;

Sunday morning.

The last day of the weekend.

Things are returning slowly to normal.

It is unpleasant.

I've slept later the last few days

The cold

A false sense the pressure is off 

And perhaps some real sense 

that I'm not far from being ready for next week

The morning is gone now, I've ridden downtown and back and eaten.

It was a cold, uncomfortable start, the final hill I took my longsleeve shirt off and rode in with a t-shirt.

I saw this on the way back.

I also ran across this ghost.  Many a time I rode by and this door was boarded shut, but today it had been torn open and I was able to look inside.  I suppose I could have looked inside from a little higher up too since the roof is missing.

Nothing but walls and a little tile, this was once the only jewish grocery store, a block from the greek temple, suggetsing, perhaps, an ethnic aspect to the neighborhood where my grandparents once lived.

The store left me feeling strange, wondering what secrets those walls still held, what ghosts wandered down invisible isles looking for long vanished, kosher foods, perhaps boxes of candles for the sabbath or a flour substitute for passover.

I wonder what is happening now, with so much that could be happening and I know nothing.

The river and the ride that took me there are now far back as far as these things go.

The universe could end with an inflection point which is had the current expansion, but not the current universe started.

And yet, there is a certain truth in this.

What I wouldn't give to know what is happening, and I know exactly what I could give and therefore what I'd have to give.

And sadly, I know what I want to know.

The universe could end the same way it started — with a big bang http://flip.it/kd3q6N

day 385 of the apocalypse 9, 13; what's for dinner

My vacation is officially over.  

The day after Christmas, the first Day of Kwanza with its 7 noble African values.

I have a week and a day to finish and file the first set of grants and to put something provisional  in place covering what otherwise has been developed in the last few weeks while addressing these issues.  I should be approximately ready for the first two by the deadline of the 4th, I'd say I'm ready now; but that may or may not be true.

The longer version is due a week later fall into the same category of being mostly, but not completely prepared.

The idea of secondary equivalence which is not set out anywhere here really throws a wrench in the whole thing; but is too likely a result and says too much that makes sense to ignore.

That problem aside, a prosecution question mark at the very least; a redrawing issue of some consequence, there is a lot of order to the new work which should make it easier to fit into one place or the other and all the basics are laid out, a little repetitively, but laid out, already with artwork and words; and at last check the lengths seemed to check out.  Everything formally filed seems to be where it needs to be.

I am still a couple of weeks away from my counseling meeting, it will be too late to help with any of the things set out above, but it just will not get here.  I saw this course, 

Understanding Anxiety, Depression and CBT, in futurelearn and signed up for it; not sure of the scope of the cbt thing, that will be the first thing I'll learn if I attend.

There was a page or two of disclaimers which I skimmed over.  Perhaps your anger has already started to cure me.  My memory for such things seems to be defective; but I think I will skim over everything that is written and see if there is something I can hold onto.  If things change enough, perhaps I can move on in a way that is meaningful and that brings some fulfillment.  I would recommend it to anyone else; dreams of fulfilment from where I am sound absurd to me.

I still haven't done the yoga I keep promising myself.  I'd like to skip exercising completely today, although I finally fixed that slow leak (apparently it resulted from a prior patch beginning to fail, go figure) yesterday and assuming the tires are holding air today, it would be a good day for a test ride.  It is, however, pretty cold right now.

In addition, those pull ups have caught up with me, I could really use a massage; bad timing with the end of the world.  It could have something to do with a few days without swimming too, but I think I was just swimming so that doesn't seem so likely.

I think I'll try my extended back exercises which deal with that; but it appears to be one strained muscle in my shoulders.  It would be easier to deal with if i had a massage, but only with someone who knew what they were doing and could get the kink out; something I'm not going to look for in these times when even a haircut seems to be taking your life in your hands.

Here's an interesting feeding: https://www.latimes.com/world-nation/story/2020-12-26/mallard-to-go-dig-of-pompeii-fast-food-place-reveals-tastes article.  I have eaten a number of very good, but simple meals lately and this makes me wonder what was happening in Pompeii in 79, what spices were added to the food, what vegetables or salads they might have eaten on the street.  I have had a craving for tamales and enchiladas recently and wonder if they had anything to carry the soups in given the fact that bowls would have been available only to those who brought their own, presumably.  Or was there some other option?

And then there was this: from how long ago.

Scientific American: Have We Mismeasured the Universe?. https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/have-we-mismeasured-the-universe/

It is not appropriate in every case, but when it is, the usual response to I love you, is I love you too; unless you don't.  People need to be careful with that word love, it is too carelessly tossed around.  And perhaps it is occasionally withheld when it is warranted.  The same can be said with hello or good-bye, but without the personal exposure that is tied to the subject of this paragraph.  If someone says hello and you don't answer back, it suggests an insult, the options where goodbye is not answered are even more diverse, less sinister in some cases, more so in others.

How strange it is to reach out and hear nothing in response, but an echo of your own words; but there is great peace in being alone too.

dreams II-day 384 of the apocalypse 10, 14

I think you are wrong. It's a matter of bad timing, anything that strong will be destructive,  it could have been beautiful and perhaps it is but perhaps not. 

