not a day

Not a day
in decades
not a night
since the first day
you saw me
even though
you did not see
have you been
out of my mind
even though i am
out of my mind
a thousand days
will come and go
and not a day
without you
I learned to live
I'll learn how not
but life without
is not life at all
but there is still
something less
than being fully
engaged and here
wonderful days
eternal nights
not quite the same
nothing alike
but things
that need
to be done
playing the parts
that only you know
doing what can
be done to save
everything we had
though no longer
ours to share