short 1500 swim to cool off. before that sawed off low hanging branches that were affecting parking at the office and at the lot for sale borrowed an axe and cut out off several of the choking vines, these were pretty signficant but not sure how much life there was in all of them.
I did a 2.25 mile walk and between the swim and the walk blew past the minimum im for the week. I was tired for the yard work before both, but even though the swim was short, i did the im part, albeit in 200s instead of 400s.
Some limited outreach from nm both in terms of housing and in terms of getting work done and maybe even a ray of hope in the publishing area. we will have to wait and see how that goes.
I woke at 4, but did not get up till 4:30 troubled by thoughts of capacitors which i had to write down for this next grant thereby solving the last problem that needed to addressed. How to speed up efficiency of the same.
It is 5:15 now, took that long to write everything up. I probably got enough sleep. The cats decided to eat in waves this early in the morning so i have been up and down, puttig down and picking up bowls in the hope that all of them will have something to eat and i wonder if it would make a huge difference if they were all fed in a single bowl. I have become you to some extent, in my case without wanting to be there, the worse person.
I should have some thoughts on NM by the end of the day today; for now i just want to enjoy my coffee and wonder about what is waiting out there. i had to deal with all the emotive talk of suicide yesterday which is very painful and manipulative; but it is the thing which i let work so it is my fault if it is a problem. If the change in location helps witht that what does it cost in terms of isolation? It worked fairly well last time until, well i will not cast blame because we both know there is plenty to go around and mostly from me.
520 and sirens are going off around here, i wonder what is happening.
It is late in the day now. In the heat i rode to the gym and did the weight workout and back and in so many ways i am exhausted now.
NM popped up so fast I have not had time to process it yet. Publishing went sideways, perhaps for the best; but there is no plan at the moment, only a plan to plan./ The easy route is often the hardest for me.
The sky has light even though the sun is down, there is a curved band of clouds high in the sky that looks too unnatural to exist, but it is there.
Would any of this be easier if things for us had not gone sideways, i wonder. With the right information, at least i will know what to do next but i have no idea how to think of it this evening and even if i did, i think i am too tired.
Apparently the old need to eat sea squirts, it sounds awful, but then I have no idea what i am talking about and even though it is a little early, i want to go to sleep. Only around 6 hours last night and i have no reason to believe tonight will be better. It will be a busy weekend and time grows short.
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