You may have been wondering about how long ago these posts were made.  It just so happens, that this one has a date which goes with it:

nov 23, 2015

So what that means is that the absurdity that is embodied in some of these technically comes from their ancient origins, relatively speaking.

The content will appear under "last night's dreams," a dream I apparently had 11/22/2015.  First I will talk a little about my day today.

The plan was yoga, but I ended up walking the dog and doing some of that upper body work.  It was that half cold weather, where the sun feels good, so good that half-way through the walk I took time to lay down in the sun and write back to you.

I then changed two flat tires, one of which was a slow leak from a degrading patch.

I have been meditating in place of napping so I don't lose as much time or have that drugged feeling when I wake up.

I have a fever burning in me, not a disease but a fever of the mind caused by you.   I don't know how to interpret dreams and i don't remember this one or why i wrote it down. 

last night's dreams
1) living in a curtained off room in a shelter, but with possessions like car keys and lots of clothes.  a not bad singer, singing to the inhabitants and me long into the night keeping me up, but not badly.  Eating with the other inmates in a common room.  Everything white and lit up.
2) trying to get somewhere on back streets in a place I called new orleans.  The paths were narrow.  It involved going past many other people, climbing up walls and moving along the broad tops and then having to squeeze between narrow walls and bushes, festooned with webs crawling with spiders while other people did the same.

fantasma day 383 of the apocalypse 11, 15

It is still Christmas Eve

Despite the coming cold I rode my bike, the short bike ride to my office.  I felt bad because after the hard swim and light meals of yesterday I thought perhaps if I weighed myself the results would be better despite the hard foods of the holidays, but I did not weigh myself, I woke early and stayed with the cat while I drank my coffee.

I just had a small amount of egg nog latte despite how late it is and I may pay for it later, but it was good and I meditated in lieu of a nap for 20 minutes and feel much better now.  Except that the cat is in a terrorizing mood and is roaming about, hissing at everything, scaring me a little.

Fantasma is a beautiful word, it means ghost in spanish.

So Santo Fantasmo is the holy ghost?  Sounds unbelievable, but I think the translation is there.

"Stanto Fantasmo de Geronimo!" would almost certainly be Holy Geronimo's ghost.

It has been an ugly day inside of me, despite moments of beauty, the heavy dark rain in the morning, the puddles during my bike ride, the razor sharp edge of the front as it moved through in the afternoon.  But it is all shadowed by La Fantasma de mio, my ghost (f).

I can hope for you that you have no ghosts visit your during Christmas, but I welcome the reminder that there is much growth yet for me in my life.  I wish I was with my ghost tonight. 

aum ebook now available

it is early christmas eve, dark and rainy.  i am not ready for it if that is what you are wondering.

i had a vivid dream last night.  it started with cleaning up at some festival and knowing i would be in some sort of exhibit there later but needing to get out.

i took some of the dishes to a sink and kissed someone new in the bright sunlight before walking off and finding myself as i am in a crowded store and then back to the carnivall which was now crowed, it was empty except for those cleaning earlier and i was providing succor to a child and thinking about the girl i kissed and on stairs which eventually went nowhere with picture frames stacked deep on them which had weird features of christmas and something sinsiter.

And then I was awake and doing my morning chores and writing this while keeping that feral cat company.

He and I understand each other, we are both not happy about where we're at but not sure where to go or how to get there.

We would talk if we could but it may not be possible as long as you are the one I kiss in my dreams and the girl with me on the train. 

What follows is a note for me and the original content of this unpublished draft. 

I'll edit it later to take out my notes. 

this book was published a long time ago and now is irrelevant to this post.

          This book Is a summary Algorithm Universe Theory Compendium Volume 1, 2nd edition, and AuTC Vol 2, 3^rd Edition

          Shortcuts are taken, for example, in the rigorous discussion of literature in the fields to which this theory applies comparing the standard model.  The AuT model is largely self-proving, being mathematics.  The assessment of the validity of the conclusions is cursory in this summary.  PUBLICATION OF SOME DRAWINGS IN THE PRINT VERSION WAS IMPOSSIBLE.  THESE DRAWINGS WITH NUMBERS ARE SHARED AT A FREE LINK: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1TrsWpwOUqzWJItKOBmA73DhWJg5hyiPCV4AqMtuOXu0/edit

or

https://docs.google.com/document/d/1TrsWpwOUqzWJItKOBmA73DhWJg5hyiPCV4AqMtuOXu0/edit?usp=sharing

Truce

Still at 176.  A dangerous place to be with holiday food.

I did the 2400 swim with 1200 im tonight, finishing out the pre-holiday season on an up note after days of nothing but bike riding it seems and walking and that thing will pull ups.

I watched a video of cross country train travel, a dream I have.  I don't expect it to be something terribly romantic for all 4 and a half days, but rather something where we could do that, but where we would work together, where we could sleep next to each other if we wanted, and shower if we wanted, separately given the room involved and have quiet meals and coffee in the morning as the country moved by out the window with something at the end.

It was, so intense in its way, that I wanted to ask for a truce, but I did not; because total and complete war is inconsistent with a truce and only capitulation can end a war of such depth and entirety.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFwEDLl_rhQ&t=396s

But when I dragged myself toward the pool, it was with the thought that if we did this, that if I took my cloths off in front of you, that I would not be ashamed of what would be seen, at least under the circumstances of my current situation.

