133 days-Giving up things; exploration in the hologram

How many of us can withstand what we need from what we know is right
Are we all condemned to listen to sad songs played in our minds
music that we mistake for thought playing regrets for the rest of our lives
I think of the hearts that are shared with others and I think of those force to live alone
those that have found a comfortable home and those who ride the storms on stormy nights
what would someone do if they were given my broken heart, what would they make of it
kept alive artificially without you on some ventialtor, alone, wild and windswept
Our restless hearts, while longing for one another, can only find peace in each others wildness
we were not made to love the homebody heart, but long for the lonely adventures we share
We are searchers not because we do not love each other deeply, but because we were born to search
in this hologram universe, we are projected onto the stage, forced to watch those who live in a peace
which we might never find for each other, our lives a constant war to find me to find you
we can never give up on the dream, lover, though the storm take us farther apart
because we were born to strive for one another, the great romance being the burning desire to be
together, to be one, to find the peace that so many take for granted
which for those of us who are warriors, who must act out our revolutionary lines
that will most certainly take us to other sides of a great battle
but still we will love one another because it is something that we both understand
we come from a single place, we are two sides of a single coin
more than any other, when I am with you I know I am whole
and i can only give half of my heart and have of my lines to this great Greek comedy
unless i am with the other half of me, unless I am with you
rest well my love, myself, because for a time at least your other half is out there
fighting our storms, battling our angry seas, but only for the hope of a moment again together

Piles of books

We both end up with piles of books beside our beds. Perhaps they are because we don't want to be alone. Our books allow us to share our beds with all those characters their histories and adventures and it isn't sad or lonely because sometimes we share those beds and stories with each other only not often enough.

quantum tunneling 2-time loss equals gravity

In the prior conversation of the hologram universe, we discussed that since the universe is nothing but a projection on time, quantum tunneling is explained because there is no real distance and hence moving through barriers is only a manifestation.  There is no barrier probability (a probability that something which is a mere tendency to return to the singularity can pass through and other tendency is not difficult because tendency to be anywhere in the hologram is just a tendency after all.
The measure of the degree of tendency is the gravity of the tendency which is reflected by the fact that sufficient gravity results in a return to the singularity no matter where it is in the universe which shows that distance and therefore space is an illusion since particles across the universe from one another can fall into black holes light years apart towards the same singularity.
when we stop, we are traveling away from time. How is this expected from a singlularity projected. We may be giving time as opposed the opposite. This is fundamental mystery of quantum mechanics-particles when we look vs particles when we don't look.

Likewise particles don't have to go back through time, because they exist without time in G-Space. Prior states are affected by what we do afterwards, but without a necessary cause and effect because everything has happened at once.

As mentioned there is just time, Space time is a mere illusion which is shown because at speed of light space and time merge.  Hence space and time are interchangeable, primarily because space is a mere projection onto time.  However, the interchangeability should be explored further to determine if space and time are interchangeable as matter and energy.  That is, can time be created from space.
General relativity includes what holds everything together, Gravity which is merely the tendency to return to G-space from O-space (where we live) or the tendency to lose time.  If time is lost, then matter returns to the singularity (irregardless of where it appears in the illusion of space) and time can be lost by an accumulation of gravity through the accumulation of matter.

The uncertainty principle. everything as sub-atomic particles-quantum physisists can't show where something is located.  This can be explained in hologram theory because matter is all in the same place (G-Space, a singularity) until it is projected onto time. Nature won't allow particles to be boxed in according to quantum physics because they are all in the same place before projection.
The idea that you can borrow energy from future time then pay it back ignores the fact that time is the only medium for mass, space or energy to be projection. 
Matter does  not going thorugh a wall, but is instead in a singularity where time and space do not exist and it may therefore be projected at any point along time, just as black holes can, from any point, drop back to a single singularity. 
 

