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Summer heat is here, lows at night in the high 70s, the 80s probably coming.  Swimming is high on the list of exercising although yesterday was an example of basicallly risking electrocution.  That will continue this week; but it is early to start worrying that i will have to go back to the gym.The Hill: HHS report warns of extreme heat risks in coming months.

https://thehill.com/changing-america/sustainability/climate-change/3517379-hhs-report-warns-of-extreme-heat-risks-in-coming-months/

The news is not great, inflation, war (related), treason, things largely eclipsing global warming with more immediate disasters.  I am curious to see what happens next.  There was an interesting story that caught my attention and made me wonder how crazy i was.https://bigthink.com/starts-with-a-bang/another-einstein-or-newton/

If i was like you, i would likely no longer look for calls, emails or faxes.  I suppose the science i have is the indication that i chew on problems long afer it makes sense or maters.  If i was normal like you then i would be looking past the present morass instead of feeling responsible for it.

 I wish i could show you the nature of the trap, the pain that you do not get to experience, so exquisitely terrible and what i wanted to share with you so badly i was willing to sacrifice everything for that.

An animal that chews its own foot off to escape, i can understand that and understand the slow death that follows as that act of bravely slowly seeps out of the severed arteries.

How I love, both a statement and a question, flashes of the past, the weight of the present and watching hope slowly bleeed out of the future.

I  am done with what i have to do for the day although there are a couple of grants to work on if i decide its worth it.  I would be unlikely to get either, but both are exercises in what can be done.

I did the two bike ride/gym weight work out which i finished by 9 which was still hot; but was cool on the parts down hill in the shade and the weight part was in air conditioning and it makes me think about you; so it was nice enough, it was 62im for the day and i dont feel like i need to do more.

I have been thinking about nm, and talking and i have done a lot towards the concept of marketing the book and the model.   while i cannot afford to do that right now, it is a now or never type of thing.  the failure to sell property or get a grant, dare i say yet, weighs heavily on me.

I have showered and dressed for the second time today and i am alone in a quiet house and while i need to look at the work and probably do this one more grant, i am in no hurry. it is 10am