And then there was this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e3uyF7IWfwk

There is much to be said of Bayes' theorem in a fractal universe, but the failure to recognize the fractal universe, at least before me, is hard to understand ,even hard to believe.

The Important Theorem of Thomas Bayes http://flip.it/9ysAI3

If we cannot have a truce, then happy holidays.

And in the interest of continuing the war, i extend my best wishes for the coming year and my love.

And to end things on a happy note (this also goes with the vid from Greece:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IKKbboquS9s

I thought it was funny

day 381 of the apocalypse 13, 17 Math for the speech

Still no word, I suppose I'm waiting for the 4th now.

Today was a confused day although I'm getting some direction.

I have a new medical bent to things although I have no way to apply it yet.

Speaking of medical, I wasn't getting any exercise so I rode my bike to work and that meant only a mediocre exercise to go with the walk from yesterday and those silly pullups, silly because they are so pitiful.

And the editing continues, a little vague to me, I'm not excited about how its going, but its going and I have the others to get ready this week now that I have the ideas for what has to be the last one to file.

I went on another walk, pretty hard this time, but still just a walk and not too far.

Here is something for you, if only you loved me like I love you.

photo by Umesh Ghule of the Saturn Jupiter conjunction

Not sure about this math or where it was being used or how; but for some reason I put this together a long time ago and for reasons I don't understand now:

Derivatives:
M(t)=2^t
Easy dM/dt(t)=(2^(t+dt)-2^t)/dt gives teh change over a chosen size dt
The 2^(t+dt) can be broken down to 2^t*2^dt so you get:
[(2^t*2^dt)-2^t]/dt=2^t(2^dt-1)/dt
The derivative of 2^t is what this expression equals as dt approaches zero.
the 2^dt-1/dt approachs a constant (as an infinite series) .6931472... as dt gets very small.
As the "base" (e.g. 2 here) changes (e.g to 3) the constant changes, for 3 it goes to 1.0986...
for base 8 it is 3 times the limit number for 2 which derives from 2^n, here 3.

Where d(a^t)/dt=a^t is euler's number.  d(e^t)/dt(t)=e^t (1).
See the sin equation where we get the .14... number that takes us to a ratio of 256/26 for n=1 with the sin equation. (note that I now have 256/27 which is confusing for n=-1:n=1; what was I thinking here?)
for e, the slope=location on the x axis.
e^3t derives to 3e^t (chain rule):de^ct/dt=3e^ct
2=e^ln(2):  e^?=2 is how ln is derived (natural log)
2^t=e^ln(2)t
So taking the derivative of the equation above
ln(2)2^t=ln(2)*e^ln(2)t

day 379 of the apocalypse continued

 So I did a bit of bike riding and fought with an electronic device for an hour without success.  I fixed it after a fashion this, the next day.  Twice I needed it today and it failed both times.  I suppose I'll hope it gets better and suck it up.

Technology can be great, but it is also terrible in its unreliability.

Still no word last tonight.  Is it the last day plus 1 if it falls on a weekend?  I looked up the status, something which caused me great suspense.

It took time to build up the nerve to do something as silly as figuring the process out and then checking.  My stomach was in knots.  It is still in knots.  It is not that it is everything that hasn't happened yet, everything that will and will not happen, it is the tremendous weight that I feel every doay to do something, to change everything.

"pending" was the only word, so I sent another update to the examiner and expressed my hope that we'd have some answer soon.  It lists today as the range date of the status, but that may just be how the display on the website works...

Pending is an interesting world.  The response to you is pending; it seems like my life is pending.  I have an appointment with a counselor pending and it seems as far off as I could imagine anything pending can be although it is not a long time.  I am so ready for life not to be pending, to get out of this hell that I'm in, but I'm still here.

The once in 800 year confluence of stars makes me think of the opening scene of day of the triffids but the stars will still be there after the confluence is gone and wherever we are we can always watch them together if we stop pending life and start living it.  But where was I...

The auto-reply to the email I sent said 1/4/21 before the examiner would return from leave.  What does that mean in terms of a decision, I wonder?

I thought of something, but what is it?  It seemed relatively important, something to do with the idea that things were not quite finished being thought out.

It was crying when I arrived home, so I am sitting with that crazy cat, it cuddles then bites hard enough to hurt the bones under the skin leaving a pattern of the canines.  It is crazy and half tame; it needs attention and someone to hold it even though it cannot abide what it needs.

I've got this thing I've been trying.  since I can only do a few pullups with my body weight at a time, I've started stopping by a pull up bar as much as I can through the day.  Does this help anything?  I don't know; but if I can start doing 10 at a time over a period of time then it would be something.

It's not enough, wasn't as hard as a 40 minute yoga workout.  I don't have the energy tonight to do a 40 minute yoga workout and I'm a little afraid to do it with the cat.

I looked at these articles, the first is significant, what I'd call a different and expected different net gravity and supportive, I'm not sure what I'm looking for in the second.

https://newatlas.com/physics/modified-gravity-evidence-dark-matter/

https://scitechdaily.com/meshing-optics-with-electronics-physics-discovery-leads-to-ballistic-optical-materials/

day 378, 0 and still no word...A grifter in the whitehouse-russian interference

Still no word, how odd.  Today being the last day, I am troubled by what that means.