the sleep I finally had

I have had the sleep of damned
the sleep of old and bitter men
the sleep of those who sleep outside
without protection from the rain
the sleep of those who made their own problems
and who have no way to solve them
the sleep of those who have given up hope
but have no choice but to go on
the sleep of those who have lost love
the sleep of those who have lost friends
the sleep that has not come for a long time
but the sleep that is unsatisfying
because when its broken the same problems are still there
the sleep, however, that is given to almost everyone
the sleep that is broken and disturbed
the sleep that is unsatisfying
but which for at least a short motion
is the sleep that sets me free from the harsh universe
for just a few minutes of peace
until that sleep that comes forever

local manufacturing/pollution/survival of humans

We are getting closer to the release of the second editions of "China's Weaponized Economy" and "World War C" (previously Trust-How we lost the war with China.
As we approach this, a little diversion to the associated issue of increasing local manufacturing is in order.
Increased specialization can mean that critical industries are isolated.  In some cases critical products are made in a single location.  More than defeat to the warlike tendencies of the Chinese economy are at stake in this discussion.
Primitive man had to survive many disasters, in these cases they were all naturally occuring events.  A recent minature ice age may have brought on the French Revolution and this is a minor matter.
Previous disasters include the actual ice age which may have accelerated natural selection by a large factor and given rise to a sufficiently intelligent species to bring us to where we are today.  In a modern ice age, the lack of dispersed manufacturing would undoubtedly mean a breakdown in civilization, especially as that would be exacerbated by the scramble for the available land and resources without a shortfall of weapons and people.
This also goes to the short term versus long term intelligence issues of reigning in the random population growth we experience.  Those who take the approach that no one should feed pets better than the worst fed human, ignores the fact that population should be tied to both local food production and local manufacturing.  It should not be tied to the ability to provide food regardless of the global consequences.  That only makes sense if we want a world where people stand shoulder to shoulder broken only by sufficient land to make sure everyone gets enough to eat.  That type of world would not be worth saving.  Unfortunately, that is the only world we strive to as a race.  This is one of the many areas where China is far in front of other countries in planning for the future.
Local production and local food production, at least on some level, allows for people to focus more on these issues.  It doesn't mean that critical industries cannot or should be be localized.  You cannot have people build airplanes in every country or in every state, but some level of production and certainly food production tied to the population should be localized to the extent possible to ensure that critical skills are dispersed.

Valentine's day eve

How much I miss her
how far away she seems
Tonight of all nights
She should be beside me
Snoring lightly as she does
Embodiment of tranquility
exuding love and sexuality
she is everything for any man
Or for any woman if she felt that
if only she could know how I feel
My longing, friendship and love
That she must doubt at times
Its bottomless depths
The sweet pain it carries
Tonight I miss and love her
And wish her the happiness
The peace I  cannot have
Without her here with me

when you write me-your valentine to me (draft)

what does it mean when you write me
when you are confused, you say that you don't understand why we don't have more time together
when you are worried, you say that you care about me and realize all things are fleeting
when you write angry, you love me so much you can't stand it
when you are quiet, you love me too much to express it
when you are happy you relish how we help each other
when you are sad, you wish we had more time together
when you say you love me, you say how we both feel

Valentines Day and Backwards Time

Backwards time presumes that everything has already happened.
In that event time can move from any point outward or inward
everyone you've ever been with you will be with forever
every mistake you have made in love and every triumph
exists in this one place where everything exists at once
this means that you may not have any choice
or it means that your failure to choose true love
at every turn, no matter what happens
means that you already failed to pursue your dreams
if time moves backwards you go from your last day
through each of these mistakes all the way back
and this means that every minute of everyday
you owe it to your predetermined self
to sacrifice everything for what you know to be right
and all of the horrible mistakes, that you haven't made yet
but that you will mistake one day
the ones where you knew what was right
and the ones where you did not know
but where the wrong choice was made
are not examples of where you tried and failed
but where you failed to try and succeeded
as Thursday comes to me, the day of proving love
what are we if we let this day come and go
leaving love waiting in the past

backwards time, quantum tunneling and the uncertainty principle in the hologram universe

