what love is not

not being able to catch your breath
what love is not
when you think about the person you are not with
not a sublime happiness
because you don't fully appreciate it
unless you are apart
perhaps unless you are apart forever
it isn't a sense of peace
that you feel when you are together
it is a sense of panic
when you are never together again
it is acting without thinking

thinking of watching same shows together

thinking of forever

thinking of never seeing each other again

grasping each other tightly

torn apart by things which seem irrelevant by comparison

complete release from care together

a pain that inimates from your very center

that radiates from your center 

to hear the voice that soothes your fever

you want to scream

 

And you want to write her poetry that cannot contain your love
just so she knows you are thinking of her always
No matter what else you do
A work in progress as love is a work in progress