I may post twice today, it being so early and thinking I am finished with this or perhaps I will just edit it later.  It is a quiet sunday morning and I wish i was drinking coffee with you.

I cannot say that I am not nervous about things.  I should have low expectations, I know the odds despite all of the support that I have gotten recently and I have many options now that I did not have 30 days ago and the science has advanced so much in the last 6 months, it is something entirely different than it was when I started, but this is important, if not critical to the future of things.

There are ways to dig deeper, but to what purpose?  Tomorrow will be soon enough for those things.

At least I hope tomorrow will be soon enough.

Here's a joke to make your life easier, "What did the fish say when it ran into a brick wall?"

Don't think that I haven't noticed, not a good luck, you're right no matter what, or even a you will make it through this.  Good luck to you, you are right no matter what and you'll make it through this, at least till you don't because we don't make it through everything.

"Dam."  That's what the fish said.

It is early.   The day has dawned, or pre-dawned, grey and not as cold.

Tomorrow is the winter solstice.

I should be too nervous to notice such things, but the coffee today tastes delicious.

The rec center is closed today, so there's that excuse not to worry about swimming.

Here's a bit from a year ago.  Funny how applicable it is today, but nothing about the virus that ended up shaping what we're doing.

I could add this:

Here's the 3-d chess trump's playing. 1) he creates chaos with the virus by encouraging its spread, everyone is so distracted by the chaos he can do whatever he wants. The russian hacking and misdirection just aids things.

2) he steals 600 million from the RNC campaign funds and 200 million from his followers with his own political campaign, 3) he tries to use his fanatical followers to seize power including the two dumbest politicians in congress, both from Alabama, I'm embarrassed to say. More chaos. If he loses, he knows that people will be so relieved to get rid of him that he can do whatever he wants. The fanatics ignore the clear reality because there is no way for them to otherwise admit how gaslighted they were; ensuring he has enough support to limit his exposure. The only loss is the dead people, the cratered economy and businesses and the owners of them and he doesn't care about them.

I'm not sure what I was planning here, almost certainly writing; but like the short story I am working on, I'm not sure where I want to go with this.  My mind is on the deadline that is today and the lack of news and the uncertainty of an already uncertain future.

Puty, the Russian dictator/Primier walked through the rain with his security detail.
It was a gloomy setting but he was smiling.  He arrived at the Brazilian port and was waved by another security detail who knew he was coming onto an ocean going yacht that was large enough to be a small cruise ship, but with sleek lines.  There was a helipad with a full sized Anset tied down.
 Oleg Deripaska Oleg Deripaskadown.  Putin ignored the distractions and was waved into a room where a heavy set elderly man reclined with two girls, neither of whom could have seen their 20th birthday.  
Putin!  How happy I am to see you.  Can I get you a drink?  A hooker?
A drink for now Oleg.  You are well?
I hope I am, Oleg said.  He told one of the girls to get a vodka and ice which was served in a fine crystal glass with OD stenciled into the glass.
How is our little dog?
He is under control.  The sanctions will be lifted.
You are sure?  Oleg leaned forward.  
I am sure.
But congress.  
Congress must not object, that is true.  But they are all cowed by this man to whom they have sold their souls.
We have the president as a russian asset!  It is unbelievable.
The coo of a lifetime, Putin said, but he was not happy.
What is wrong my old friend.  It is an accomplishment that no one would have believed possible.  The Manchurian...no the Kremlin Candidate.
Ahh, if only we were still the soviet union.  I could take all of Europe, perhaps China also.
And why can you not?
Because we are weak.   We have the army, but do our people have the resolve to carry it out?  
But surely it is worth a try.
Not yet, we must weaken NATO to the point they cannot offer resistance enough to turn the stomachs of our infantry who will be killing people indiscriminately, but not without taking their own losses.
And can you do this?
Already our puppet is trying, although we must further weaken his opponents in Congress.
The democrats?
Them, but also those who have a shred of patriotism, although they are all so desperately attached to the government teat that they will do anything to get reelected.  That is the problem.
To get them re-elected?
No, to get our idiot in office reelected.  4 more years and we will have weakened the United States and its alliances to the point where we can do anything we want.
Can we do that?
Yes.
You seem so certain.
I do, because he has seen to it that the government has ignored what we did before.  The republican party has turned a blind eye to this because they know we will get them elected...if...
If what.
If they do what the grifter asks.
And why does he do this?  Because you promise him money?
Ha!  That is a small thing.  I have only offered him the most vague of promises, like the hotel that he believes we will pay for.
The one in moscow. Did you offer...
Why build it?  Do you want to launder money in Russia?  At that they both laugh.
Then why, Oleg says throwing a hand over one of the young girls and squishing her breast, making her gasp.
Because he is immaturely drawn to my power.  He is so transparent and so stupid and so vain, he would do whatever I ask even without the vague promises.  It is almost too easy.  He hides our conversations from his own government.
It is hard to believe.
There was no one with him when we met.  Not even a translator except for the one I brought.
Incredible.  You cannot be serious.
It is true.
It worries me.
Why Oleg.  Why does that worry you.
If he is truely that stupid, he may harm us by accident.

