hidden pieces

i look so hard

for a little hidden piece

to find you 

to bring you into my life

to give me understanding

and peace

where are you

are you so hard to find

because you are so small

or is it something else

and what will you give me

if ever i find you

is there some peace

some small comfort

as small as you

but more filling

what are these things

that keep me from finding you

are they bigger than you

do you hide behind them

are they more important

do i miss you because i think of them instead

oh bad little piece of my life

that leaves all the other pieces

lost and alone

no matter how much i know

until i know you

i will be ignorant

no matter what joy i find

without that one missing piece

i will not know true happiness

sometimes you are close

i can reach out and touch you

i can almost 

but not completely hold you

i glimpse what you hold for me

i glimpse what i need from you

completion and contentment

a finish to things

or at least a place to finish them

where are you tonight

hidden from me

by my own blindness
why is it
that you seem so much bigger
more important
than all the other pieces
and why are they nothing
without you

the only thing i want 

is to find

the hidden pieces

i feel a bit of a ghost here.   as if i have walked into an empty classroom which i suppose i have.  on my blog (gmfbooks.blogspot.com, i have been making notes and incorporating them into the 4th book.  The new material is much more extensive than i planned originally.  There is the determination of where the range of force comes from, there is the derivation of space proven, but with a twist, proven by way of creation of the first of the dimensional information arms, but in space, not as a part of the dimensional characteristic itself.