when we are looking at stuff it changes-because we must be at the point where things happen. waves/particles-if we are a projection then we are waves.
This projection is different and similar:
The similarity is that it comes from a single source, what is called the singularity because it is where all gravity drops out of the projection.   It isn't a singularity in the sense that it has a lot going on; essentially everything here at once, at least according to Einstein.
The difference is the burning nature of time.  It is like the singularity is half of the equation, time is the other half. 
It could be order burning to disorder in the most general sense, it could be a continuous loop with everything being projected and then it reaches the point where the projection begins again.  It appears to us that things change and that we have a role on a very small level on that change so that the burning aspect of time seems more relevant than the pure projection.  But without an equation, c+o(2)=co(2), the explanation is conceptual only.
Some unexplainable aspects using pure matter theories (such as double blind splitting, where an electron goes through both holes showing wave principles) is explainable where matter exists only as a tendency, time expresses that tendency away from the singularity.
We think we are watching particles and waves, but neither is relevant because the type of burning we are watching is the watching of tendencies away from a singularity energized by an infinitely thin layer of time.
We observe the source, the singularity, but only as it burns in time.
The next question to address is whether time runs forward or backwards.  That is, does what we observe  represent the runing of time in its natural diection or are we seeing it backwards.  While we can laugh about that conceptually; if everything has happened, then time can run either way.

Poem-Surrender and fortress building

Riding my bike in the blue cold light
I wrote a poem in my mind
but you will not read it because it is lost
although it was beautiful and about you
instead you will only have this poem
about how good it is to surrender
but we only build our  fortress

I am too close

It isn't as big as you might think and while I think more energy would be better, I am limited to three phase power, alas.
I think it is important to go slow in things that are poorly understood.  I think CERN might actually be safer and I'll explain that.  In the hologram universe as I envision it, there are only two parts; time and the singularity.  The fact that time may be part of the singularity is signficant, but not overly so since everything else is projected onto time whether within the singularity or not.
At CERN the possibilitymust be admitted that a gateway to the singularity might be opened.  This is different from the creation of a singularity or black hole because in my design there is only a single singularity (sounds verbose, but its actually insightful).  The chances of doing anything spectacular at CERN would, in this theory, be limited by the fact that you are bumping tendencies together.  You can see the interaction of tendencies (see prior blogs) but you don't really get to the singularity itself.  It is possible, but I think unlikely that time would be affected signficantly because you are not experimenting with time itself overly much and you are doing it with great expenditures of energy on a very small scale.  The study of time is also not the main focus (the focus is on matter which are just tendencies back to the singularity expressed onto time).  However the high speeds and therefore slow times experienced might yield something significant if there was a way to observe time and that is half of what I am attempting.  The other half is to explore the singularity, seeing everying rather than trying to expend energy outward to see just one thing (for example flight to mars).  The reason there are only these two issues is because there is only time and the singularity in this theoretical model and looking at other things is merely a way of observing these two things in their interaction.
Care must be taken in this sense even at very low energies since the generation of energy (the big bang) from the application of time to the singularity is "singularly" powerful (technical gufaws might be in order here).
In fact, vertigo or a sense of disorder might be generated from minor changes in time related to these observations.  Unfortunately it might also be associated with radiations known or unknown which is why a greater sense of caution than I originally envisioned might be in order even working with low energy and admittedly crude models.  One can wonder if typical radiation indicators would be relevant, but I don't even have the old fashioned film at hand, nor developer to test it.  It seems unlikely that traditional radiation would be a part of any examination, although there was certainly radiation generated in the only other known application of time to the singularity.
Of course this begs the point that you made already.  How can a manifestation or tendency on time affect time and that question is part of the answer perhaps since I conclude that it is possible that being part of the singularity projected on time we have the ability to act from within the singularity and join with our projected tendency (or burning tendency if you would) on time simultaneously and if this suggests any modeling then you are on the right track.

I am too close- vertigo

Thank you for your concern, but I am not interested in private conversations about this subject.
It is vertigo accompanied by nausea, by the way.  Nothing else, nothing worse than a broken heart at worst. 
And in answer to your medical questions, when it is at its worst it is hard to coordinate walking.
But I'm not really interested in discussing designs.  It is the theory that seems more important to me.
If health is an issue, if this vertigo problem is associated with this examination, it would be irresponsible to do anything different.  And no, I don't think that it makes any sense to share anything more than the theory until I know a little more about it myself.
The basis of the experiment which may or may not be the source of the sudden onset of this condition is that given the fact that everything comes from a singularity, it is easy to reach out by going inward to the highest center of gravity.  From there, if the theory is correct there is more energy and more distance than by reaching outward with the expenditure of any power.
Time being the only constant or the only surface outside of the singularity, the issue becomes whether time is burning the singularity, time is the burning, time is playing the singularity and the related question of whether time is burning entropy or burning order.
Any test should be directed to making this determination and you'll get to the same point
I'm not that sick.  It might just be some inner ear problem.  Who knows.  It's not affecting my ability to think or work on this.  That is a problem of having too much else to do.