Too fast too fat

Now the weekend which seemed to start a day early is going too fast, even though it is just 5 am on Saturday.

I found a bad sentence is my first draft, after I sent it for review and was otherwise not thrilled with some of the language; but what can you do in 500 words?

I wanted to not workout today so I took a look at this, which was depressing and I went for a short bike ride and did even less lifting:

https://www.health.harvard.edu/staying-healthy/5-of-the-best-exercises-you-can-ever-do

30 minutes aerobic a day and two days of strength training a week to be considered active?  What a depressing article.

less depressing https://www.byrdie.com/how-much-exercise-should-you-do

It's the evening btw.  I was hoping for some news today, but no news is good news as they say so I am still anxious although I have a very negative outlook despite all the reasons to have a positive one.

I don't particularly like swimming being moderate, although I can agree my moderate warm up is certainly moderate, but the im gets my heart rate as high as it goes and one day it will certainly burst; more likely in a real pool, I think.

Still no news, its getting later and later.

I was anxious early,  it is overlaid with something else, but I don't know what it is.

day 376 of the apocalypse losing count in count downs 2 7 14 importance of atomic structure from 2019 before we knew

It is hard to work sometimes, the desire to call is so great.

I'm sitting with that cat that attacked me earlier.

He at least seems content, to go with your contempt, i suppose.  There is nothing wrong with that.

And in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12R4FzIhdoQ

That's an old one.

The cat has moved in and out of my lap, he's out now.

I started a new book today, but I'm not sure if I will pick it up again or not.  It came to me on my bike ride and it worked on the bike ride but as I started writing, I had a hard time keeping it up.  The excitement isn't there; there is nothing to live for.  There is no future, only a past.

So today.  It's very cold outside.  But earlier it was only cool, and very pleasant in the sun.  Sitting still.  I couldn't sit still.

I rode my bike and did the bodyweight weight workout; neither at a challenging pace, but it was hard to do and after a shower I feel exhausted.  The only thing that I want I cannot even think about having.

I'm trying to watch lalaland, but 5 minutes of it at a time is all of it that I can stand, it makes no sense to me.  It won a bunch of awards, I think.  Not saying its terrible, only saying I don't get it.  I see where it tries to capture something, perhaps there is too much art in it for me.  Do you care?  Would it be better if I wrote nothing.  Aren't we always waiting to be found, or then maybe you're already found, ahead of me, waiting to be lost again.

It would be better if I did not write these things.  Not the books these public diary entries which are an excuse to reach out to you.

The chaotic nature of things bothers me and it does not seem to want to get better.  It just seems to be building and getting worse; but I have to plug along and I am plugging along.

Still no word on the grant, 2 days left.  I figured today, being the last working day, would be significant; but nothing.  Perhaps Monday i will get some letter of condolence; now that it is too late to apply for the 12/3/20 consort which is not open while another application is pending.

The advances under the auspices of the grant are essentially the theoretical part of phase 1 anyone, far exceeding the targets which I had set; although in their own way proving the legitimacy of the model in ways unexpected; but exceeding expectations.  And the network continues to grow as do the applications, the first draft of the 1/4/20 application was sent off and while there are a couple of those left to prepare and/or finish, a good start to the next round of the project.

This appears somewhere in all of that.

This shows the difference between empirical and the opposite, listed as theoretical; but AuT is something different, verified modeling, a place between empirical and theoretical; empirical mathematics might be a better term.

Phys.org: Research using atom probe tomography reveals chinks in iron crystals that can 'heal'. https://phys.org/news/2019-02-atom-probe-tomography-reveals-chinks.html

And hydrogen products

https://phys.org/news/2020-12-breakthrough-energy-technology.html

This is interesting to me, this is part of my future.

Where is that notice, for better or worse.  I cannot make myself believe it is going to be worse, but why not?  All genius must be struck down, just as an incredible pain was necessary to bring it out.  Now there is pain for no reason.

I have a hard time finding villains for my new story.  Perhaps if I look inside of me, I will find the villain.

Is this better or worse?  It won't make a difference, but I need to know.

A collection of articles

I felt so weak lately that I felt I had to keep exercising and somehow despite exhaustion, worry and too much to do managed to do 2100 yards, including 1000 im, nothing to write home about. I was relaxed for a moment and just wanted to relax.  Unfortunately, it was still sunny, if not warm when I got home so I walked the dog and listened to news to get it done before the dark and cold closed in.

I feel even more tired that I was, but I did the exercise and I walked the dog and I thought of all the things I would say and do to you if I could.

JH: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L6vwrxDc3TA

There is so much that I have to do and so much that I am waiting for.

It is, if I am right, down to 3 days for the first next thing, then perhaps as much as 17 days to the next and in between a deadline which I have to take care of this week.

Thankfully, I was able to get out one thing which has been more of an annoyance than an actual problem today.  I also have a first and second draft of the documentation due in 17 days as well as a draft of one due a few days later.

There is still a weeks worth of work to do between today, Thursday, and Monday.  It seems like Friday to me, but there is a hearing tomorrow which will take up a lot of my time; but one that I am very interested in and which I hope will prove to be important.

