14 days and counting the french story

I just finished my swim, 1600 yrds, 1000 im; not one of my better efforts.  It was so incredibly nice, it has been storming, hot and muggy and the stress of developing this new technology; then to hit the cold water and have nothing but time and movement was a blessing.

And then there is you.  This is how it goes in my mind.  You ask me if I want to talk, I say no, I want to see you, you ask why, I say something like I need to make sure you are not everything to me as I imagine you to be; you ask when I say today, tomorrow, next week, any time.  You say yes.

Or maybe you just say I love you and nothing else.

But it doesn't happen.  Nothing happens.

I am working, it is hard to do this much alone, without success.   I have gotten some great feedback, but nothing has moved forward and it may never happen.  And of course...

It's two weeks, now.  What does this mean?  Maybe nothing, maybe August 3 will come and go with nothing and I'll have to move forward with only my side of things.  That can happen.  Or maybe the whole thing will fall apart then or maybe it will come together.  Who knows?

I want to say that you are too this or too that, that you are another problem that I don't need in my life.  But the truth is something different.

"You're not a wrecking ball you're my soul mate."  So the TV show says.

I don't want to talk to you, i want to hold you and never let go until death separates me from this horrible desire.

On 12/20/13 I tas thinking about a book, something to go with those writing tips, I suppose.  And it seems like in that last post from 2013 there was some poetry, mine or someone elses?

Anyway-this is the post from 12/20/13:  Robbery-have to wait for a natural disaster to rob the casino to get everyone off of the boat.  Events come up.  afraid of doing it, but in love with a waitress.  Someone is broke and needs cast to get out.
Crazy/hyper-wade/billy type who is catlyst to keep everyone moving.
Bad guy is the casino operator-and enforcement guy-skimmed money.  Who found out about it?  Can't report income.