i am too close-a dramatization

I am attempting to delve into the universe
to understand what others have written
and I find myself increasingly possessed
by the things which are being studied
The closer I get to an understanding
the more sick i feel inside
i've known for some time there was something wrong
lately i suffered increasingly by nausea
and the feeling of being disconnected from everything else
a dizzyness that threatens to pull the world from under me
I can close my eyes and feel the uinvirese spinning below me
i can feel the worm inside of me
sucking whatever life I may have left
perhaps i should destroy the equipment i am making
the things which push towards gravity instead of away
the coils and wires, the metals and alloys
which show that we can only determine how to escape
by moving closer to the source
the source which is one place deep inside
even though it seems to be far away
but my life is forfeit to the things that I seek to capture
if something happens to me who will destroy what I've built
and who will take it and do something else with it
even as I write this, it seems to recede from me
and i don't know how much closer i should get
to a universe which has no love and no reason for us
if it is really this easy to get to the center of the universe
why does it take my sense of peace to get there?
Don't tell me that I need to see a doctor
no one can take away the signularity
no one can give me more time
if the radiations of the uinverse have taught me anything
they have taught me that time is the one radiation that matters
everything else is just a manifestation
we sit here acting like we can understand
when the most fundamental energy is a complete mystery
we can turn matter into light, we can take light and stop it
but until we can add an hour to our lives
we are just rubbing sticks together
and what happens to us if we have the chance to change time
so perhaps i should destroy everything I am building
lest i begin to take myself too seriously

communications

How do you decide when to call someone
who you don't ever talk to
it's like a high school prom
the answer is that the hesitation
is an answer
it doesn't tell you feel
but what is holding you back
can be fear of something else
it can be fear for someone else
it can be fear of yourself
it isn't that there is fear
its where the fear comes from
If the reason for the world is you and i
then failing to act is against nature
if there is no reason for the world
that means there are no consequences
of you, i and love in the universe
the choice is unpleasant
either we waste what we have
or what we have means nothing
We long for freedom until we have it
then we only want the comfort of our chains
There is a time to cast off fear
there is a time to cast of comfort
there is a time to cast of everything
for what you believe in
and if you don't it is worse than chains
it is dedicating your life to ignomity
why are we dedicating our life to such a worthless god

welcome to g space

We have explored the concepts that the universe is a project on time
that space does not exist but is instead just a manifestation of time
that there is a single singularity (not multiple ones)
that therefore matter and energy (beinginterchangeable) are merely manifestations of the return from time to g space (the singularity)
that gravity is nothing more than the tendency of matter to return to the singularity
Now it is time to explore the concept that we are in g-space
While it is seductive to think of time as expanding
it is logical that time is not expanding
that we are not out of the singularity, but instead that time is in it
time  may be nothing more than burning of g space
if you observe people over time you see this burning
likewise there is actual burning in t-space
and the fuel in this case is entropy or organization
Light or energy moving at high speeds and therefore with little interference of space
is actually therefore non-burning of space
and its absorbtion by matter is the incorporation into the burning
this concept will require greater exploration later
while it is not the position of this blog to prove or disprove god
at least not yet
one thing that is clear is that while the concept of an all powerful being is complex
the universe is so much more complex and much more difficult to envision
one can imagine the uniiverse before time
accepted by science in this case as the moment before the big bang
and this concept, which is actually space-time
is consistent with god being a part of everything
if god is the singularity
and if time is a creation to burn entropy
it makes sense that the singularity created time or contained time (same thing)
to burn entropy and create the projection that we experience
and this being the caase, there is no reason for time to exist outside of the singularity
that it is an aspect of the singularity and hence the idea of distance between singularities
is much easier to see as just manifestations of time
this theoretical concept is actually important structurally and practically
since this would make movement over long periods of space (manifestations of time)
would be trivial if the methodology of the manifestation is understood