By Monday things will have changed, greatly for the better or greatly for the worse.  At this point, I have done enough that I believe it should be for the better; but so far I have not seen any movement and I interpret that negatively even though the absence is not indicative of any specific result.

It is one way the government continues to confound me; but it does so on another scale entirely, something that only a change in administration will likely solve and even then it will require...more time, more resources and results which are considered likely; but still uncertain, especially considering how much information will be, and is being, destroyed.

Are we being destroyed, I wonder.  Are we already destroyed?

I suppose the answer to that should be one way or the other; but I cannot say that tonight.  The endorphin high as worn off, there are daunting challenges which include questions of what to do, not just doing something, but doing what first and what last and what not at all.  

Come sunday, but not too fast, I have much to do and much to think about.

Forbes: The Crisis In Theoretical Particle Physics Is Not A Moral Imperative. https://www.forbes.com/sites/chadorzel/2019/07/15/the-crisis-in-theoretical-particle-physics-is-not-a-moral-imperative/

Ars Technica: Alternative theory of gravity makes a nearly testable prediction. https://arstechnica.com/science/2019/07/alternative-theory-of-gravity-makes-a-nearly-testable-prediction/

TweakTown: China #1 in quantum entanglement, teleports object 300 miles. https://www.tweaktown.com/news/66601/china-1-quantum-entanglement-teleports-object-300-miles/index.html

ScienceAlert: If You Thought Quantum Mechanics Was Weird, You Need to Check Out Entangled Time. https://www.sciencealert.com/if-you-thought-quantum-mechanics-was-weird-wait-til-you-check-out-entangled-time

Hologram Theory374 4 9 16

I'm tired.  I was up at 4am and it is now dark, if not late.  I am watching the snow fall in new york.

Today I rode my bike back to work, on the way back there was a strong north wind, bringing winter to town and tonight I went for a hilly walk with the dog afterwards and it has left me in the mood for quiet.

I'm going to put on noise cancelling headphones, but I don't think I will work,  I figured out how to do the impossible earlier today and if it proves to be possible after all I will have done enough.  Using the information I threw together most of the NASA grant which I could probably file over the weekend, but I have much to think about and do and that is something for January I think.  There is enough to wait for this week.

I am disappointed that I could not say more to you, but would you really want me to say that I want to see if things come through so we can too?  I figured not.  It is something that is worth considering only if you're ready to go down that dark path.  As attractive as it looks, you have said no and I agree.

It is nice to see the snow again, it has been a long time.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nYOXq5uKqXM

How much I miss the snow, the peaceful nights, and you.

Nonsense, but not as nonsensical as a lot of other stuff.

https://youtu.be/klpDHn8viX8

http://3tags.org/article/why-does-time-advance-new-theory-links-flow-of-time-with-big-bang

373 10 17 solving charge

I worked as much as I could but at 230 I could not go on so I went and swam.  It is cold now and the cold from the pool has gone all the way to my bones, although I did swim 2100 yards including a full set of ims, despite feeling at times like my heart would burst.

How much I'd like to share in the successes and failures of late.

I am watching videos of snow falling to instrumental, seasonal music and my mind wanders to you because there is no other way to penetrate the cold that goes all the way to my soul.  The hot tub helps, but there are things it cannot fix.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a2yAxEXvZoo

The music and the scenes are beautiful and every part of me reaches out for you and I feel a loneliness that only a star between galaxies could experience.

I have solved the charge dilemma now, but a long time ago I wrote this post thinking about it.

 

1) follow elipse to where it is along with its slight imperfection, then take a more trapped point or string over time on the earth and follow it to that later point and then connect them.  you can do a million orbits around the sun and calculate where it will be and get a feelforwhere it will be bylooking at a 100.
 

I now longer know what that meant or referred to.

i can tell you now how to see into the future, to see everyone, even you die, or we can live for the minute-maybe with spy and her even in cahoots with spy.
5) add a powered socket outside to plug pump into

372 11 18 change and movement

I finally got the recommendation I have been waiting for.  It is nice to have it; it will be interesting to see what happens next.

I have been engaged in calls and will continue to do so for the rest of this week, a surprisingly busy week.

I still have to finish the write ups and there are essentially two weeks with a holiday in the middle.  I have been taking steps in that regard.

It is Monday, I did not exercise today, except to walk the dog and do a few yoga moves, nothing that could be called a workout.

My mind was not on my efforts and in truth I had a fair run of good workouts and it was very cold.  Walking the dog was more of a pleasure than a chore given how tough the days have been.

I thought of several responses and none of them added anything so I failed to come up with anything different.   Am I finished with that?  I'm not sure.  The problem is that I cannot offer the defense I want, because it is unfair.  I won't say it isn't right, to some extent it is right, but its not really a defense, its not an explanation; its a question of the future.

It has not been an easy year for anyone.  I'm not sure what next week holds, much less next year.

So things are happening and now I need to see what is going to happen.  I won't apologize for my needs as long as I'm working hard towards a better future.  I am not saying its right, it is what I need to do.

So I am going to take a deep breath and go on this week, working as hard as I can to do what I need to do and I will see if there is some answer I can give.

