6.2.22

 Last night after the fair swim (nothing great since the cardiovascular near death swims at 6000 feet which irritates me to think about as I write here) there was significant lightening and thunder so it was good that i swam when i did (weather was beautiful with whispy clouds that made the backstroke more interesting); but the evening would have discouraged non-suicidal swimming.

I had a terrible nights sleep.  I attribute it to many factors, the least the desire to get up and write to you, but nevertheless after a fairly long morning it is still dark outside although the air is full of bird sounds.

The news was disturbing, the fall of a devastated city in Ukraine, Incompetence stacked on top of a legislative session which deals with everything but the problem after children were killed in texas, and i am surprisingly disturbed by the depp heard result although i know nothing of the facts except portions of the closing argument and even understand the result.  Why did these things bother me so much, obviously wathcing world war iii unfold is disturbing, that makes sense, in another world perhaps texas would be our children andin a way, while i dont see the whole military weapons thing; i do believe that our government is bad enoughthat we must be armed lest it overstep its boundaries and as i mentioned i know almost nothing, understand and have no stake in the heard thing.  Still, you wanted to know what bothered me so much and i could say i continually woke up thinking about you also and that would not be a lie although it did not seem to be what eventually got me up for good. I was up at least 10 times last night, i am not tired.

The drone war, we get closer to a situation where the people lose their place of preeminece of the battlefield.  An expensive war of technology, the world war c which comes next and which kept me awake before missing what i cared most about, a selfish sleeplessness replacing one motivated by things i dont understand. A war which you can watch in real time on television, one where papers sit in bins unread and unwanted; i was born in the wrong time.

It is early, but I have things to do.

Work.  I am so close to being finished with the edits of the NPTE that I could likely publish it this week.  Not so much with the battery application and I have not even started refining the open topic fiberglass although on both i am waiting for feedback from others and i have to do more design work.  To some extent the book thing boils down to consolidating drawings, there are too many loose ends despite the improving models.

It is getting lighter outside