371 1 12 19 confirmation-collecting supporting articles in one place*

I'm not sure what the old numbers mean anymore, so I've changed them.  Does it matter two what?

I get to take some time to respond. Not because its fair, but because I want to and I have to think about it and while we are both working ourselves to death right now, we are doing it in parallel; but not necessarily for different reasons.

I am not sure why you'd think I doubt your love, any more than you'd expect me to doubt mine; something which I do, but for reasons unrelated to how deeply I feel, but because there is so much passion, even after this time, perhaps because of this time, that it is impossible to tell where the love begins and the passion ends.

But I am not responding, I will take a moment to do that.

I kept thinking to myself that I don't have to exercise today, but next week will be different, there won't be as much time.  It's late now, so that mental dilemma has been dealt with.  There were some reasons not to exercise, but the week is busy, I have dozens of calls on top of complicated technical documentation that while well underway needs to be finished.  

And, of course, next week contains the 20th, so to speak.  Or is the 20th the week after next, I've never been totally comfortable with that, but I suppose it is what it is.

So enough thinking and I did the bike ride with the body weight exercises which is a good compromise of sufficient time and more rather than less muscles exercised.  I also managed to finish it before the sun came out which given the rising temperatures was a good thing.

And it took much of the edge off, nothing takes the entire edge off.

I received a year in review email which was comically blank, but it reminded me of you, as do all the messages from voj; not that any of that matters; because I would think of you anyway, as I do listening to love songs when I ride the bike; that includes its own form of suffering.

Here's an old post that may have some relevance today.  I need to get a lot of this supporting stuff out of my blog and into somewhere else.  I think the last post or two covered this.

https://phys.org/news/2019-01-black-hole-galaxy-rapidly.html

ScienceAlert: New Paper: A 'Mirror Image' of Our Universe Existed Before The Big Bang. https://www.sciencealert.com/a-mirror-image-of-our-universe-before-the-big-bang-could-explain-dark-matter 

 The universe is out of balance and nobody knows why. https://googlecom/newsstand/s/CBIwrorX2Do

https://www.forbes.com/sites/startswithabang/2018/10/26/is-anti-gravity-real-science-is-about-to-find-out/#6e018d4649a7

https://www.space.com/43166-dark-energy-increasing-time-quasars.html

http://3tags.org/article/atomic-beltway-could-solve-problems-of-cosmic-gravity

https://www.wired.com/story/quantum-physics-protect-grid/

ScienceAlert: Astronomers Have Detected 83 Black Holes in The Early Universe, Challenging Cosmology. https://www.sciencealert.com/there-shouldn-t-be-supermassive-black-holes-in-the-early-universe-astronomers-have-just-found-83

https://www.sciencealert.com/this-old-clump-of-stars-is-a-fossil-from-the-early-universe-right-here-in-our-galaxy

https://physics.aps.org/synopsis-for/10.1103/PhysRevLett.122.113602?utm_campaign=weekly&utm_medium=email&utm_source=emailalert

https://physics.aps.org/articles/v12/31?utm_campaign=weekly&utm_medium=email&utm_source=emailalert

370 8 14 21 more behind

I figured out another way to approach the atom today which provides features which provide another level of stability to the atom while incorporating the features of black holes in a new way.  Moreover, it provides a clean distinction between time and pre-time features.

It came to me while I was just beginning a fairly intense 2400 yard swim,  complete with 1200 IM, 2x400,1x300.  It's what I thought about during the swim and worked a few of the details out.

I'm not sure how right it is, but it has a certain elegance that reminds me of you.

My day was not all positive, I was attacked by a feral cat that I have to live with for several weeks. Blood is trickling from multiple minor wounds and we are sitting close to one another, not necessarily at peace, 

I've been attacked by a dog and a cat in the last 7 days.  I wonder...

I am wary for obvious reasons, the cat's fur is sticking up along his back; although he has begun to shut his eyes; they are not as dilated.

He's even rubbed against me now in a feral sort of way.  the question of the day, perhaps is if you would take me if you had to take the cat too

More behind...

Yes, that could easily be what I need from you.  But that has nothing to do with the post in this case.

The more behind has to do with science behind aut and this old post, never posted, on the idea of correlation between math and subatomic particles which is the Princeton version of AuT.  It's a little behind AuT, 7 years, but primarily because they are attempting to deal with existing physics instead of abandoning it.

https://phys.org/news/2018-12-gravity-mathematically-dynamics-subatomic-particles.html

https://phys.org/news/2011-01-which-way-detector-mystery-double-slit.html

https://www.wsj.com/articles/could-einstein-get-published-today-11600974323

https://asiatimes.com/2020/09/nasa-lands-on-a-middle-path-to-nuclear-fusion/

All of these posts see little pieces of aut, the various blind men and the elephant.

I'm not going to say more than I feel the pain the ascribe to Einstein.  I was forced to pursue a very narrow path to publication to put a stake in the ground, but it was worth it, because it documents things in a way that is pleasing to me.

It is Saturday night and I miss you; I wonder what is going through your mind right now, who you are with, whether in some part of your mind you feel the same.

I suspect not.

There is a tenuous peace in some parts of the world tonight, all I feel is the tension.

369 9 15 22: Mein Kampf: Electrons and photons and "real" sub-atomic particles

I have had trouble controlling my thoughts.

Today I had a bike ride in the sun of the day.

It was not so hard, but it was hard for me, and I did outside weights, using my sun soaked, hardened but badly aged body.

But my sun is gone, you have no idea how I suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune.

How much I suffer the absence of you, my sun.

So much is happening, it is impossible to set it all out, to attempt to do so would be impossible.

If only I could speak to you, if only I could hear your voice or even your thoughts.

Well Mein Kampf is probably taking it a little too far, but here is where the close minded mainstream science press is where they only support their own:

https://www.popularmechanics.com/space/deep-space/a34934990/new-universe-theory-fragments-energy/

When I say we’re 7 years ahead of everyone else, it sounds pompous, but when you see article like this: https://www.popularmechanics.com/space/deep-space/a34934990/new-universe-theory-fragments-energy/ you see where the published state of the art is, basically where AuT was in 2012 or 13. They have the right idea, but not the actual math model.  It’s a little frustrating because we have peer review articles from late 2018 that cover these issues.

 

This “theory” was actually extensively modeled beginning in 2012.  Published peer review articles, as early as 2018)  can be found here:

The old version of the science is set out  in an audio book (7 hours) from 2019:

 https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07PT9M459.  Other print version books can be found on Amazon dating back to 2012.

 

 The most recent articles from 2019 can be viewed here https://nessapublishers.com/view-article.php?id=344/Space-as-the-building-block-of-dimension-An-applied-overview

or
https://www.opastonline.com/current-issue-atcp

or

https://innovationinfo.org/Scholar-Journal-of-Applied-Sciences-and-Research/article/Space-as-the-Building-Block-of-Dimension-An-Applied-Overview#pdfNew 

Fractal Geometry Leading to The Periodic Table; Application of

Algorithm Dimensional Model to Large Scale Phenomena

Gregory M. Friedlander

 https://www.redelve.com/backend/images/article/1556351864.pdf 

.The only slight of out of date original article: s can be found here:

1.    https://www.omicsonline.org/open-access/algorithm-model-defining-dimensional-features-2090-0902-1000290-105480.html 

The difference between the theory you published and the actual model is that a model is a mathematical interpretation, whereas a theory is just a concept.

There is more nonsense like this, more that is old and proof only of how far advanced AuT is over other models.

Vox.com: Why physicists really, really want to find a new subatomic particle. http://google.com/newsstand/s/CBIwxc6ckS4

Forbes: Ask Ethan: What Is An Electron?. https://www.forbes.com/sites/startswithabang/2019/04/06/ask-ethan-what-is-an-electron/

And complete nonsense:

http://3tags.org/article/latest-lhc-experiment-marks-significant-milestone-in-search-for-magnetic-monopoles

Except for the fact that now that I think about it, I have actually found such a conceptual piece of the puzzle.  How very odd that what was once nonsense is now something, after a fashion.

367 11 17 24 Anxiety

This sends my anxiety level through the roof, https://www.fox8live.com/2020/12/09/recent-crime-victim-has-warning-others-new-orleans/

Just finished a hard climb uphill.  Not really exercise, but it will have to do today and it was nice to get out in the sun for a while.  It has been an exhausting week, but I think I'm finished with most of it.

Sat down to watch a video of Venice underwater which has some cute parts, although the underlying theme is waterworld.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOul64CS5ew&t=184s

The original theme for the day was getting off early and going for a bike ride; but event did not cooperate and the walk may be most if not all of what I do.  I do have a weight concept in mind.  You burn some calories just thinking about it.  I also did the pool boy routine for a while and hurried to get the last of the hurricane debris out where it could be hauled away which was happening today.

 The Daily Galaxy --Great Discoveries Channel: “The Big Bang Didn’t Happen Just Once” –Four Unsolved Mysteries of the Universe.

https://dailygalaxy.com/2020/12/the-big-bang-didnt-happen-just-once-four-big-unsolved-mysteries-of-the-universe-weekend-feature/

Absurdly old news, but a list of things that are solved.  It is so disappointing.  I am making a great deal of progress and there are more opportunities than I can pursue.

No word on the FOIA, I need to call next week.

This week has been exhausting, but I think I dealt with the initial deadlines in large part; although there is much to read over.  That will happen the next two days and over the weekend.

There are two days left for the letter, 11 for the response.  Too much is riding on that, it should not be that way, but that is how I spent my time and my calendar is largely cleared off.

Exercise yesterday after the hard workout from yesterday was 40 minutes of Yoga, hard for me but only an intermediate work with intermediate effort, but it was very hard for me, but I feel better for having done it.

I am looking at what to do next, there are months of work ahead without pay on my project if the first efforts don't work out.  What a ridiculous gamble, but I don't see any way I could have gotten to where I am without the effort and the hard work leading up to it made this possible, if unwise.

I had hoped that long before now I would have had results from the foia that would have let that happen, now 160 days out it looks like nothing will happen there before the election.  It is a grim thing; even with all that is going right.

Enough of grim, here is something for a happy tonight:  Happy chanukah!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gbxyZAduGvY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5YNNkR1hJI